u/kira9esi

It’s puppy day! I wonder how many she will have. So far she’s at 7 total (6 living).

I hope every Domme here has a beautiful and relaxing weekend full of all their favorites.

Been having a bit of a rough go lately. Got some personal amusement yesterday. Spotted an x in the wild at a school function. Sitting in the front row, legs stretched out like it’s his first papsmear. Just before I walked passed carrying one of my cunt runts, that bitch tucked his legs. I didn’t even have to look at him for him to do it. Didn’t even acknowledge him. Not even a pretend “thanks”.

Dude is like 5’10. There was enough room he didn’t even have to move 😂

Embrace the needs that are screaming at you. Forget the noise that surrounds you. Its empty anyways. What matters now is this right here. Let everything melt away. Leave the stone facade behind. Be gentle for me. Be pliable. Be quiet. Sit in the moment and just feel. Feel the little sensations your body is sending you. The twitches and tingles, the urge to be conditioned. Let’s take a peak and explore together. Tell me about those needs and i will guide you to them.

I was on the phone with him earlier. I could tell from grunts and groans that he was climbing a piece of construction machinery to fuel. 😂 I asked him if he needed a step stool since he fell off something the other week. He laughed and said he wants a step ladder. 😂 I can’t always spoil him with massages.

Last night I was told by a sub “You are so amazing!! No one here knows just how amazing you are” and it felt delicious. It triggered my need for more. I hate waiting to hear the things I deserve.

In reality i am a stay at home mom to 4 boys. Im met with opposition for a good portion of my day. I do my best to carve out secret me time to Domme but it is not enough. Waiting until “me time” to be told how amazing and special I am is bullshit. I need it randomly through out the day. I want little reminders and sends to perk up my days and nights. It gets me excited and eager to interact more often. I crave the mental stimulation to balance out the daily mundane.

Lately it feels like when I schedule time for myself, reality gets jealous and either one gets neglected. I don’t like doing scheduled post on my accounts because it feels fraudulent since it is not me in the moment and it gives me a feeling of robotics, not something human and genuine. I don’t even like premade messages. I want people to get ME in the moment when I respond to them. I completely understand when a conversation needs to be put on pause without explanation when reality comes knocking, it happens frequently but the pull to come back is still there waiting for the chance to send even a quick message.

I had hoped to keep fantasy and reality time separate but there gets to be an imbalance of too much reality at times and having cute little reminders would be wonderful. Ive been watching a lot of Korean and Chinese romance dramas and the way some of these guys yearn for and treat the women they desire has me aching, creating a feeling I can’t quite describe and needing it to be fulfilled.

Im getting bored with house-troll mode and have been wanting to dress up, do my make up and hair, even to just feel human for a bit. Im bored with most of my wardrobe. I do not have luck finding cute or sexy clothes and shoes in my area. Growing up in the country I’ve always preferred jeans and t-shirts or tanks, and over-sized sweats. I would love to shop online but I worry about sizing issues and having to return wrong sizes, yet when I receive packages it feels like a special day for me. It’d be fun to go live late at night, even privately, to show off the upgrades I get before I go to bed.

Reality has been a bit overwhelming lately. Between post-op hostile negotiations, regular hostile negotiations, disappointments and nagging responsibilities it is hard to find a moment of enthusiastic motivation for much of anything.

I know we all need our special attention and there is nothing wrong with that and I encourage it. We need the mental fuel and rewards, regardless of individual realities, because the world is a bit shit show right now. We all need an escape just for a little while and I do find it enjoyable turning your money into mine.

I will consider sincere offers. All Gifts/AV/tributes sent via your choice of MY posted platforms. If instant messaging is easier here that is an option.

Invisible Weirdo. Scrolling all alone, looking for something?
A tingle that turns into a gentle guidance, perhaps?
The slow controlled burn of intimate embarrassment?
A new journey inside and under your skin, consuming your thoughts?
Carefully peering over the edge?
Anticipating what could be?
Small slick vortexes liquidating your reserves.
Aching to be an asset?

All the while I’m just laying here fantasizing about who could be my secret little game piece in dirty and naughty adventures. What lays ahead? How far? Let’s take it slow getting there. I want to savor it.