u/tumbledownhere

That's all. I'm quite distraught over it, lol. Just venting, only gotta wait 3.5 hours.

I ordered some meclonazepam to help me get through when I run through my Valium script (prescribed 3 10mg a day but the past week taking like 5-10mg a day because I'm running out). I get my script refilled in like 3 days but until then I'll be relying on the meclon. I used to be on Klonopin so I definitely know how it feels.

How functional is meclonazepam? I heard really good things and I'm not looking to get blitzed or anything, not really a bartard type.

I've tried almost every type of their selection but how's the v2 platinum 98%? Any input?

All their products have been amazing, so I'm excited. Been living off the 77% and some 7kings

I've been seeing my provider for a year. She's awesome, very understanding and really open minded.

I was on Valium when we first started. Then around Christmas we tried Ativan and it went badly so she switched me back to Valium.

I was struggling with the wait for Valium to kick in recently, so I suggested we try Klonopin in late May to which she agreed.

I've noticed though I'm getting really depressed and having extremely dark thoughts on the klonopin, but it does stop my panic.

I see her tomorrow and I messaged her to give a heads up that we need to discuss this. I've only been on the klonopin about three weeks.

Do you think she'll switch me back to Valium if I tell her the truth here? I feel bad because she's switched me around a few times but it's clear that the klonopin was a bad idea too. It's giving me the darkest thoughts and over numbing me.

I'm already on sublocade. Strips don't help, neither does SR though I might try it one more time.

So I have about 500mg. I'm broke so no choice but to rapid taper. Have 400mg 7oh otw, then nothing. I'm so broke that I can get SR tabs for 4 bucks but I don't even have 4 bucks.

I've got klonopin, gaba, black seed oil, kava, propanolol, regular kratom, hell ketamine treatment and mushrooms, and if needed can scrape up for some MIT....

I'm just hoping I can do it. I cannot afford this anymore.

I was taking 30mg Valium a day but my Dr switched me to dissolving klonopin a bit ago. Just got my script of 90 and I just wanna have a good time, what's the equivalency chart?

I recently got switched from Valium to Klonopin and my doctor wants me on the disintegrating tablets because I expressed that it takes too long to kick in....

Has anyone here been on the dissolving Klonopin? Is it any better than the regular? Like does it actually kick in faster?

So this is gonna sound wacky and I'm sorry, this IS rambly, but I have a long history with opiates sadly and actually am already on sublocade.

I also have suboxone strips, 7 of the 8mg.

I do absolutely feel the MGM through the sublocade, which is why I used it.

I quit MGM in April successfully with neither assistance except having my sublocade shot, it was grueling, I still got physical withdrawal despite sublocade. I tried a bit of Suboxone but it didn't seem to touch it - I used benzos and slept through it. No, I ***never*** got precipitated withdrawals from getting sublocade shots while taking MGM if anyone is curious at all, seems like they barely affect each other for me.

I have SR set to arrive tomorrow as well, but tablets/a small amount. I have been back on MGM for 2 weeks and a day.

I understand people think it should be a breeze quitting with all this in my system but it was so hard in April and I hate that I relapsed. I take between 120 and 350mg a day of MGM but it's getting too expensive and I'm just too broke to keep it up.

I will run out of MGM tablets tonight, or if I can stretch them, I'll run out tomorrow morning. I have 5 tabs left at 35ish mg each.

I have gabapentin, klonopin, the suboxone strips, other opiates (ODSMT), gonna try and get my hands on some black seed oil, have antidepressants, marijuana edibles which really help the hot/cold for me, etc.....I'm very well stocked, thankfully.

Which is gonna be better for me for minimal physical withdrawal? Suboxone or SR? I've only been using again for 2 weeks if that makes any difference.

I'm terrified of the physical withdrawal, it's a deep rooted thing for me.

I have a a busy 2 days coming up so I need to be able to walk around and function and whatnot.

Which would you go with and why?

Side question feel free to ignore -

And does anyone here know if the SR will affect the Suboxone or sublocade (it's a long lasting shot version of buprenorphine if anyone is wondering)? I can't seem to post in the SR sub so I'm hoping someone here can answer because unfortunately I SUCK at tapering otherwise I would've just tapered off the MGM. I did that in April but it was still grueling but it's too late to buy anymore now and I'm down to 5 tablets to stretch out.

I have SR coming tomorrow, today if I'm lucky. I'm SO so tempted to run to the smoke shop and buy one more box but I just cannot afford it, and really shouldn't. I need to quit this shit for good - I have bills late, I have a field trip tomorrow, I cannot continue like this.

Just venting - I admit I'm scared

Edit 1- I did get some suboxone strips. In the past (I had quit MGM in April but relapsed), the strips didn't help much.....but I'll try if it's better.

Edit - why do people downvote posts like mine when the sub is literally called quit MGM? Most of us aren't casual users. Most of us are fighting a dependency.

So I pretty much stocked up on what I could today (made a bad purchase but I can work with it plus what I've got) - and I have SR otw, scheduled for Thursday-

But I'm just scared I'll blow through what I have before it can even get here and I really can't afford more until next week.

I have support from my husband, it's just scary, you know?

I'm so excited. A little nervous but I'm praying it works like it's supposed to - because I just can't keep doing this anymore.

That's all unless anyone has stories or experiences they'd like to share?

Happy mother's day ❤️ Teva brand if anyone's curious

Also took gabapentin, MGM15 so I am feeling absolutely lovely and that was my only wish for mother's day. It's very triggering and there's a lot of trauma around this day, hadn't taken my Valium in days and asked doc to switch me last night and got a yes so here I am!

Everyone have a nice, lovely, safe, comfortable day. 💜

Anyone else experienced this? My tongue feels like I just took menthol.

Just switched at my request from Valium to Klonopin, I'm content. Just took 1mg, hadn't taken any Valium in a few days prior to this.

I remember loving klonopin and feeling honestly stoned on it last time I used it.

My doctor just switched me from Valium to Klonopin and I'm hyped, 3mg a day versus 30mg Valium a day.

Think it'll still affect me nicely? It's mother's day and it's all pretty triggering, though my kids are being sweet so I'm really hoping I'll just feel nice. Haven't taken my Valium in a week or so.

I love the Valium but lately I've been waking up in cold sweats and panicking at night so I'm so grateful.

I was on 30mg a day of Valium and we're moving to 3mg Klonopin a day

I made a post like 2 weeks ago asking how to ask my Dr to switch me so I'm updating I guess and grateful that I get a klonopin script now 😊

My Dr just switched me from 30mg Valium a day to 3mg Klonopin a day and I think I'm done with RC benzos

Bromonordiazepam was honestly my last hope because the RC scene sucks lately but unfortunately I'm getting rebound panic attacks from it. I just wanted one that calms me and gives a mood boost but fuck it if my doctor is willing to go to Klonopin I'm running with it

Bromaz never hit me good like it seems to hit others, I liked clobro but it's getting hard to find.

I genuinely miss the days of etizolam and clonazolam, don't think it'll ever be quite like that again, been in and out of the RC scene since like 2012 and man times have changed

I successfully stopped it a few weeks ago but last Wednesday I started taking it again. Honestly it was more of a binge than anything.

I wanna stop so I'm gonna try tomorrow and see how I feel. I still have total of 600mg and might buy another bottle tomorrow, in case I need to rapid taper and I also have sublocade in my system as well as benzos on hand, gabapentin, plain leaf (tho that never does much for me), edibles which help me lots.

Do you think I'll get bad withdrawals from the week/binge usage? The past three days I've gotten no results from my usage at all and I've gone over 300 the past 2 days to no effects. Starting to think my pills are bunk and I already quit probably.

Last time I'd been using 6/7 days for almost 2 months and the mental was the hardest part but it was still nothing compared to oxy withdrawal or so IMO. I just really wanna be active and comfortable for mother's day.

Edit - Update, I thought I woke up experiencing withdrawals after 16-18 hours without, but it turns out I'm genuinely just sick, lol.

But I think I'll taper just to be safe.

Anyone else here dabble with MGM or 7oh?

How does mixing it with a benzo go for you?

For me it depends on the quality and dose I've taken, and it depends on the benzo in particular. I've found my prescribed Valium kind of potentiates if it's good quality MGM but other RC benzos kinda dull it. For example I like bromonordiazepam but it definitely dulls the experience MGM for me.

Any experiences?

I'm not a bartard so I'm not looking to get messed up. Just want a mood boost and anxiety relief, I'm prescribed Valium (though tomorrow hoping to get switched to Klonopin because I super prefer that)

So, what does it do for you, other than good for taper which I keep hearing? I'm about to try mine.

Edit - dosed 10, haven't taken my Valium in 2 days and I'm already feeling nice and chill. Definitely like it so far