At the end of My About Me I mentioned that I loved bad puns and wanted to hear the best bad pun they knew. Not ONE sub has sent Me a bad pun. 🙄 Disgraceful. And this post is absolutely NOT an attempt to hear some bad puns.
Anyway. What did a fish say when he ran into a wall? Dam. :(
I become gluttonous with My want for more. A psychological vampire. When I sink My teeth into you, when I get the first taste of your blood, it only makes me want more. And more. And more. But you love the sting, the burn. The thrill it gives you to be a good boy for Me. To have My teeth at your throat. I promise, I won’t drain you unless you ask.
I truly know the difference between findom primarily as kink and findom primarily as survival. These days, I’m blessed to never need the money of a man for anything. That means when this space isn’t fun or fulfilling for Me, I can step away more easily. I’m also chronically ill, so when I have a flair, I don’t feel like I need to put My precious energy into findom. Given all those variables, I no longer feel the “guilt” associated with survival SW.
I’ve been down and ill for about a week, mostly sleeping and trying to keep up with basic life stuff. AND YET. Despite all this. I feel like I’m “missing out” by not being active, posting, taking photos, etc. Every day I wake up and wonder if tomorrow I’ll finally get around to those pictures I plan on taking. It’s a weird mix between wanting to do the thing that makes Me happy and feeling like if I don’t, I’ll get “behind.”
Which is weird, because I’m very successful and I don’t compare myself to other dommes. All My subs are understanding and even low-maintenance, so there’s no issue there. I wonder if this is legitimately a residual trauma response from when I was doing survival SW. LOL or maybe because it gives me such a dopamine boost, it’s become a sort of addiction like it can for subs? It’s a very weird feeling I can’t place. Like every day I’m not active in the findom space I might somehow “miss out” on a sub who’s been lurking, even though generally I don’t subscribe to that thought process at all. Anyway. Super weird. Wanted to see if other dommes could relate. 💕
10 pages between Me and my degree! I’m so excited to be done!! Because of My work schedule, it’s taken Me four years to get all My classes in. And yes, I probably will make another post in two days to talk about being done for good. 🤭 I just can’t help it!! I don’t want to make a big deal of it IRL, but I’m really happy and need to get it out! Fingers crossed I keep My 4.0 💕
Tell Me what good things are going on in your life so we can celebrate you, too. 💕
A quick, dirty drain that pushes Me over the edge. Higher and higher, demanding more, more, more. Seeing you freely give it to Me. Knowing you’re getting Me off the only way you can.
This is tongue in cheek, obviously. But I’ve been back for over a month and haven’t had a sub specifically ask to pay for my mani/pedi. I used to have a line out the door for that LOL but to be fair, that was like 2018. Is it too expensive now? Do I no longer pass the cute feet litmus test?? Has capitalism ruined the hand and foot fetish economy?