Hey there, I‘m suffering from paranoid schizophrenia and in the past, during psychotic episodes I used to harm my left arm.
I‘m really looking forward to getting it tattooed, because I don’t like the looks and questions.
What are your experiences? Anyone else with schizophrenia?
So two years ago I still had a big issue with cutting and I ended up with quite a bit of raised scars and it’s been two years and they’re white and all but their raised and I know people notice them but I need to get rid of them in approximately a year to maybe a year and a half is it even possible to do it in such little time?
Will these fade away eventually or am I stuck with this bs ?
the white ones are over a year and a half old and the red ones are like at least 5 months old, i haven't really tried to hide them at all since they don't look like sh but genuinely i've had like 5 ppl ask abt the same scar this week, maybe it's the bruising? idk. i don't usually cut my forearms so that i can wear t-shirts without questions however this is honestly making me no longer feel comfortable doing so
Like I actually love them just right now. Usually I hate them and either want more and bigger or want them to just disappear and don't exist. But now? I'm liking that they're a part of me and that I've survived. It makes me a bit happy even though I know they're gonna be visible and stay forever.
But like I can't stop staring at them. I've hated the fact that they've faded so much and that I "can't" see them but now they look so visible and they're just there in peace. It makes me feel calm about having them.
Anyway almost a week clean again hell yeah🔥🔥🔥
I wanna relapse so badly I can’t stop feeling invalid
it's so hard to be fat, gay, and COVERED in scars 💔
Hope this is ok to post, please delete od not.
The first photo is form 14/03, about three weeks after the initial cut. The second photo form 05/04 and third is most recent.
It seems a bit puffier and more raised compared to the earlier photos. Should I do anything about it? This hasn't happened with any of my other scars.
They are super itchy because of the whiplash from the hospital cold and city heat
I feel invalid and want to relapse again:(
I have so many empty spots and it bothers me.😭
It always feels as if they won’t be significant enough or “enough damage”.
I live in a more gated community in a country where this topic is still very much taboo and people are extroverted enough to make comments to strangers so I don't know if I could wear short sleeves.
I know my scars aren't bad but they are obvious as to what they're from and I just don't know how to go about this topic...
It feels very restricting to me as a person to have to hide a part of my body especially as I'm trying to recover and it's really impacted my mental health a lot to feel obligated to hide my arm as silly as it may sound but I don't know how I could stop.
I don't even know where to start, and I know my parents don't approve either, at least until my scars turn white. That, however, would take years, and I can't wait years without relapsing, especially as my mental health worsens and I get more and more used to hiding my arm...
Yeah so i had to go to the er earlyyy this morning (midnight to 4am) bc i cut my arm pretty badly. The whole thing sucked even worse than my last er experience. I first had woken my dad bc i figured hed be less freaked out than my mom. Wrong. He fainted twice and hit the ground hard when he fell which scared me pretty bad and my older brother drove me and my mom to the hospital. They kind of ignored me when i was at the er as i had a towel wrapped around my arm. TW DEPTH the cuts were deep beans possibly into fascia and i was bleeding a lot. They just left me in the hospital room for two hours while i bled before coming in and giving me ab 50 numbing shots (doctor originally tried to just give numbing cream but i could still feel pain a lot) so i insisted on shots even tho those hurt bad. Ended up with 25 stitches and some glue, the RNs bandaged my arm and i got discharged and went home. Anyways idk i just needed to get it out.
I remember there was a sub selfharm scars really popular, did it get removed?
I have many scars but this never happened before. Is it possible bc there's a vein under it?