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I made a doctors appointment today with my primary care doctor because I cannot wait for a psychiatrist. It would be months. I’m leaving my abuser and I cannot handle it. I can’t be on something daily. That makes me numb because I already deal with numbness really badly and I have to parent, which is extremely hard when you’re numb. Does anyone have any recommendations for an as needed not narcotic anxiety medication? I know I already posted. I’m sorry for double posting. I’m just a wreck. I need to talk to someone and I feel safe talking to you guys. He’s purposely making my life impossible and purposely hurting our innocent very young daughter just so he can hurt me because I have to watch it.

If my doctor prescribed me anti anxiety meds? I’m just curious. I am not talking about being found out by a test. I’m going through leaving an abusive partner, he’s making life impossible for me, and I can’t do it without something to help me . I made an appointment today to get clonidine hopefully, as I got it from my doctors office before years ago. If she were to offer me something that actually works a lot better for me. I’m wondering if my clinic would be alerted. I have responsibly taken benzos in the past that we’re not my prescription. I know how to not abuse them and I know that it would be a temporary thing. So I don’t need the morality police on me with this. I’m just curious if they would be alerted. Or if there’s another non-narcotic medication that is OK with the clinic that works better than clonidine. I know gabapentin used to be OK but now I’m not sure if it’s OK with the clinic because I believe it was scheduled in the last few years. I just know I need something because I can’t survive this and I have a child to take care of, so I can’t go impatient anywhere for my mind and I need to keep it together for my child.

I’m having a customer get me a bodysuit and a dress. I wanted the one bodysuit that is a “brief” as the shape resembles my old favorite Victoria’s Secret bodysuits from years back (abusive ex threw everything out when I had a baby) but it’s compression, which I don’t like. I want a bodysuit to dance in that I can fold over at the waist and it’ll be like a high waisted bottoms situation with the straps hanging down on my leg. I loved that look when I danced before. Does anyone happen to know how much compression is in this bodysuit? I always wanna keep in mind not having to fully take something off for a quick dance on stage when I’m busy and I don’t like anything that takes a long time to put on and off. Is there another bodysuit anyone here recommends? I’m OK with the song. I’m long though. I’m 5 foot eight. Also if there’s any recommendations for a mini dress, let me know. I’d like to do the same thing with the mini dress folded down at my waist. Going back to work soon and just trying to prepare.

I only have 2 of them. I think they’re 30mgs each. I have a pretty high tolerance. 5 or 6 mgs Xanax just gives me a mood change (good mood) I’ve heard temazapam is the most euphoric. I wanna try it but I don’t wanna sleep. What should I expect? Is there a tired period then you have to get past it then euphoria? Or it’s like other benzos where you’re awake unless you lay down and shut your eyes?

What do you all think? Should I say 32 ? I had a baby and have been a stay at home mom for 5 years and have to go back to work. Leaving her dad. I've been working on my body by eating healthy and have had great results. My skin too. I always felt it's better to say your real age cause I'd rather be an amazing 34 than an eh 27 . But now that I'm 34 I'm wondering if I should shave a few years off. My regulars all know my age and don't care . And has anyone else gone back after a break like this? Before I stopped I was so burnt out that I had a whole ass child to stop lol

I am about to go back to work after a 5 year break. I had a baby whom I breastfed for 2 years. I haven't breastfed in over 2 years now but still, it is just something I know will feel weird to me. I used to just put up with it from them even tho it angered me. I don't think I'll feel comfortable with this when I go back. I don't wanna be that rude bitch and they leave or anything. How do you tell a customer in a fun nice way no to this? And is there anyone else here who has gone back after being a mom? Does it feel weird like a double life? My mom danced when I was little , I know it's done. And I know it didn't bother her but the clubs were um.. different back then .
Any advice on going back after becoming a mom would be greatly appreciated. Sometimes I think about just staying with my abuser to not go back but I'm too deep into leaving and I know I want out. My friends and family all know about how awful he is. He never hit me, it's every other type of abuse and I've fought with his family. I feel I told everyone to hold myself accountable to leave and not keep going with the easier way ... ugh

I am leaving an abusive relationship. I haven't danced in five years because I've been to stay at home mom. I live in the suburbs. Bucks County/Montgomery County and I prefer to stay in the suburbs, but I'm open to the city. Is there anyone who would be willing to tell me which clubs have a decent dayshift? I've worked everywhere, but I know all of them don't have a dayshift and I've been out of the game for five years. I cannot work at the one I know has the best day shift because that's where my abuser works. I don't wanna write which club it is here but it's in Bucks and there's a hardware store on one side of it and a f**** factory on the other. I blurred that word just so it couldn't be searchable. I know I might be being paranoid. I just would never want him to find my Reddit. if you worked there, you'll know what club I'm talking about. If your club is nice, and has a dayshift, I'll take that recommendation. Really any information at all. I've never worked dayshift, but I have worked 2 -7 for a short time. I prefer mid shift, but I just don't know how I could ever have time with my child if I didn't work during her school hours because she is about to start school. I could work mid shift once or twice a week maybe. I'm not super young anymore, but I'm not old. I would want to work some mid shift for my old regulars.

If I were to switch from 3 mgs clonopin per day to Valium to continue a taper, how much would I take that first day? The next day? I'm trying to move quickly . I went down from 9-3 fairly quickly and fine with switching to clonopin. The switch seems to help me. To me, it seems like Valium is not about .5 equivalent like it says when I google it. It seems like it's more so 1:1 . Should i do something in between? And should i try to taper on Xanax first? I got down from 9 or 10 Xanax per day to 3 clonopin, messed that up, but I'm getting back on the bandwagon. I've done it before, I think I'll be able to get back to 3 mgs clonopin . Also I'll have 30 Valium , 10 mg each . I have about 30 clonopin. Any advice is welcome. And I have Xanax. Maybe I should use the Xanax to taper while I can. Like throw one in there in the middle to saver the others which are harder to get

I've gotten down to 3mgs clonopin from 10 Xanax and sometimes clonopin a day. I was told to switch to Valium at the end and only take it once a day. I don't think once a day is the best idea for me just yet. I know the internet says a Valium is .5 equivalent to Xanax and clonopin but I find it to be more like 1 mg for me personally (I'm talking about 10 mg each )

I was taking between 7-10 mgs of Zan or clon a day. I've been down to 6 and then 5 and 5 again the last 3 days. Today will be day 4 of attempting to take this seriously again. I have Valium coming from a friend. I've read I should use these at the end, do you agree? That's when illl be getting it anyway as long as I stay on track. . I'll have 30 of them, 10 mg each. I can't get a straight answer on conversion between here, google and my one time trying them. Illl figure it out. I've been doing clonopin and if I feel like I need a small bit more in the evening I'll take a mg of zan. I want to use my clonopin sparingly . It's hard to find. I have 45 of them. And 20 zans. I can get more zans whenever but don't want to. I've tapered a couple times before myself . Once was super slow and once was about this rate. But I was using presses then and when I tried tapering with zans alone it seemed impossible , even though I'd always tapered with whatever I was getting before. These are probably presses but I think they're like presses that are pretty much the same as real ones like they don't last long like my old presses I was getting

I have seen a few different answers, but what would you personally convert 10 mg Valium to equal in Xanax or Klonopin? And how much should a 10 mg Valium cost? I'm getting some and if these conversion charts are right the prices just don't make sense and this person has always been extremely fair with their pricing for Klonopin and Xanax. Do they just cost more? And for example, if you usually took 4 mg of Xanax at a time, how much valium would you take? I've taken Valium one time and I remember converting it the way the plug said to and it felt stronger than Xanax or Klonopin to me but when I look it up, it says 10 mg Valium is equal to .5 mg Xanax. The plug told me to convert 10 mg to 1 mg Xanax. these are pharmaceutical by the way.

I stopped dancing when I was 30 to have a baby and stay at home, but I can't stand the man I put all that trust in. I started collecting outfits because somehow magically all the outfits I was wearing at the end of my dancing career disappeared but thank fucking God all my shoes are OK. I'm just so happy I have my shoes. I really have an expensive collection that I love and they are broken in. But I know my feet have definitely changed since pregnancy. They feel all right, though I tried them on.

Anyone else went back after having a baby and staying home for a while? Was it weird? Did you love it or hate it? My child is about to start school so I would probably work dayshift which I've never done before. My child is so clingy. I don't know what I'm gonna do about after school care but I'm gonna have to figure it out. Or I guess I could work one or two mid shifts a week and then some day shifts, if child gets cool with being away from me when child goes to school. When I stopped dancing. I was only working two days a week because I had a really good regular but he's really mad at me for having a baby with someone else. I'm mad at myself for having a baby with this asshole too, but that's besides the point. I have a few regulars that I still talk to, but it's been five years so I definitely don't have enough to go in there confidently. I have one that will come for my first day and everything, but I don't have like a really good one. Because I put all my time and energy into the one that is mad at me for having the baby. I know it was stupid. I don't regret it though. I have my reasons.

I'm kind of just chatting at this point so I guess I'll end the post here. What are people wearing nowadays? I feel like an old lady lol I'm gonna wear what I want but I don't wanna look like an idiot. I always used to love to wear netted dresses and then I love to wear really short sexy dresses that were not see-through at the end of my career. so far, I've been collecting lease and netted dresses because they were always my favorite. I had super long hair that I had to cut because it was just really hard to manage while managing a baby. It's still long but it's not super long and I know that was really a big selling point so now I'm mad at myself for that. I'm not gonna get extensions. I'm just gonna grow it back out. I have fair skin and I dye my hair black. I used to be a blonde all my longest regulars loved the black hair and everyone loved the black hair but a few years ago I decided it was a good time to start growing out the black box die and slowly start dying my roots lighter but now I'm thinking I should just cover it in black box die again if I'm gonna go back. I'm definitely gonna get my lips done because I haven't had them done in years. I've been eating healthier to slim down. I have a bad back but once I get moving I'm OK and I've always been a lazy dancer. My lazy dancer I mean slow and sexy. I'm a good dancer and I know it.

Again, I'm just talking. Any advice or just talking with fellow dancers would make me feel amazing. I hit up an old friend from the club and she's not working anymore, but it just felt great to talk to a fellow dancer. Because even if I don't go back, I'll always be a dancer. It's in my blood and it's part of who I am. I love you all.

Is it like illegal to buy or something? I am currently tapering off of Xanax using Klonopin and I would like to be able to test myself to know when I can move on with my life and not have to live in fear of failing a drug test and not have to do crazy stuff to pass them. I just want this to be in my past. I didn't know that the test that I've always used for Xanax didn't work for Klonopin. Things stay in my system for so long. Like way longer than what it says on the Internet I've had it screw me so many times. when I tape it off in the past, I had tests that said BZO on them. I was using pressed bars at the time and pharmaceuticals. But now I just had pharmaceuticals Xanax and it just doesn't hold me and I couldn't tape it was impossible. I had to get my hands on Klonopin. I really hate not being able to know what's up. When I re-ordered the exact same ones I had before it said BZOin the pictures but when it came it said oxepam which from my understanding is only a Xanax test.

I just got my hands on six Valium. I've had so many people tell me it's the best benzo and I've never tried it even though I take Xanax or Klonopin daily. The person that gave them to me said a 10 mg pill, which is what they are is like a 1 mg Xanax but almost like a 1.5 mg Xanax but not quite. Does that sound right? If I take four or 5 mg of Xanax at a time(it does not fuck me up. I take four to get a mood boost ,I imagine five could make me feel a nice little buzz )would I take 40 or 50 mg of Valium? It would just be a one time experiment for me honestly lol i'm actually in the middle of a taper so I considered keeping them for the end because I know they have the longest half-life but I do slip up with the taper here and there. I get right back on the bandwagon. It's a soft taper and I mess it up and then I try again. I'm sure you guys have all been there. I've just never tried it and I'm curious because it's the favorite of so many people I know

Have you ever seen it? The person is extremely reliable and they come from another country. I bought 2 mg Xanax that I think he's saying that you're gonna look exactly the same as the Klonopin. I'm buying. Plain white with a score mark to break it into four but it's a circle. Have you seen it before? When I got the Xanax off him, there was Spanish written all over it but a very clearly said as alazapram 2 mg.

TLDR- looking for the best dayshift in the Philly/Bucks County/Montgomery County area. I'm a very experienced dancer, but I've never worked true day shift that starts at 12 noon and I've been out of the game for five years. trying to leave an abusive relationship and he has made it near impossible. I highly highly prefer clubs in the suburbs, but if there's a good dayshift somewhere else, I'm totally open.

I've been out of the game for five years. I danced from 20 to 30 years old, stopping in 2021. I need to find a dayshift club. I'm not familiar with dayshift. I know what goes on. I'm not stupid and I'm fine with that. Maybe even prefer it because I need money now. And it's nothing I haven't done before.

I have to be a little sneaky at first. I need to know what I can make before I can figure out how to go about things with leaving. I need to know what kind of income I'll have before getting my daughter and I an apartment of our own .

I've never worked a dayshift except for a short time at Risque downtown (it was 2-7 because I didn't wanna wear a gown. Takes way too long to take on and off it affected my money and they made us wear them in the nighttime back then )and I did not like it. It just seriously lacked customers in the daytime back then. That was a really long time ago. Like 10 years ago. Maybe it's changed.

Can anyone please give me the lowdown on the dayshift in the area. I cannot work for the other Risque locations because my abuser works at them. He would make my life a living hell. I wish I could work for them because I would feel very comfortable there. I'm not looking to get him fired, even though I probably could. I would never do that because he does support me now and he will continue to support our daughter.

I've always been hired anywhere I've auditioned to give you an idea of my look. But obviously a baby has done a number on my body. It definitely has not been destroyed, it's just not as firm as it used to be. I'm OK with dive bars. I actually kind of like them. I met a few of the best regulars I ever had in neighborhood bars. I still will have a few regulars that will visit me even though it's been years, but I know I will have to pretty much be starting over. But I've got the hustle. I think…. I'm a little nervous because I really don't know how my hustle game is after being completely isolated for five years. I've like forgotten how to socialize but I know I'll pick it up quickly because I have to. I have no other choice.

Can anyone please recommend a dayshift club. I'm fine with any kind of club if you know what I'm saying. As long as the money is right. I'm looking to get my own place with just my daughter and I as soon as possible. I have money saved that is secret from my abuser, but I refuse to touch it unless I have an income. to put it into perspective, he straight up will not let me work. But I have two good friends that are willing to help babysit until she starts preschool.