u/trashconverters

Mine would be Meat Loaf circa 1978.

I've probably had this kink since I was little, I mean that one episode of The Simpsons (you know the one) made me feel funny, but I didn't realise I had it until my 20s, when a bipolar med made me gain a lot of weight.

And then of course I felt a lot of shame about it. So I denied it, and it gave me a restrictive eating disorder that I'm still getting over. I mentioned to my dietitian who's working with me on my recovery that I liked bigger bodies, and that I loved my own more when it was bigger, and that I wanted that body back.

She was really chill about it. My first session with her didn't feel productive, but the second one did. We then talked about intuitive eating, fatphobia and diet culture. She encouraged me to eat what I like, as long as I could take care of the basics as well, like getting more water and vitamin C (I don't get enough of either. I'm not super health conscious but I'm also not a death feedee, I'd like to maintain a bit of my health as I gain. not judging ppl who are, just not my thing). I've been avoiding baklava, my absolute favourite food, for years, and mentioned that to her. She had no judgement and encouraged me to try eating it again.

I'd like to gain weight again one day, once I'm more recovered from my ED. But the first step for me is to start eating enough to survive. And with her encouragement, I think I can achieve that first goal.

Anyway it was nice to have someone who wasn't judging me for my tastes and for my ED origin story, and I feel so much better now.

Hi there. I'm new to the sub so I'm sorry if this post isn't allowed.

I'm 29M and have known about my feeding and weight gain kink since my early 20s. I thought I had no sex drive at all until I discovered it, but discovering it also brought a huuuuuuge amount of shame. And so I started restricting to compensate.

I now see a therapist, who's luckily extremely kink positive, and we both agree that I'm actually at my healthiest mentally when I actively acknowledge my kink. I started gaining a few months ago and I loved it, but then old habits came back and I'm nowhere near as bad as I was during active ED but I feel ashamed when I stuff myself and actively gain, even though the weight I've put on has made me feel so much better.

Therapist was telling me that finding someone to help engage with my kink in person (ie a feeder) would be extremely beneficial for my mental health, but that's a long term goal as I live in a rural area and am a full time carer for my aging dad. But how do I keep going when the shame holds me back? Because I don't WANT to live in shame, I don't wanna go back into disordered eating habits, but they're always looming around the bend.

Also any advice for "easy" weight gain foods would be appreciated as well!