u/tasteinhermouth

I am neurodivergent (ADHD + high functioning autistic + MDD), so I struggle socially and struggle with social anxiety, among other types of anxiety. I am currently on Effexor XR (SNRI).

I haven't had too much experience with drugs yet. Mostly weed, kava, kratom, shrooms, acid and DXM. I really liked the effects (when it was in a good space and when I was doing good) from shrooms and acid (after the misery was over), though acid was very intense. Kava, acid and shrooms have always made my anxiety shrink and it's been easier for me to get it on socially when I was on this, but it may have made me a bit overconfident at times (not too sure though). I know people have said that acid in lower doses can help me with socializing and anxiety and productivity.

I would like something to temper my social anxiety (and anxiety in general), give some stimulation while not being over hyper and euphoric rushes. And something that would help with my scoliosis would be a plus.

People have suggested benzos and amphetamines, but I do not have a script or dealer for either.

edit: I go to the gym, play music, socialize, and work.

I know certain opioids, like hydro or oxy you can take regularly and you can do stuff while you are on it, whereas I see heroin is known to make people nod off and be tired. Can anyone do anything on heroin? Low dose or otherwise?

How does low dose heroin affect someone?

I want to preface that I am completely fine now, I am not in any danger, I am safe and I am managing to pull through everything and be safe, I would just like to give this story.

I have no problem with those who want to use drugs, if responsibly done, I understand that I may have acted irresponsibly with this. I think drugs can be a really good crutch for some.

I recently got into shrooms, the first 2 times I took it I loved it, I hadn't felt better in my life. But this one night, I took some shrooms and then dropped an eighth on top of it, I felt great, very out of it though. Then, trauma was getting replayed to me, very heavy trauma I had held on to since I was young but I thought I tucked it away. It came back to me unexpectedly, it was very emotionally intense, and I felt like I was hearing someone explain it to me in a way that was heavier and a light I hadn't seen it before. I started crying, it brought back that pain in a way I had not seen it before and it was the first I fully realized it.

The next day, I started writing, well, let's just say a farewell letter, my pain was hitting me really heavily, but it helped me see what I need to focus on and how I can try to find what I'm looking for.

I would just say, psychedelics can be very insightful and good experience, but beware, if you have demons, they may be woken up.

And I would like to say, my experience is not universal. Someone may drop shrooms and experience nothing but joy.

To preface, I have had a lot of on and off depression, I have anxiety, particularly socially, it is quite painful, as well as back pain. I feel like drugs is the only way for me to feel ok at times or to be able to talk to people.

I take Kava and Kratom pretty regularly, and ever since I bought shrooms from someone, I have been using it days in a row, because it makes my anxiety feel lighter. I lowkey wish I could use these but also be fine without them.

I go to the gym, I try to socialize with people all of the time, but it's not easy for me, I know there are probably people out there like me, but man is it difficult to have to second guess yourself all of the time. Drugs are the only thing that can temper it for me.

Sorry, just needed to share this.