I’m a 21 year old girl, Me and my partner live together and have done for a few years now. Both are extremely busy as we are students and also are fairly career focused but love a night at the pub and weekend away sort of people. Unfortunately he spends a major amount of time with his mates and loves a night out with the “boys” which can sometimes leave me feeling quite lonely and sad as I have moved away to join him in his home city though we go uni at the same place. My partner is stunning, however he lacks excitement or it’s maybe that I’m bored? We have now been a couple for a while and it’s fairly vanilla. I’ve always been a sexually active lady I’d say, I’ve had a few partners and it’s no secret I enjoy being intimate. This is because I’m a fairly kinky girl, I’ve got fairly few limits (poo etc) but have a huge kink for older men and being submissive to them (the idea of being humiliated and worshipped really does turn me on) and My boyfriend is very much sexual when he’s had a drink I want acc wanted someone who wants me all the time.
The other might me and my boyfriend went out for a few drinks with his friends as we are wrapping up uni and we just went to the pub. It’s not secret his friends fancy me, I have been told my friends of friends that they’ve comments about fucking me and the way I dress, last summer we all went magaluf together and we got a little villa and I literally could tell there were eyes staring at my bottom at all times and I really enjoyed it. Im a very much thong bikini sort of girl so I didn’t really leave much to te imagination. There were no en suites so whenever I came out the bathroom I’d come in my towel naked under and would love the idea of knowing his best mates wanted to absolutely ruin me.
Fast forward to this week gone, one of his mates who I won’t name off course whispered in my ear he wanted to chat to me outside so went outside for a vape. He said to me my boyfriend slept with one of the girls in his uni course, I didn’t know whether to believe him or not as he often does have a thing for lying. However the girl in question I’ve seen the way he speaks to her and he had her and talks to her regularly about uni and I at the time thought it was more true then false. I was obviously angry so I asked him how he knew and he actually ended up showing me messages between him and the girl and she mentions they went out and she felt guilty knowing he had a girlfriend. I was obviously annoyed. This guy who told me was his best mate he’s been wanting to fuck me for a long time. I ended up going back inside and said I didn’t feel to well and was going home and his friend said he would drop me home before coming back because he wasn’t drinking and he had his car. We ended up going back to mine we sat inside because I wanted to know the full story and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex, I just didn’t care, I didn’t want him to be soft i didn’t want him to cuddle me or pull out or anything, not that it matters I’m on the pill, we ended up having sex the living room and I loved it the excitement off doing something I shouldn’t have was exciting.
We havnt met since that time and I hadn’t told my boyfriend about I cheated and know he did to, I want to carry on my relationship but it felt so good just being used for my body by someone who’s lusting over me. The thing is my boyfriend isn’t innocent I think he’s a cuck. He encouraged me to wear things on holiday and I’m not the perfect girl by any means but I don’t think im ugly, I’m 5ft 2 and very petite I have a little peach bum and I’m 30D boobs but I am fairly pale. He encouraged me to wear dresses with no panties around, he acc recommended i dress up as slutty maid for Halloween with my ass and Boobs out around his friends. I think he enjoys the idea of me fucking his friends or the idea of his friends wanting to fuck me. In the past he’s spanked me and squeezed my ass and boobs and put his hands down my skirt around his friends when we are being intimate or had a few drinks at parties and i enjoy it.
However after cheating I don’t feel fulfilled I want that feeling again of hiding and cheating I want to sneak around with someone much older then me, have some fun lusty humiliating sex which I regret and do things I’ve never done before and be pushed to the limit.