u/sublucien

Yesterday I beat my previous denial record of 75 days. Yesterday was day 76 and Sir finally allowed me to orgasm. I was worried he was going to extend my sentence to 100 days like he teased before, but when I asked permission he granted it with enthusiasm.

It's been a wild ride with plenty of ups and downs over the last 76 days. Lots of edging, a fair few ruins, plenty of punishments and rewards, following a two week denial course, funky mental health and 76 days of constant horniness. I've enjoyed my time denied and would absolutely do it all again, but my time was up and I finally got to have my well-deserved orgasm.

I was hoping it would be pleasurable. Instead all it felt like was a ruin with more intense contractions and extra cramping. I didn't get any of the dopamine rush. I felt disappointed and sad afterwards, kinda zoning out and being upset that it didn't feel like I hoped it would. The kind of depression (or drop I guess?) lasted for a while. I'm glad that Sir was right next to me but giving me the space to process my feelings and talk about it.

He decided that in an attempt to make orgasms less painful, he would be prescribing me at least one orgasm every day for a while. He claims it would work out the muscles and get me used to cumming again. I'm a little disappointed that he's not just throwing me straight back into denial, but hey, Doctor knows best right? I have to have my daily orgasm to get everything in working order again. Who knows? Maybe I'll get to have another go at beating my record, hopefully by 100 days next time.

If other denial enjoyers should take anything from this, know that the orgasm you so desperately crave will never live up to the amount of pleasure you feel by edging and denying your dripping holes. Staying needy feels so much better.

I gave away my right to orgasm on the 22nd May 2026. My last full orgasm was on the 21st May 2026.

About a month after giving up my orgasms my mental health started to get a bit funky. I spoke to Sir about this and we decided that instead of never orgasming again, that my goal would be to beat my previous record of 75 days denied. That day comes up in two days, and on the 5th August I will have officially beaten my previous record. As far as I'm aware I will be allowed to orgasm on the 5th, however Sir has teased potentially extending it as "if you're gonna beat your record it can't just be by one day". I will only find out his plan when I ask permission to cum on the 5th.

As it gets closer to day 76 I'm feeling more anxious about having an orgasm. My last few orgasms were painful and I'm worried that after being denied for over 2 months, my orgasm will be more painful and disappointing.

I do hope Sir lets me cum my brains out for a few days once my denial time is up but I'm also scared that its not gonna be pleasurable and just hurt. I'll be very disappointed if I've gone all this time without an orgasm only for it to hurt when I finally get to. Part of me wants Sir to extend my denial time so I don't have to worry about painful orgasms but the other part of me just wants him to let me cum as much as I want to get my hole used to orgasms again so that future ones don't hurt. I'm very conflicted on how I feel about it coming to an end.

Permanent denial just isn't realistic for me. It does affect my mental health at times and I feel like I'm bothering Sir by being desperate for him all the time. But at the same time I'm scared to orgasm because I have a feeling it's just gonna hurt. The crampy feeling post-orgasm was the reason I initially gave up my right to orgasm, but I know I can't go on forever without having them.

I just want it to be the 5th already so I can find out what Sir has in store for me and then I don't have to worry anymore. If Sir wants me to cum then I'll cum regardless of how much it hurts, I'll cum again and again and again if he wants me to. I just want to know his plan but it'll be no fun if he tells me now.

A lot of conflicting feelings going on and I just wanted to ramble a bit.

NOTE: I am not looking for anyone to control my diet. I am owned by my wonderful Fiancé and have no desire to engage in this with anyone else.

Whilst I haven't asked Sir if he'd be willing to participate in food control, based on things he's said I have reason to believe the answer would be a firm no. So I'd like to try it on my own for a bit until I'm confident enough to ask Sir if he'd be up for trying a little.

I'm a very picky eater, most likely have ARFID, so I have to be very careful in regards to this. I've had fantasies for a while now of Sir deciding if, when and what I eat. I've pictured him not allowing me to eat for a couple of days and me sneaking a sandwich when I get home from work before him. Then of him catching me eating, throwing whatever's left away, dragging me to the bathroom and forcing his fingers down my throat until I've vomited everything up. Sir making me eat things I don't like but are good for me, or pureeing/blending foods I eat, or making me eat everything cold.

I think it's the lack of control that turns me on. Him calling the shots on important things like this. Making me fill up on water to quell the hunger then not allowing me to use the bathroom until I'm seconds away from an accident.

I've never liked my body. I used to be really skinny as a kid then I put a load of weight on as a teenager and became overweight. I'd like to lose a chunk of that weight, but I lack the motivation and it's difficult to eat healthy when I'm such a picky eater. I think combining it with kink might help my motivation and make this more fun.

So my questions are:

1. How do you ignore the feelings of hunger?

2. What are some low calorie foods that make you feel full?

3. Any ideas for an exercise schedule?

4. Any challenges I can combine this with? For example maybe for each snack I have I have to cane myself a certain amount of time?

5. General tips for how to go about this in a fun and safe way, with rewards and punishments for certain things

Please keep things to comments. Any tips or ideas are much appreciated. Thank you!

At the start of each month, generate a random number between 0-4. This will be how many orgasms you are allowed in that month (there are four weeks in a month, so you may have up to 4 orgasms).

Next, generate a random number between 0-30 (or 31 or 28/29, depending on how many days in the month you are playing). This will be the dates in which you are allowed to have an orgasm.

For example, if you draw a 3 for your amount of orgasms, you'd draw 3 numbers between 0-30 and have your orgasms on those dates. However, since you are including the number 0, it may mean you have to forfeit one of those 3 orgasms if you roll a 0.

As this is a game of chance, there are multiple ways that it could make you suffer. You could end up only being allowed 1 orgasm, on the 1st of the month, leaving you denied for the rest of the month. You could roll a 0 and end up being denied for almost 2 months depending on what last months date rolls were.

If anyone gives this a try I'd love to hear about it! Comments only please. Once my current denial period ends I will ask Sir if he wants me to do this game every month. I think it would be fun.

We're making out on the sofa. I had a few hits from our Special Vape a couple minutes prior so I'm fuzzy and sensitive. Every drag of his lips against mine makes me moan.

I'm hard almost instantly but I ignore it and focus on the feeling of his lips. I do my best not to jump his bones right there, letting him guide me instead.

We eventually go to bed and chat for a while. More making out follows, his hands running up and down my sides, over my arse, gripping my neck to pull me closer. All I can think is "fuck I want you inside me". But again, I let him decide where this goes.

Sir puts his thigh between my legs and that's it. I start grinding my cock against it, starting slow until the desperation sets in and my brain clicks into Puppy Mode. I have a fleeting thought of "I'm going to get carpet burn" as I speed up, and suddenly my brain is empty and all that matters is the pleasure. My hips moving fast against his thigh, our lips pressed together, moans falling from the both of us. Sweaty, wet, hard, friction, pleasure.

Sir takes off his clothes and I'm drooling. He tells me to get on all fours and I do, turning away from him, expecting to be fucked straight away like the desperate cock whore I am. He tells me to turn around and face him and my cock jumps in excitement at the thought of "I get to suck his cock!!".

Instead, he tells me "beg, like a dog". I'm so thankful he doesn't make me speak. There's not a single human word I can say in that moment. I am reduced to a desperate mutt under his instruction. I bend my arms in front of me and let out a couple of pathetic little whines. I lock eyes with him the whole time, my attention entirely on him.

"My good puppy!" I feel the praise throughout my entire body. My heart feels like it grows in size and my dick twitches. The desperation for him gets stronger.

He tells me to show him how much I want it, to wag my tail for him. If I wasn't in Puppy Mode I would have been embarrassed, but I turn around on my hands and knees and shake my arse as eagerly as possible. He laughs and calls me a Good Boy, lining himself up with my hole, to which I immediately push back onto him without thinking. 

The stretch feels so fucking good every time. A little pain but I'm a masochist so it only fuels my desire more. He pounds me on all fours for a while, my arms and legs eventually giving out so I end up prone. We fuck like that until we're both too knackered to continue.

We lay next to each other for a while. My man has his cock in his hand and I'm playing with his balls. I'm still in Puppy Mode and struggling to respond to Sir's 'I love you's'. I land on 'awrooroo', not so much an actual sentence but a noise vaguely resembling 'I love you'.

Naturally I'm still desperate, so I climb on top of him and sink myself down on his dick, watching the pleasure show on his face as he moans and closes his eyes. I grind myself against his pubes, arching my back and feeling the thickest part of him stretch me over and over.  I ride him until my thighs burn, desperately trying to push through it. I falter, dropping my head to his chest and panting as I try to catch my breath. Sir gives me a minute then yanks my head up by my hair, slapping me hard across the face. I instinctively start riding him again, even more desperate than last time. He laughs at me, "oh that got you going didn't it?" With a fistful still of my hair, he slaps me again, and again, and again, and I'm trying to ignore how badly my thighs hurt.

I can't ignore the burn anymore and once again drop my head to Sir's chest. He complains it's too hot and tells me to lay down next to him. We're both soaked in sweat and each other's precum. I lay there completely fucked out, aching thighs, panting and letting out little content noises every so often. Sir continues to masturbate and I start twisting and pulling at his nipples. I watch him cum all over himself, moaning out my name as he rides it out. At that point I feel satisfied as if I myself had orgasmed.

I can't stop myself from tasting him, so I clean up the cum from the tip of his cock and some of his stomach with my tongue before handing him a towel to clean up the rest.

We lay holding each other for a while. I still haven't come out of Puppy Mode so Sir scratches my head and praises me. A couple of minutes pass and Sir has to tell me to go to the bathroom (always pee after penetrative sex!). I protest of course, as I'm very comfortable tucked under his arm. But I do as I'm told and the walking on two legs to the bathroom brings me out of Pup Mode. 

When I get back to bed I start talking and Sir tells me he didn't expect me to be verbal when I got back. We chat for a while about this scene and past scenes. Both of us are knackered post-sex so we finish up our chat, get cuddled up and pass the fuck out.

It's now been one month since I had a full orgasm. It's definitely been tough but I'm very proud of myself for making it this far. This has been the longest I've gone without orgasm in well over a year and despite the struggle I'm glad I gave my orgasms up.

Unfortunately though, on Wednesday and Friday this week I did break schedule. I was having a tough day on Wednesday, which is supposed to be a humping only day for me, and I ended up touching my cock to multiple edges. I also had a very hard edge, which I'm not entirely sure if it was a ruin or not. Looking back I think it likely was.
The same happened on Friday. I'm only supposed to cockwarm/fuck myself with my dildo, but again I ended up touching my cock to multiple edges, and had another ruined orgasm. Sir did punish me for both ruins/schedule breaks by making me drink one of those horrible ginger/tumeric vitamin shots and by hosing me down with a cold shower (I absolutely hate cold showers, so this is a very effective punishment).

We aren't counting ruined orgasms as breaking my denial streak since they don't make me feel any less horny and don't give me any pleasure. They are, however, a punishable offence. If Sir keeps up with making the punishments things I genuinely hate (like the vitamin shots and cold showers) I will definitely be deterred from breaking the rules again.

Yesterday, user u/DesignedDenial posted a project they've been working on. It is a 14 day long orgasm denial course in which it gives you morning and evening edging tasks to follow. I passed this along to Sir and we have decided to do it together! Sir is going into it with no full committments, meaning there's no pressure if he fails as he is just doing it for fun and as a little thing we can do together. I, however, will be following it with full committment, meaning that if I fail to follow each day's task then I will be punished. I'm very excited to see each day's tasks and see how following this journey makes me feel.

I began the course this morning, as soon as I woke up and still sleepy like it said. I found myself wet as soon as I woke up, likely from last nights activities and the strange sex dream I had. It helped make this mornings task easier. It didn't take me as long as I thought to complete. This afternoon's task I think will be a little more difficult as it requires an edge in a position I've never edged in before. Regardless of how long it takes, I will complete the task. I will be writing about each day's tasks in my Kink Journal, as with everything else.

Before I found this course I was considering asking Sir for permission to take a short break in my denial as I have been struggling a little with my mental health. I was on the fence about breaking my denial as I'm still fully committed to going as long as possible without orgasming, but I also need to listen to my struggles. However after speaking about how I was feeling with Sir, then discovering this course, I decided having this structure from the course will help keep me in the right headspace and make things more fun.

Overall, I am proud of myself for not allowing myself to fully orgasm, though I am disappointed I broke my schedule and had a couple ruins. It feels really good to see the number of days without orgasm increase. I'm still a long way off my previous record of 75 days denied, but I will do everything in my power to ensure I make it there again and hopefully beat it. As long as Sir keeps me right and punishes/praises me accordingly, I think I can make it. I've made it a month and I will make it another month and another and so on. I can't wait to see this denial course through!

I'm not sure if this is the best place, so please forgive me if it's not.

I'm a submissive and my boyfriend/dominant does a very good job at satisfying my desires. Naturally there are some things that I want that he isn't comfortable doing, which is completely fine.

However I'm finding that I want sex/kink activities pretty much all the time and it's just not realistic for every single desire of mine to be fulfilled. My boyfriend has stated before that he worries he's not doing enough for me which is absolutely not the case. My libido is just constantly sky high and I want to explore a lot of kinks because I'm finally in a place where I'm comfortable with sex after years of being terrified.

Sex and kink are constantly on my mind. I'm constantly horny, I masturbate way too much, and I want things that are borderline abusive and completely unrealistic. I feel like I'm too much. I feel like I'm making my boyfriend feel like shit because he can't fulfill my desires.
I thought it was just me being excited to be comfortable with sex finally but I'm finding myself actually hating myself for wanting things I can't have and for always being horny. I don't know what to do about it. This topic comes up so much in our conversations and I always feel like a bother for bringing it up again and again but it's taking a toll on me and I have no idea what to do.

I have made it past three weeks orgasm free! I'm now at 24 days denied, which matches my previous longest denial period with Sir. I'm very proud of myself!

As I write this I am sitting with my insertable vibrator buzzing away at my G-spot and cock. I am dripping went and so incredibly pent up, especially given yesterday I wasn't allowed any stimulation what so ever.

So far today I have had 10 edges and each one has left me more desperate to feel Sir's cock stretching my hole open. I really hope he decides to fuck me when he gets home later, as selfish as that sounds. I just want him to use me to cum then leave me unsatisfied and wanting more. I'm so desperate to just be his personal fleshlight to use and abuse however he wants. I don't care that I'll ultimately just end up more desperate than before. Staying denied means Sir always has a wet, eager hole ready for him to masturbate into.

I love how eager to please and pent up I am. It does annoy Sir a bit when I sit there all puppy eyed waiting for him to use me though. I need to work on being less selfish. At the end of the day, if he doesn't want to use me then thats his choice! I don't have the right to be disappointed if my greedy holes aren't used. I need more discipline in that sense. I need to learn not to listen to my desperate cock and embrace the horny feeling and be okay with not being used.

I was hoping to write a big thing about this but I'm genuinely so pent up I can't get any coherent words out. I made it to three weeks, I'm proud of myself, and I'm looking forward to hitting a month.

Sir doesn't have many 'official' rules for me, but there's a couple we have in place.

1. I am not allowed to orgasm (I gave them up on the 22nd May).

2. If Sir tells me "thats an order" I must do that task regardless of if I want to or not.

3. I must follow the Masturbation Schedule. If I ask to break it, there is a consequence, usually being a list of tasks I must complete before I can break schedule. The schedule is as follows:

Mondays: Free day! I can masturbate however I want.

Tuesdays: Anal only/training. I am not allowed to touch my cock or front hole and must only use my arse.

Wednesdays: Hump day. I am only allowed to stimulate myself by humping/ grinding against objects. No insertions or direct cock stimulation allowed.

Thursdays: I must edge exactly once with each vibrating toy we have.

Fridays: Cockwarming/ dildo fucking only. I must have my front hole stuffed often and am not allowed to touch my cock.

Saturdays: Constant stimulation. Whether this be by wearing a vibe all day, having either of my holes stuffed, or fucking myself, I must be doing something that stimulates me at all times.

Sundays. Rest day. I am not allowed to touch my cock or stuff my holes. Absolutely no stimulation to my genitals/arse allowed.

These are the only official rules we have in place. Sir says I'm so well behaved the majority of the time that we don't really need rules to regulate my behaviour, but I like having rules as it helps me be the best submissive I can and ensures I look after both him and myself. The rest of the things we participate in behaviour wise are just habits and things I like to do.

For example:

- We greet each other with a hug and a kiss when we get home from work.

- I do everything he asks me to unless there's a valid reason not to. 'I can't be arsed' or 'I'm too tired' is often not a valid excuse.

- I try to do housework as often as I can so that he doesn't have to worry about it.

- I bring him leftover food from work so he doesn't have to do much cooking (I work in a kitchen).

- I provide him with a task list on days he's off work and I'm at work. He does what he can and if he completes all tasks I will often reward him (Sir is a switch but I'm not much of a Dom, so I do little things here and there so he feels at least a little dominated sometimes).

- I have a dedicated Kink Journal in which I write about each time we have sex, each scene, ideas, fantasies and horny thoughts. Anything to do with sex/kink. Sir is free to read this journal at any time.

There is likely more to list here but I'm drawing a blank. Most of the things I do as habits are my own little rules for myself to try to service my Owner as best I can. Like I said, Sir doesn't think we need many rules but that doesn't mean I can't make some for myself.

I have a few goals for this year to help me be a better submissive too. Ultimately I'd like to better myself physically and mentally so I can service him better and look after myself better. I'm not always the best at self care, but looking after myself is the best way for me to be a good submissive. I can't service him if I'm not looking after myself. My goals are as follows:

- Learn how to cook. Especially risotto as it's one of Sir's favourite dishes.

- Snack less, exercise more, lose some weight, do squats regularly (so I can ride Sir for longer without my thighs burning). I've started logging what I'm eating and drinking to get a better understanding of all that. Being careful with this as I don't have a great relationship with food to start with.

- Get back into daily self care on Finch. Brush teeth 2x, trim my beard at least once a week, use minoxidil on facial hair, stop picking at my fingers and lips, etc.

- Learn how to make good bread. Get back into baking properly again.

- Find a good skin care routine for my face so I break out less. This is to stop Sir from pestering me about popping my spots/blackheads. Bit of a selfish one.

- Attend more kink and queer events.

- Make friends (as I have none really).

- Get a better job that I don't hate.

- Train my arse to be able to take Sir's cock.

- Reduce my gag reflex so I can deepthroat Sir.

- Get more comfortable with speaking aloud. Especially with voicing my desires and when I'm told to beg, and when Sir tells me to talk him through things when he's in Sub Mode. I tend to whisper or mumble because it feels embarrassing. I need to get over that.

- Write more. Whether it be things like this, fiction, essays, etc. Just write more. Be more creative again.

Again, there's probably a million more goals I have but these are what's come to mind now.

Please feel free to comment any suggestions on rules or habits or things I can do to better myself, whether they be implemented myself or under Sir's guidance. Keep it in comments though, I don't want any private messages.

At 9:28pm tonight, it will be 13 days since my last orgasm. At 12:58pm on the 22nd May I gave away my right to orgasm indefinitely.

Sir and I have mostly got a schedule in place for how I'm allowed to masturbate when I'm alone. We are just missing Fridays and Saturdays. It is as follows:
Mondays - Free day! I can masturbate however I want.
Tuesdays - Anal only. No touching my cock or hole.
Wednesdays - Hump day. I can only hump objects/the air.
Thursdays - I must edge once with each of our vibrators.

I'm home alone today for the first time in about a week. I've barely had any stimulation the last week so I asked Sir if I could sack off the schedule today and masturbate however I like. He agreed, under the condition that I complete a list of tasks that he wrote out for me this morning. I have managed to complete them all!

I'm quite surprised (but VERY pleased) that I haven't had any slip ups yet. I'm being strict with myself, only allowing myself to masturbate for five minutes when a random timer goes off. The timer is set to go off between 5 minutes and 30 minutes and I don't know when it will go off. But when it does I must masturbate for five minutes, with the vibe on low, no more, no less. Whilst I have orgasmed within five minutes before, I find that it's the perfect amount of time to get me to the edge without going over. And with the unknown cool down time it definitely helps.

13 days isn't anywhere near my record for days without orgasming but it's good progress. I am determined to beat my record of 75 days. Ideally I won't cum ever again. I would make me very disappointed if I accidentally came or ruined and I'd be sure to beg Sir for a brutal punishment.

Sir doesn't seem all that fussed if I cum or not so I simply don't ask for permission to cum. I'll ask permission to masturbate and to edge, but never to cum. I don't want to cum. I'm actively trying not to.

I'm quite looking forward to extending my time without an orgasm. I hope I don't ever think about having one again. I hope my cock forgets how to cum. I'm better when I'm wetter. I stay eager to please. I'm able to be the best submissive I can be when I'm not thinking about being greedy.

To another two weeks, to a month, to six months, to a year, and so on. To the rest of my life. Goodbye orgasms, you aren't needed anymore.

I've been into orgasm denial since I learned about the concept as a teenager. I'd read about it in some fanfiction and instantly enjoyed the idea of being refused an orgasm.

This enjoyment was solidified when I had my first sexual experience at 18. I was terrified of intimacy, and as a result I could never get myself to cum. I spent a couple years faking orgasms with my ex fiancé until I finally had the courage to tell him I couldn't cum. I could always orgasm on my own, but never with a partner. I'm always in my head too much.

When I met my current boyfriend I told him outright that I've never been able to orgasm with a partner, and not to be worried or upset if I didn't get off with him. It took a lot of work but now I can orgasm with him present whilst I masturbate, sometimes even with his fingers inside of me whilst I use our wand on my cock. It still takes a lot of work though. Even though I'm completely comfortable with him there's still some barrier. We play with orgasm denial from time to time. I always ask permission to cum if I'm close and actually want to. Most of the time he says yes, but there's been the odd time he has said no. I did a 24 day stint back in November when he was on a long trip away. I didn't orgasm once during that time. Did another no-orgasm period during March 1st to 21st in the lead up to my birthday.

Long term orgasm denial is something I've always loved. I usually do shorter periods, averaging between 2 days to 7 days, but I love the idea of being challenged to go as long as possible. With a previous long term play partner I managed to get to 75 days without orgasm. That's the longest I've managed so far. So, my goal now is to try beat that.

On the 22nd May 2026 I gave away my right to orgasm indefinitely. I wrote out a whole message to my Dominant stating I didn't want to cum anymore and gave six reasons why. Permanent orgasm denial has always appealed to me and whilst I know its unlikely that I'll never cum again, I at least want to go as long as possible. Sir has told me I can cum if I want, but I don't want to. I want to beat my previous denial record. I've made a promise to myself to never cum again. So when I masturbate I get myself just barely at the edge and stop. I limit myself to 5 minutes edging every hour just so I don't get carried away. I'd be very disappointed in myself if I accidentally came, and even if I ruined, because I wrote a whole thing about not wanting to cum and I made a promise to myself and letting myself cum even by accident would go against everything I want for myself currently.

The good thing is that Sir doesn't try to make me cum. He knows how difficult it is for me to get there so he doesn't bother trying. He still pleasures me, eats me out and fingers me and uses toys on me, but when he wants to stop, he stops. A lot of our sex involves me making him cum (via fucking my hole, my mouth or using toys on him) and then me being left all pent up. I love it. I love that the normal for us is me being used as a means for him to cum and then that's that. We still engage in aftercare and all the usual stuff, I just don't cum. And that's perfect to me.

I had my last orgasm on the 21st May 2026. I hope that's my last for a long long time. I think I will have accidents every now and then, but in an ideal world I'll never feel myself cum ever again. I'll only feel orgasms through Sir pumping his load deep in my hole or wherever he chooses. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Sorry, since 2023 not 2013!

Transgender man here. Title wouldn't let me put TM.

I keep a record of each time I've orgasmed, as well as each time my boyfriend and I engage in a kink/sex act. I note down the date and time of each orgasm. I write the date and a brief summary of what my boyfriend and I got up to for each time we have sex.

I like to reminisce and this is a fun way to do it.

Ask me anything!

So my Dominant and I are trying to come up with a kind of masturbation schedule for me/ rules for each day of the week. This is to make sure I stay obedient and don't accidentally do something I'm not suppopsed to. So far we have:
Mondays - Free day, I can do what I want
Tuesdays - Anal only. No touching cock or front hole.
Sunday - Rest day. No masturbating allowed.
I'm open to hearing vague suggestions like the ones we have so far, as well as highly specific and detailed suggestions. I will being doing my best to stick to this schedule so that I can be the best denied sub I can be.

Thank you!

I'm a submissive who's been into orgasm denial since I was a teenager.

Yesterday, I wrote a message to my Dominant explaining that I don't want to cum anymore and listed six reasons why. He's decided to take me up on that and has stated there'll be rigid enforcement should I orgasm, regardless of if it was an accident or not.

My goal for the longest time has been to be permanently orgasm free, but I've always failed at that. My longest time denied was 75 days, I'm yet to beat that. Hopefully, with Sir's help, I will never orgasm again (or at least rarely orgasm, I'm sure there'll be slip ups every now and then.

I'm open to any questions, ask me anything!

Hi Sir! I was doing some thinking this morning whilst I was edging. I've realised I don't want to cum anymore. I want to sign away all my orgasms over to you. There's a few reasons I want to give up on orgasms entirely, so I will tell you them here 

Firstly, they make me selfish. When you tell me I have permission to cum I focus more on my own pleasure than yours. When we're playing I should be focusing on pleasuring you, not focusing on my greedy little cock.

Secondly, when I cum I feel less submissive. Orgasms take away that lovely, desperate, eager to please feeling I have when I'm denied. Being orgasm-free keeps me in the right headspace, keeps me wanting to do anything to please you, keeps me wanting to service you.

Thirdly, being denied teaches me self control. If I can hold off on orgasming despite craving one, then I can have self control in other matters too. 

Fourth, as selfish as it is, I love seeing the "days without orgasm" counter go up. It's a reminder of my obedience and my submission. 

Fifth, the more you allow me to orgasm, the greedier I'll get. I'll come to expect you to say yes when I ask. I don't want that. I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to only think about my own pleasure. My place as a service submissive means that I should always be thinking about how best to pleasure you. I don't want to expect you to pleasure me. I want the expectation to be that you get to decide what you'll do to me. I don't want to be upset that I didn't get what I want. I want it to be normal that I pleasure you and then I'm left frustrated and pent up.

Sixth, I'm more creative when I'm denied. The longer I go without orgasm the more ideas pop into my head. I can get ideas on how you can further tease me and torture me and make me so so wet. I can get more ideas on how to pleasure you better and how to service you. My depraved, sexually frustrated mind likes to come up with things that will make me even more depraved and frustrated. It's a loop.

The only thing that makes me worry about giving up my orgasms is that you like to watch me cum. And ultimately it is your decision if I cum or not. But I don't think orgasms are a good thing for me. They ruin my ability to serve, take me out of the headspace and generally kinda hurt a bit. They aren't good for me. I genuinely think I'd be better off without them. Then I can focus more on servicing you any way you ask.

So this is me giving up my orgasms entirely to your decision. I promise I will not ask you to cum, I will not ask you to do things a certain way so it pleasures me more, I will do everything you ask without complaint, I will focus entirely on whatevers most pleasurable for you. I am yours completely to use as you please.

Hi Sir! I was doing some thinking this morning whilst I was edging. I've realised I don't want to cum anymore. I want to sign away all my orgasms over to you. There's a few reasons I want to give up on orgasms entirely, so I will tell you them here 

Firstly, they make me selfish. When you tell me I have permission to cum I focus more on my own pleasure than yours. When we're playing I should be focusing on pleasuring you, not focusing on my greedy little cock.

Secondly, when I cum I feel less submissive. Orgasms take away that lovely, desperate, eager to please feeling I have when I'm denied. Being orgasm-free keeps me in the right headspace, keeps me wanting to do anything to please you, keeps me wanting to service you.

Thirdly, being denied teaches me self control. If I can hold off on orgasming despite craving one, then I can have self control in other matters too. 

Fourth, as selfish as it is, I love seeing the "days without orgasm" counter go up. It's a reminder of my obedience and my submission. 

Fifth, the more you allow me to orgasm, the greedier I'll get. I'll come to expect you to say yes when I ask. I don't want that. I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to only think about my own pleasure. My place as a service submissive means that I should always be thinking about how best to pleasure you. I don't want to expect you to pleasure me. I want the expectation to be that you get to decide what you'll do to me. I don't want to be upset that I didn't get what I want. I want it to be normal that I pleasure you and then I'm left frustrated and pent up.

Sixth, I'm more creative when I'm denied. The longer I go without orgasm the more ideas pop into my head. I can get ideas on how you can further tease me and torture me and make me so so wet. I can get more ideas on how to pleasure you better and how to service you. My depraved, sexually frustrated mind likes to come up with things that will make me even more depraved and frustrated. It's a loop.

The only thing that makes me worry about giving up my orgasms is that you like to watch me cum. And ultimately it is your decision if I cum or not. But I don't think orgasms are a good thing for me. They ruin my ability to serve, take me out of the headspace and generally kinda hurt a bit. They aren't good for me. I genuinely think I'd be better off without them. Then I can focus more on servicing you any way you ask.

So this is me giving up my orgasms entirely to your decision. I promise I will not ask you to cum, I will not ask you to do things a certain way so it pleasures me more, I will do everything you ask without complaint, I will focus entirely on whatevers most pleasurable for you. I am yours completely to use as you please.