u/Brilliant_House_4076

Hi everyone,

This is my first time posting here. I'm a 20s guy from Egypt and I've been struggling mentally for the past few weeks. I need to get this off my chest and maybe get some advice.

I was in a relationship with a girl I really loved. We got emotionally attached very strongly. Everything was great outside the bedroom — we laughed a lot, we cared about each other, and I felt like she was the one.

But the sexual part was a disaster from the first time.

I have a small penis (around 13cm when fully hard).

I was masturbating a lot every day, so my erections were weak and inconsistent.

First time we tried, I couldn't stay fully hard. I barely managed to penetrate her. It hurt her and she was scared + aroused at the same time.

She ended up taking full control: choking me, fingering my ass, and making me finger her because she said she couldn't feel my dick.

Later she told me directly: "Your dick is too small, I don't feel it at all. Your fingers satisfy me more than your dick."

We had a big fight about something else, and during the argument she threw all this at me in a very harsh way. We haven't spoken since.

Now I'm completely lost. Sometimes I feel deep sadness and pain when I remember what she said. Other times I get extremely aroused by the humiliation and the idea of her dominating me or even cuckolding me. I hate that I get turned on by it.

I genuinely loved her, not just sexually. But I feel like I failed her as a man in bed, and now I don't know who I am anymore.

Hi everyone,

This is my first time posting here. I'm a 20s guy from Egypt and I've been struggling mentally for the past few weeks. I need to get this off my chest and maybe get some advice.

I was in a relationship with a girl I really loved. We got emotionally attached very strongly. Everything was great outside the bedroom — we laughed a lot, we cared about each other, and I felt like she was the one.

But the sexual part was a disaster from the first time.

I have a small penis (around 13cm when fully hard).

I was masturbating a lot every day, so my erections were weak and inconsistent.

First time we tried, I couldn't stay fully hard. I barely managed to penetrate her. It hurt her and she was scared + aroused at the same time.

She ended up taking full control: choking me, fingering my ass, and making me finger her because she said she couldn't feel my dick.

Later she told me directly: "Your dick is too small, I don't feel it at all. Your fingers satisfy me more than your dick."

We had a big fight about something else, and during the argument she threw all this at me in a very harsh way. We haven't spoken since.

Now I'm completely lost. Sometimes I feel deep sadness and pain when I remember what she said. Other times I get extremely aroused by the humiliation and the idea of her dominating me or even cuckolding me. I hate that I get turned on by it.

I genuinely loved her, not just sexually. But I feel like I failed her as a man in bed, and now I don't know who I am anymore.