u/paradelily

Not just guys threatening me or telling me how easy my body is (which is totally hot and true🫣🥺😵‍💫) but the act itself. The way no matter how masc i present, I'm still fundamentally different from a man because in nature I'm designed to be more rapeable and he's designed to have the strength and power and desire to rape me. It feels sooo unfair that no amount of transitioning takes me out of the "prey" role that i was born into.

I get so secretly wet when cis men make rape jokes around me, especially if they know I'm trans. It feels likea veiled threat that my safety and security are totally dependant on real men being restrained enough to not just force me down and open my pussy up just because they can.

There's like this sick feedback loop where sexual assault makes me wet so i get scared because of how aroused and open my pussy is, which makes me easier to molest? Which makes me wetter again just thinking about it. I'm really glad a guy hasn't tapped into that yet and used it to manhandle me into total braindead fuckdoll mode.

And that's not even getting into corrective rape, the idea that FTMs are so vulnerable and breakable that a cock up our pussies makes us dissolve into wet whimpering girls makes me 😵‍💫like men get to feel good when my tight cunny squeezes them, my struggling just makes it tighter and lets them feel more powerful, like my body is loving on their cock and suckling like a bitch no matter how much pain and trauma they rape into me-- then after all that they get the reward of totally curing my tranny delusions and breaking me into a pliable female cocksleeve 😩🤭 all my efforts to pass as male just make his cock get more excited to dick me down and violate my gender identity like a squirmy little ftm girl sextoy😵‍💫😳

[disclaimer: this is pretty heavy but exclusively in-character and only a kink for me]

i love it when a guy clearly sees me as not just a delusional cis woman but like a specific ugly type of female he can abuse more easily because i'm a dumb tranny. like when a chaser tells me he specifically seeks out FTMs because we're \hairy/flat chested/ have unnaturally big and sensitive clits, but he still misgenders me and clearly sees me as a woman, I get so nervous but so turned on at the same time.

like a conventionally attractive girl can at least have an easy time finding a regular boyfriend, but i feel like transitioning is just a beacon to guys who want to abuse me because they know i'm going to take it. specifically seeking out FTMs because we're inferior and treating us like subhuman sex toys is soo predatory but so fucking hot!! guys who know they're better than me and want my body because it's their right to mistreat me are my favorite type of crush. literally any dude who tells me he likes ftms because we're easier to rape instantly wins my heart.

a lot of this is probably similar to any guy who preys on girls with low self esteem, but i think when a man specifically starts seeking out ftm girls because we're easier and more abuseable than cis women, it's like the biggest red flag and that always makes me melt. like he knows i'm the type of prey he can toss around, molest, assault, and call a stupid bitch, and i'll just take it and fall in love as soon as i feel him filling up my tight pussy. and i mean i still squeeze and whine and get wet like every other girl, i'm just more easy to control and delusional. i'm easier to mold and i become docile so fast as soon as a man takes charge.

this also applies to guys who tell me they hate ftms or that their hate boner will hurt me so much when they thrust it inside me. like the idea of a guy getting so hard he has to rape me, because my gender identity pisses him off, makes me dizzy with how quickly i'd spread my legs. please DM me if any of this describes you ❤️

okay, so like, this is literally so embarrassing and my brain is probably just being super stupid right now, but I have to vent 😭💖

Like, I try so hard to be one of the boys? I wear masc clothes with short haircuts and i have pretty typical male hobbies. Like, I want to be a boy so bad! It’s so much easier to just not have to deal with being objectified and harassed

But ugh, my body is literally such a traitor 🙄 Every time a real cishet man insults me or says something super condescending or sexist, my brain tries to be like 'Ew, gross, this guy sucks' but my cunny is opening up like a flower and going 'please pick me pick me omggg' It’s so unfair 😭 Like, a guy will call me a dumb bitch or treat me like a tomboy, and instead of getting mad, my big pink clit just starts throbbing and getting more sensitive and needy for more attention. It’s like it has its own brain and that brain really is just a dumb bitch 🎀💦

I want to be a man, but I can’t even control how much my pussy loves being told what to do. when a guy finds out I'm FTM and starts treating me like I'm just a submissive little female, my pussy gets so damp and my hips just want to sway for him. It’s so humiliating. I literally feel like such a fakeboy sometimes because I try to hide my fat ass and my wide hips, but the second a man gets aggressive, all that 'boy' energy just melts into an easy slutty girl who wants to provoke a guy into mounting her from behind🫣 If a man is super sexist and just wants to use my gender identity as a fleshlight while he gets off to me being a stupid inferior woman, why does my body feel so happy and fertile and ready to be taken? 🙈 It’s like my cunt is literally in love with men who hate me😩 #ftmgirlproblems