u/puffindatza

So my NP has been very anti benzo and pro antipsychotic and antidepressants. I was up to 6-7 meds

I was even warned by the pharmacist that 3 raises my risk of seizure, and 2 can cause me to lose consciousness.

TLDR; my NP is tapering me off pins. Sleep has been shit, staying up 30hours, and sleeping maybe 4-5 hours when i am able to sleep

GP prescribed me 60mg valium.

My question is, am i supposed to tell my NP? I dont want to get red flagged as drug seeking, but i suffer from a movement disorder, PTSD and bipolar

Prior to benzos i never left my home, with benzos im more social, somewhat able to do things on my own, live a life normally and calms that movement disorder. i think the pros outweigh the cons for me

Plus antipsychotics and antidepressants also have long term health issues and some have felt more stimulating effecting that movement disorder.

Since starting opiates, my personality kind of changed.

Im a lot more angrier, i mean ive always been the type to be a hot head. I had a heated temper growing up i was a product of my environment, yk physical alterations

I wanted to change my ways, to be nicer not so tempered. I did, it only lasted maybe 4 years

As i began using substances again. My personality kind of changed, and now with opiates ive been using for 4 months. Ive already gotten into a physical alteration, and ive nearly been in multiple but usually dudes back down for whatever reason but its like im a psycho or some shit

I popped 40mg with 6mg Xanax, noddded like a mf but already feel the effects wearing off

But damn I plan to get more already

I’ve been seeing a new psychiatrist, and she initially pushed back on the benzodiazepines. My old psych had me on 3-4 daily, I struggled on the dose she gave me, after multiple sessions she upped me to 3x daily

Great, a few sessions later she tells me I may need “a higher level of care” and then prescribed me a small amount of Ativans (4)

Walgreens told me I cannot pickup my Ativans because I picked up my klonopins already. I must wait 15 days

Issue is, the Ativans were prescribed to get me through something clinical that I’ve been struggling with. I’m supposed to get that done this week, so it becomes a fork in the road for me.

Anyone been in this situation? I plan to let my pysch know on Monday when I plan to pick up the Ativans, I don’t wanna say anything rn so it doesn’t seem like I’m drug seeking.

Edit: I’m being “allowed” to pick them up, my pysch had to call two times because the pharmacist refused.