Im only 18 bruh this is so sad lmao
Im 18, 19 in january. Ive always been addicted to drugs, and had a special intrest in them. Pressed bars at 14, stealing cigs at 11, weed at 12, Dxm, ket, etc….. ive been to rehab in total 19 months from ages 14-16. Which was majority of those years. I got out august 2024, and was clean for 8 months! I felt great, then relapsed back into thc, then nicotine. I PROMISED myself would never do Molly, xanax, any opiate, alchohol, or really any hard drug EVER again. My mom is a severe alcoholic (1yr sober🥳).
Now here i am, Making meth nasal sprays, buying half a zip instead of fucking body wash and Face wash, Buying pressed adderalls. I tried coke months ago for like 2 days and stopped, hated that shit and felt horrible for finally relapsing on smth “hard”.
But man oh man, this shit is something else.
I can feel my blood pressure theu the sky, my feet arw white, ive lost prolly 10lbs in 10days, the first thing my pops said when he saw me, only 4 days after first using, was, “you need some meat on your bones buddy”. Im waking up depressed than ever, crying Like i would in rehab.
Ive been using for less than 2 weeks.
If i throw away the half oz thats otw to me rn, and truly never touched this shit again, how much would that affect me? How significant would this short period be.
And do you think its even possible for me, an addict to everything, to kick this shit?
I know its horrible and while continue to get worse, i havent seen even close to the worst of it.
Please help.