I want a friend but I been a hoe to long

I’ve been in industry for almost 5 years at this point. When I first got in the industry, I had a friend and we were pretty much inseparable but as time pass the begin to realize there’s no such thing as in this industry. The thing is, I have to take accountability to. It’s kind of a dog, eat dog industry. After years in the game, and being fucked over your time and time again, I kind of developed avoidant attachment style. So I like crave a deep intimate friendship with another working girl. I’m not a very good friend myself. I don’t know why, but I literally can’t hold a friendship. I go ghost and switch up on everybody. I don’t have the energy to put in the type of effort, it would take to maintain a genuine friendship because I know how this ends. It might not be today or it might not be tomorrow, but eventually one of us is gonna do some things and the other person.. I don’t necessarily think we’re bad people. I just think we’ve been through a lot and start to develop coping mechanisms. I don’t necessarily have bad intentions nor do I think anybody has bad intentions towards me I just think we’re all shades of gray and anybody is liable to do anything. Due to my level of self-awareness I pretty much just stay to myself. Also have a lot of anxiety which makes me seem weird, but I’m not I’m not trying to do anything crazy to anybody and I don’t want anybody to do anything crazy to me so I’ll just pull away anytime I see myself getting close to anybody and I really really don’t mean to, but I can’t help it

Does anybody have any tips in getting over your anxiety and making genuine friends in the industry and I can’t be the only person that feels this way. It just always seems to end in some bullshit.

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u/goddess_tigress — 26 days ago

Any tips on I grow my fansly as a fs worker trying to transition to online

I’m a full service sex worker and have been for almost 5 years. I recently decided that I wanted to start putting more effort into my online presence such as only fans and fansly. I’ve done a little bit of only fans in the past, but full service has always been my bread and butter.. and I don’t plan to quit full service per se. I would just like more autonomy over my rates and who I decide to see. The way I look at it is if I can get my online platforms to at minimum pay my bills I’ll have more autonomy over who I see and I can up by full service bookings to a two hour minimum. It would be much more enjoyable that way.. I know and understand only fans and have been growing there, but I’ve been struggling a little bit with fansly I was just wondering if anybody had any tips and tricks that would help me grow!

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u/goddess_tigress — 2 months ago