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After not seeing my ex for a couple weeks we met up to hang out. i told him that i had gotten fingered by another guy (it was part of the conversation we were having i didn’t just blur it out) and he got mad bc i had never let him do that before and he wanted to be the first.

we eventually started messing around and he kept making me gag by shoving my head too deep on his cock. he then started asking me to give him anal since that was one place he would still be first. he kept nagging me and the way i was laying on the couch as i was sucking his cock made it to where he could reach my ass. he. started feeling me up which he had done in the past so i didn’t think much of it but as he was about to cum he licked his finger and with one hand held my head and with the one he licked he pushed his middle finger in my ass (tho it didn’t hurt, the shock made me flinch) and i acted like it hurt but he came and slowly fingered my ass as he finished.
i got really upset and told him that was ok and quickly cleaned up and left.
he never apologized and told me he would see me again when he wanted more. it pissed me off.

i immediately made plans with the other guy i had been seeing. i told him i wanted him to take my anal virginity. he was shocked but of course he agreed. a couple days later i went over to his place. we talked about it but i didn’t tell him the real reason for why i wanted it now. i knew it would hurt some but the finger had felt good so i was kinda ready plus i knew it would piss off my ex way more.
we started my me getting him hard while he gently lubed my ass and gently fingered it. when he was stiff as a board he bent me over at the edge of the bed and slowly pushed his cock in , yes it hurt but i took it best i could and told him to not stop until he came. even as i curled in pain. once he was able to put it all in i asked him to take a pic “so i could see how deep he was “ and he took it.
then i just begged him to cum. right as he started telling me he was close it actually started to feel ok for a sec but then he came. and wow! his cock throbbed so hard! i feel it twitching 3-4 times really hard.

that same night i sent my ex the pic and told him he would never be my first anything and i never wanted to see him again. he called me all kinds of names and i blocked him. but i knew i pissed him off to no end.

context in previous posts.

After not seeing my ex for a couple weeks we met up to hang out. i told him that i had gotten fingered by another guy (it was part of the conversation we were having i didn’t just blur it out) and he got mad bc i had never let him do that before and he wanted to be the first.

we eventually started messing around and he kept making me gag by shoving my head too deep on his cock. he then started asking me to give him anal since that was one place he would still be first. he kept nagging me and the way i was laying on the couch as i was sucking his cock made it to where he could reach my ass. he. started feeling me up which he had done in the past so i didn’t think much of it but as he was about to cum he licked his finger and with one hand held my head and with the one he licked he pushed his middle finger in my ass (tho it didn’t hurt, the shock made me flinch) and i acted like it hurt but he came and slowly fingered my ass as he finished.
i got really upset and told him that was ok and quickly cleaned up and left.
he never apologized and told me he would see me again when he wanted more. it pissed me off.

i immediately made plans with the other guy i had been seeing. i told him i wanted him to take my anal virginity. he was shocked but of course he agreed. a couple days later i went over to his place. we talked about it but i didn’t tell him the real reason for why i wanted it now. i knew it would hurt some but the finger had felt good so i was kinda ready plus i knew it would piss off my ex way more.
we started my me getting him hard while he gently lubed my ass and gently fingered it. when he was stiff as a board he bent me over at the edge of the bed and slowly pushed his cock in , yes it hurt but i took it best i could and told him to not stop until he came. even as i curled in pain. once he was able to put it all in i asked him to take a pic “so i could see how deep he was “ and he took it.
then i just begged him to cum. right as he started telling me he was close it actually started to feel ok for a sec but then he came. and wow! his cock throbbed so hard! i feel it twitching 3-4 times really hard.

that same night i sent my ex the pic and told him he would never be my first anything and i never wanted to see him again. he called me all kinds of names and i blocked him. but i knew i pissed him off to no end.

for about the last week and a half ive (f18)been seeing the older redditor (m34) more frequently.
our schedules kinda worked out and he told me we needed practice to get over the mental block i had.

the first couple times he only focused on me but the same thing would happen, blocked. no matter how good he ate me out i would just get too sensitive and never cum…

then we had like three days in a row where i went over, we talked, watch tv and had me suck his dick while he gently played with my pussy or eat me out after he came.

we would go back and forth with who went down on the other.
literally earlier today!! like a couple hours ago this happened

i went over to his place, we chilled for a few minutes and started making out, he stood me up in front of him and took my clothes off, the got on his knees and gently licked my clit, only for a little bit my pussy was drooling and my knees kept buckling, then he stood up and kissed me with my juices on him lips, he walked me over to the wall and knelt me down, kinda sitting on my own legs, pulled his dick out and put it in my mouth, he was mostly hard but i sucked on the tip and got him fully stiff.
then he grabbed my hands, raised them over my head and slowly started tucked my mouth, next thing i knew my head was pressed against the wall, my hands were held by his one hand over my head and he was fucking my mouth.
he would push it down my throat and when i gagged he would pull it out and gently slap me with it.
he did that nonstop until he came, he pushed it down but i couldn’t swallow and gag at the same time so it became a mess of cum and spit as i tried to catch my breath and he tried to keep his cock in my mouth as he finished.

when he was finally done, he let me go and as i was catching my breath he picked me up carried me to the room and threw me on the bend, flipped me on my back and proceeded to show me how wet and creamy i was by wiping my cum on the top of my pussy like right on top my clit.
he again ate me out and right where i always get stuck like my legs curl and i instinctively pull away he pulled me in and fingered me! 🫨 only one finger but he went inside me! i had never wanted it but his finger made all the difference! i felt like a shock went through my spine! i came so hard, my body bent and curled and shook and trembled and he held me with one hand on the base of my stomach and the other with a finger inside me finger fucking me.
i couldn’t stop it! i came so hard! and so long! i almost cried from the pleasure! by the end i was literally shaking in like a trance, completely brain numb and he just got on top of me and kissed and cuddled me for the next 30mins.

i legit couldn’t function for a while, i still feel a little head high from it… it was the most intense experience i’ve ever had…😵‍💫😵🫠🫠🫠

for about the last week and a half ive (f18)been seeing the older redditor (m34) more frequently.
our schedules kinda worked out and he told me we needed practice to get over the mental block i had.

the first couple times he only focused on me but the same thing would happen, blocked. no matter how good he ate me out i would just get too sensitive and never cum…

then we had like three days in a row where i went over, we talked, watch tv and had me suck his dick while he gently played with my pussy or eat me out after he came.

we would go back and forth with who went down on the other.
literally earlier today!! like a couple hours ago this happened

i went over to his place, we chilled for a few minutes and started making out, he stood me up in front of him and took my clothes off, the got on his knees and gently licked my clit, only for a little bit my pussy was drooling and my knees kept buckling, then he stood up and kissed me with my juices on him lips, he walked me over to the wall and knelt me down, kinda sitting on my own legs, pulled his dick out and put it in my mouth, he was mostly hard but i sucked on the tip and got him fully stiff.
then he grabbed my hands, raised them over my head and slowly started tucked my mouth, next thing i knew my head was pressed against the wall, my hands were held by his one hand over my head and he was fucking my mouth.
he would push it down my throat and when i gagged he would pull it out and gently slap me with it.
he did that nonstop until he came, he pushed it down but i couldn’t swallow and gag at the same time so it became a mess of cum and spit as i tried to catch my breath and he tried to keep his cock in my mouth as he finished.

when he was finally done, he let me go and as i was catching my breath he picked me up carried me to the room and threw me on the bend, flipped me on my back and proceeded to show me how wet and creamy i was by wiping my cum on the top of my pussy like right on top my clit.
he again ate me out and right where i always get stuck like my legs curl and i instinctively pull away he pulled me in and fingered me! 🫨 only one finger but he went inside me! i had never wanted it but his finger made all the difference! i felt like a shock went through my spine! i came so hard, my body bent and curled and shook and trembled and he held me with one hand on the base of my stomach and the other with a finger inside me finger fucking me.
i couldn’t stop it! i came so hard! and so long! i almost cried from the pleasure! by the end i was literally shaking in like a trance, completely brain numb and he just got on top of me and kissed and cuddled me for the next 30mins.

i legit couldn’t function for a while, i still feel a little head high from it… it was the most intense experience i’ve ever had…😵‍💫😵🫠🫠🫠

for about the last week and a half ive (f18)been seeing the older redditor (m34) more frequently.
our schedules kinda worked out and he told me we needed practice to get over the mental block i had.

the first couple times he only focused on me but the same thing would happen, blocked. no matter how good he ate me out i would just get too sensitive and never cum…

then we had like three days in a row where i went over, we talked, watch tv and had me suck his dick while he gently played with my pussy or eat me out after he came.

we would go back and forth with who went down on the other.
literally earlier today!! like a couple hours ago this happened

i went over to his place, we chilled for a few minutes and started making out, he stood me up in front of him and took my clothes off, the got on his knees and gently licked my clit, only for a little bit my pussy was drooling and my knees kept buckling, then he stood up and kissed me with my juices on him lips, he walked me over to the wall and knelt me down, kinda sitting on my own legs, pulled his dick out and put it in my mouth, he was mostly hard but i sucked on the tip and got him fully stiff.
then he grabbed my hands, raised them over my head and slowly started tucked my mouth, next thing i knew my head was pressed against the wall, my hands were held by his one hand over my head and he was fucking my mouth.
he would push it down my throat and when i gagged he would pull it out and gently slap me with it.
he did that nonstop until he came, he pushed it down but i couldn’t swallow and gag at the same time so it became a mess of cum and spit as i tried to catch my breath and he tried to keep his cock in my mouth as he finished.

when he was finally done, he let me go and as i was catching my breath he picked me up carried me to the room and threw me on the bend, flipped me on my back and proceeded to show me how wet and creamy i was by wiping my cum on the top of my pussy like right on top my clit.
he again ate me out and right where i always get stuck like my legs curl and i instinctively pull away he pulled me in and fingered me! 🫨 only one finger but he went inside me! i had never wanted it but his finger made all the difference! i felt like a shock went through my spine! i came so hard, my body bent and curled and shook and trembled and he held me with one hand on the base of my stomach and the other with a finger inside me finger fucking me.
i couldn’t stop it! i came so hard! and so long! i almost cried from the pleasure! by the end i was literally shaking in like a trance, completely brain numb and he just got on top of me and kissed and cuddled me for the next 30mins.

i legit couldn’t function for a while, i still feel a little head high from it… it was the most intense experience i’ve ever had…😵‍💫😵🫠🫠🫠

for about the last week and a half ive (f18)been seeing the older redditor (m34) more frequently.
our schedules kinda worked out and he told me we needed practice to get over the mental block i had.

the first couple times he only focused on me but the same thing would happen, blocked. no matter how good he ate me out i would just get too sensitive and never cum…

then we had like three days in a row where i went over, we talked, watch tv and had me suck his dick while he gently played with my pussy or eat me out after he came.

we would go back and forth with who went down on the other.
literally earlier today!! like a couple hours ago this happened

i went over to his place, we chilled for a few minutes and started making out, he stood me up in front of him and took my clothes off, the got on his knees and gently licked my clit, only for a little bit my pussy was drooling and my knees kept buckling, then he stood up and kissed me with my juices on him lips, he walked me over to the wall and knelt me down, kinda sitting on my own legs, pulled his dick out and put it in my mouth, he was mostly hard but i sucked on the tip and got him fully stiff.
then he grabbed my hands, raised them over my head and slowly started tucked my mouth, next thing i knew my head was pressed against the wall, my hands were held by his one hand over my head and he was fucking my mouth.
he would push it down my throat and when i gagged he would pull it out and gently slap me with it.
he did that nonstop until he came, he pushed it down but i couldn’t swallow and gag at the same time so it became a mess of cum and spit as i tried to catch my breath and he tried to keep his cock in my mouth as he finished.

when he was finally done, he let me go and as i was catching my breath he picked me up carried me to the room and threw me on the bend, flipped me on my back and proceeded to show me how wet and creamy i was by wiping my cum on the top of my pussy like right on top my clit.
he again ate me out and right where i always get stuck like my legs curl and i instinctively pull away he pulled me in and fingered me! 🫨 only one finger but he went inside me! i had never wanted it but his finger made all the difference! i felt like a shock went through my spine! i came so hard, my body bent and curled and shook and trembled and he held me with one hand on the base of my stomach and the other with a finger inside me finger fucking me.
i couldn’t stop it! i came so hard! and so long! i almost cried from the pleasure! by the end i was literally shaking in like a trance, completely brain numb and he just got on top of me and kissed and cuddled me for the next 30mins.

i legit couldn’t function for a while, i still feel a little head high from it… it was the most intense experience i’ve ever had…😵‍💫😵🫠🫠🫠

this is a continuation of what i have been talking about.

i met up with my ex yesterday, went over to his house but he told me to come ready for a facial which just means to not wear makeup.

i did as he told me. when i got there he sat on his couch like usual but he slowly took all my clothes off. completely.
i was fully naked in front of him and he kissed and touched me all over.
of course he then put me on my knees and did not hesitate for a second, he grabbed my hair and had me throat him as fast and hard as i could manage.
of course it didn’t take long before he was ready to bust and he stood up, i looked up and opened my mouth. he finished himself off but he came so good i felt three clumpy ropes land across my face with a little in my mouth so i looked down then felt another 2-3 more shots. a little more watery so it dragged the first shots down my face.
i wiped my eyes and looked, his cum had ran down my chin onto my chest and it was slowly going down my belly… it was so much i tried to push it back up so it wouldn’t get down to my legs when he put his dick back in my mouth and told me to suck the last drops out. since i couldn’t see the cum on my belly i just rubbed it all over so i knew it hadn’t escaped lol

after he was done he lwt me wash my face but didn’t let me wash my body, he wanted me to get home with his cum under my clothes.

so i got home and went straight almost ran into my bathroom lol so no one had a chance to smell me

this is a continuation of what i have been talking about.

i met up with my ex yesterday, went over to his house but he told me to come ready for a facial which just means to not wear makeup.

i did as he told me. when i got there he sat on his couch like usual but he slowly took all my clothes off. completely.
i was fully naked in front of him and he kissed and touched me all over.
of course he then put me on my knees and did not hesitate for a second, he grabbed my hair and had me throat him as fast and hard as i could manage.
of course it didn’t take long before he was ready to bust and he stood up, i looked up and opened my mouth. he finished himself off but he came so good i felt three clumpy ropes land across my face with a little in my mouth so i looked down then felt another 2-3 more shots. a little more watery so it dragged the first shots down my face.
i wiped my eyes and looked, his cum had ran down my chin onto my chest and it was slowly going down my belly… it was so much i tried to push it back up so it wouldn’t get down to my legs when he put his dick back in my mouth and told me to suck the last drops out. since i couldn’t see the cum on my belly i just rubbed it all over so i knew it hadn’t escaped lol

after he was done he lwt me wash my face but didn’t let me wash my body, he wanted me to get home with his cum under my clothes.

so i got home and went straight almost ran into my bathroom lol so no one had a chance to smell me

this is a continuation of what i have been talking about.

i met up with my ex yesterday, went over to his house but he told me to come ready for a facial which just means to not wear makeup.

i did as he told me. when i got there he sat on his couch like usual but he slowly took all my clothes off. completely.
i was fully naked in front of him and he kissed and touched me all over.
of course he then put me on my knees and did not hesitate for a second, he grabbed my hair and had me throat him as fast and hard as i could manage.
of course it didn’t take long before he was ready to bust and he stood up, i looked up and opened my mouth. he finished himself off but he came so good i felt three clumpy ropes land across my face with a little in my mouth so i looked down then felt another 2-3 more shots. a little more watery so it dragged the first shots down my face.
i wiped my eyes and looked, his cum had ran down my chin onto my chest and it was slowly going down my belly… it was so much i tried to push it back up so it wouldn’t get down to my legs when he put his dick back in my mouth and told me to suck the last drops out. since i couldn’t see the cum on my belly i just rubbed it all over so i knew it hadn’t escaped lol

after he was done he lwt me wash my face but didn’t let me wash my body, he wanted me to get home with his cum under my clothes.

so i got home and went straight almost ran into my bathroom lol so no one had a chance to smell me

like if you bust daily vs holding it for a while,
there is a load difference but at what point does it actually accumulate enough to notice?

I (f18)met a redditor (m34) and we hung out once but our schedules hadn’t really worked out. finally this week he had a day off and i was able to go see him again.

I went over and we actually had some time so he ate me out again, just like last time (except this time i didn’t wear panties) he got down on his knees i sat on his couch and he kissed and licked me all over before actually getting to my clit.
he finally did when i was actually dripping cum and again he said i taste sweet.
i got really really close to cumming (but i wont let him finger me) when i felt like it just wasn’t going to happen i asked him to stop.

he didn’t asked me for anything but i had already planned to give him a bj. so when he set next to me i could see him hard in his pants and he seems like he wanted it.
so i asked him, “hey can i make you cum?” and of course he said yes but he didn’t just sit back to tell me suck his dck… (this is going to be hard to explain)

he stood up, so i got on my knees in front of the couch like with me back against the front of the couch, he pulled his dick out (which is actually a little bigger than my ex) and then… as he fed it to me he kneeled on the couch, like his knees were on either side of me head, his hands on the backrest of the couch and my head was pinned in the space between his legs and between the couch and him… its hard to picture but he had completely control over my mouth, all i could do was keep my mouth open and try not to gag as he fully fucked my face. he fucked my mouth at his pace and would test how deep or fast he could go before i gagged, he never stopped and i took it the best i could until he came, once his cock was in my mouth it never came out, if i gagged he would just pull back a little and let me catch my breath then keep going at the pace he wanted. he announced “im cumming baby get ready” and held my head with one hand as his cock pulsated and twitched in my mouth.

he pour such a big load, i tried not to spill it but it shot so hard and it was so many pumps that big clumps of cum leaked out around his cock and down my chin as i tried to swallow it with his cock still in my mouth.

i got some big stains on my shirt but he was sooo satisfied after that he layed there catching his breath for a couple minutes.

he said he hadn’t cum that hard since his honeymoon which i thought was a really cute compliment 😅

I (f18)met a redditor (m34) and we hung out once but our schedules hadn’t really worked out. finally this week he had a day off and i was able to go see him again.

I went over and we actually had some time so he ate me out again, just like last time (except this time i didn’t wear panties) he got down on his knees i sat on his couch and he kissed and licked me all over before actually getting to my clit.
he finally did when i was actually dripping cum and again he said i taste sweet.
i got really really close to cumming (but i wont let him finger me) when i felt like it just wasn’t going to happen i asked him to stop.

he didn’t asked me for anything but i had already planned to give him a bj. so when he set next to me i could see him hard in his pants and he seems like he wanted it.
so i asked him, “hey can i make you cum?” and of course he said yes but he didn’t just sit back to tell me suck his dck… (this is going to be hard to explain)

he stood up, so i got on my knees in front of the couch like with me back against the front of the couch, he pulled his dick out (which is actually a little bigger than my ex) and then… as he fed it to me he kneeled on the couch, like his knees were on either side of me head, his hands on the backrest of the couch and my head was pinned in the space between his legs and between the couch and him… its hard to picture but he had completely control over my mouth, all i could do was keep my mouth open and try not to gag as he fully fucked my face. he fucked my mouth at his pace and would test how deep or fast he could go before i gagged, he never stopped and i took it the best i could until he came, once his cock was in my mouth it never came out, if i gagged he would just pull back a little and let me catch my breath then keep going at the pace he wanted. he announced “im cumming baby get ready” and held my head with one hand as his cock pulsated and twitched in my mouth.

he pour such a big load, i tried not to spill it but it shot so hard and it was so many pumps that big clumps of cum leaked out around his cock and down my chin as i tried to swallow it with his cock still in my mouth.

i got some big stains on my shirt but he was sooo satisfied after that he layed there catching his breath for a couple minutes.

he said he hadn’t cum that hard since his honeymoon which i thought was a really cute compliment 😅

I (f18)met a redditor (m34) and we hung out once but our schedules hadn’t really worked out. finally this week he had a day off and i was able to go see him again.

I went over and we actually had some time so he ate me out again, just like last time (except this time i didn’t wear panties) he got down on his knees i sat on his couch and he kissed and licked me all over before actually getting to my clit.
he finally did when i was actually dripping cum and again he said i taste sweet.
i got really really close to cumming (but i wont let him finger me) when i felt like it just wasn’t going to happen i asked him to stop.

he didn’t asked me for anything but i had already planned to give him a bj. so when he set next to me i could see him hard in his pants and he seems like he wanted it.
so i asked him, “hey can i make you cum?” and of course he said yes but he didn’t just sit back to tell me suck his dck… (this is going to be hard to explain)

he stood up, so i got on my knees in front of the couch like with me back against the front of the couch, he pulled his dick out (which is actually a little bigger than my ex) and then… as he fed it to me he kneeled on the couch, like his knees were on either side of me head, his hands on the backrest of the couch and my head was pinned in the space between his legs and between the couch and him… its hard to picture but he had completely control over my mouth, all i could do was keep my mouth open and try not to gag as he fully fucked my face. he fucked my mouth at his pace and would test how deep or fast he could go before i gagged, he never stopped and i took it the best i could until he came, once his cock was in my mouth it never came out, if i gagged he would just pull back a little and let me catch my breath then keep going at the pace he wanted. he announced “im cumming baby get ready” and held my head with one hand as his cock pulsated and twitched in my mouth.

he pour such a big load, i tried not to spill it but it shot so hard and it was so many pumps that big clumps of cum leaked out around his cock and down my chin as i tried to swallow it with his cock still in my mouth.

i got some big stains on my shirt but he was sooo satisfied after that he layed there catching his breath for a couple minutes.

he said he hadn’t cum that hard since his honeymoon which i thought was a really cute compliment 😅

I (f18)met a redditor (m34) and we hung out once but our schedules hadn’t really worked out. finally this week he had a day off and i was able to go see him again.

I went over and we actually had some time so he ate me out again, just like last time (except this time i didn’t wear panties) he got down on his knees i sat on his couch and he kissed and licked me all over before actually getting to my clit.
he finally did when i was actually dripping cum and again he said i taste sweet.
i got really really close to cumming (but i wont let him finger me) when i felt like it just wasn’t going to happen i asked him to stop.

he didn’t asked me for anything but i had already planned to give him a bj. so when he set next to me i could see him hard in his pants and he seems like he wanted it.
so i asked him, “hey can i make you cum?” and of course he said yes but he didn’t just sit back to tell me suck his dck… (this is going to be hard to explain)

he stood up, so i got on my knees in front of the couch like with me back against the front of the couch, he pulled his dick out (which is actually a little bigger than my ex) and then… as he fed it to me he kneeled on the couch, like his knees were on either side of me head, his hands on the backrest of the couch and my head was pinned in the space between his legs and between the couch and him… its hard to picture but he had completely control over my mouth, all i could do was keep my mouth open and try not to gag as he fully fucked my face. he fucked my mouth at his pace and would test how deep or fast he could go before i gagged, he never stopped and i took it the best i could until he came, once his cock was in my mouth it never came out, if i gagged he would just pull back a little and let me catch my breath then keep going at the pace he wanted. he announced “im cumming baby get ready” and held my head with one hand as his cock pulsated and twitched in my mouth.

he pour such a big load, i tried not to spill it but it shot so hard and it was so many pumps that big clumps of cum leaked out around his cock and down my chin as i tried to swallow it with his cock still in my mouth.

i got some big stains on my shirt but he was sooo satisfied after that he layed there catching his breath for a couple minutes.

he said he hadn’t cum that hard since his honeymoon which i thought was a really cute compliment 😅

this confession is actually kinda lame but idk i want to share it anyway.

ive been talking to this older guy but we both agreed that its not with the intent of forming a relationship, we are just being physical with each other.

im also still seeing my ex, i do not want to date him and he’s made it clear that he doesn’t want to date me either.

my ex sees other people and the older guy is free to see other people too if he wanted to (idk if he does or not) and he knows im still seeing my ex. my ex doesn’t know about the older guy.

i have oral sex with my ex (give him bjs) and thats it. no sex. i send nudes to the older guy, we’ve only seen each other once irl and he ate me out. thats all i want to do with him no sex.

my ex asks me for nudes but i don’t send them, and ive never made the older guy cum but i do make my ex cum.

i know this is all a big messy tangle but idk how i actually ended up here, im not actually cheating on anyone but i feel like im cheating on both… 😅😔🥺