u/sublucien

I'm a submissive who's been into orgasm denial since I was a teenager.

Yesterday, I wrote a message to my Dominant explaining that I don't want to cum anymore and listed six reasons why. He's decided to take me up on that and has stated there'll be rigid enforcement should I orgasm, regardless of if it was an accident or not.

My goal for the longest time has been to be permanently orgasm free, but I've always failed at that. My longest time denied was 75 days, I'm yet to beat that. Hopefully, with Sir's help, I will never orgasm again (or at least rarely orgasm, I'm sure there'll be slip ups every now and then.

I'm open to any questions, ask me anything!

Hi Sir! I was doing some thinking this morning whilst I was edging. I've realised I don't want to cum anymore. I want to sign away all my orgasms over to you. There's a few reasons I want to give up on orgasms entirely, so I will tell you them here 

Firstly, they make me selfish. When you tell me I have permission to cum I focus more on my own pleasure than yours. When we're playing I should be focusing on pleasuring you, not focusing on my greedy little cock.

Secondly, when I cum I feel less submissive. Orgasms take away that lovely, desperate, eager to please feeling I have when I'm denied. Being orgasm-free keeps me in the right headspace, keeps me wanting to do anything to please you, keeps me wanting to service you.

Thirdly, being denied teaches me self control. If I can hold off on orgasming despite craving one, then I can have self control in other matters too. 

Fourth, as selfish as it is, I love seeing the "days without orgasm" counter go up. It's a reminder of my obedience and my submission. 

Fifth, the more you allow me to orgasm, the greedier I'll get. I'll come to expect you to say yes when I ask. I don't want that. I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to only think about my own pleasure. My place as a service submissive means that I should always be thinking about how best to pleasure you. I don't want to expect you to pleasure me. I want the expectation to be that you get to decide what you'll do to me. I don't want to be upset that I didn't get what I want. I want it to be normal that I pleasure you and then I'm left frustrated and pent up.

Sixth, I'm more creative when I'm denied. The longer I go without orgasm the more ideas pop into my head. I can get ideas on how you can further tease me and torture me and make me so so wet. I can get more ideas on how to pleasure you better and how to service you. My depraved, sexually frustrated mind likes to come up with things that will make me even more depraved and frustrated. It's a loop.

The only thing that makes me worry about giving up my orgasms is that you like to watch me cum. And ultimately it is your decision if I cum or not. But I don't think orgasms are a good thing for me. They ruin my ability to serve, take me out of the headspace and generally kinda hurt a bit. They aren't good for me. I genuinely think I'd be better off without them. Then I can focus more on servicing you any way you ask.

So this is me giving up my orgasms entirely to your decision. I promise I will not ask you to cum, I will not ask you to do things a certain way so it pleasures me more, I will do everything you ask without complaint, I will focus entirely on whatevers most pleasurable for you. I am yours completely to use as you please.

Hi Sir! I was doing some thinking this morning whilst I was edging. I've realised I don't want to cum anymore. I want to sign away all my orgasms over to you. There's a few reasons I want to give up on orgasms entirely, so I will tell you them here 

Firstly, they make me selfish. When you tell me I have permission to cum I focus more on my own pleasure than yours. When we're playing I should be focusing on pleasuring you, not focusing on my greedy little cock.

Secondly, when I cum I feel less submissive. Orgasms take away that lovely, desperate, eager to please feeling I have when I'm denied. Being orgasm-free keeps me in the right headspace, keeps me wanting to do anything to please you, keeps me wanting to service you.

Thirdly, being denied teaches me self control. If I can hold off on orgasming despite craving one, then I can have self control in other matters too. 

Fourth, as selfish as it is, I love seeing the "days without orgasm" counter go up. It's a reminder of my obedience and my submission. 

Fifth, the more you allow me to orgasm, the greedier I'll get. I'll come to expect you to say yes when I ask. I don't want that. I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to only think about my own pleasure. My place as a service submissive means that I should always be thinking about how best to pleasure you. I don't want to expect you to pleasure me. I want the expectation to be that you get to decide what you'll do to me. I don't want to be upset that I didn't get what I want. I want it to be normal that I pleasure you and then I'm left frustrated and pent up.

Sixth, I'm more creative when I'm denied. The longer I go without orgasm the more ideas pop into my head. I can get ideas on how you can further tease me and torture me and make me so so wet. I can get more ideas on how to pleasure you better and how to service you. My depraved, sexually frustrated mind likes to come up with things that will make me even more depraved and frustrated. It's a loop.

The only thing that makes me worry about giving up my orgasms is that you like to watch me cum. And ultimately it is your decision if I cum or not. But I don't think orgasms are a good thing for me. They ruin my ability to serve, take me out of the headspace and generally kinda hurt a bit. They aren't good for me. I genuinely think I'd be better off without them. Then I can focus more on servicing you any way you ask.

So this is me giving up my orgasms entirely to your decision. I promise I will not ask you to cum, I will not ask you to do things a certain way so it pleasures me more, I will do everything you ask without complaint, I will focus entirely on whatevers most pleasurable for you. I am yours completely to use as you please.

I'm a submissive masochist and after completing a series of challenges, I was finally collared by Dominant and I've never been so happy with a piece of jewellery. No questions are off limits, I'm an open book!

My Dom wants to set me challenges to make me earn my collar. Things that will allow me to prove myself worthy of being his submissive.

He is struggling to come up with ideas so I said I'd make a post here for suggestions to help him. We are looking for around ten challenges, both sexual and non sexual, that relate to what he wants in a submissive.

The things were looking for include: masochism, domestic servitude, denial, pup play, written essays. Feel free to scroll my profile for a little more info on the things I like. I want to be pushed and tested, so I can truly earn my collar.

Thank you!