u/impulse_control1

I just woke up, I’m still so high, rape, it’s all I can think about. Hahaha I just want to be used and taken advantage of
I want some danger and fun
But I had violent rape before I want a new type
I wanna be so fucked up during it and my mind fucked up after
I don’t typically enjoy sex but my mind won’t stop thinking about my rapist forcing me to feel good while I’m too incapacitated to resist properly

I loveeee being intoxicated during rape
Because even if I changed my mind or genuinely didn’t want it I’d have no choice but to go through with it.. or I wouldn’t want to stop

My ex is staying over at mine, I was crying… he laid on his chest and he hugged me after drinking loads. I put my leg up on him and brushed my arm against his nipple as I went to sleep. He touched my side enough for me to feel a shock, he went slightly under my bra strap. When stroking me little by little he went slightly forwards my breasts, and then slightly by my bra clasp.
Through the sleepiness all I could think was how I wish he’d give into his urges. I’m drunk I won’t stop you, give in.
He grabbed my ass, touched my boob slightly.. micro movements

Do it, I thought. He didn’t

And all I could think was how I might tell him I’m taking a sleeping pill and make sure I have no underwear on, maybe oil myself up so I look wet and smooth. But I’ll only take half of the pill: so I’m sleepy and weak but can stay awake as he uses me, maybe just massaging me and going further further every stroke until he’s fucking me slowly.
Hearing his breathing as he loses control and goes faster and faster. Knowing if I haven’t woken up already I won’t at all.
When it’s too far to turn back I’ll let my moans escape through my tiredness, grind on him and move as I need to get the best sensations, then he won’t be able to stop because of how I feel and he’ll cum in me. Let his cum leak out of me as I lay there helpless

Alternatively I love the idea of him giving me alcohol or too much weed with the idea of raping me all along. Him not being a nice guy after all. Telling me how pretty I am and how hard I’ve made him as he pins me down and all I can do is flutter my eyes and moan in confusion and pleasure. Telling me to be quiet whenever I make noise… cover my mouth as he does deep thrusts. “That’s a good girl take my dick” hearing the pleasure he gets from using me like his little toy

Doing this for love of the game but also got bills to pay.
You can ask me to do whatever you want/send whatever you want

Things I’ve been paid for:

- Nudes and fansigns
- Meet ups (SFW + NSFW)
- “Girlfriend for a week”
- Therapy sessions (I’m also a trainee psychologist)
- sending socks