u/Infernotwink

It's a long story but to make it short I was in a relationship where I was bottom and had difficulties taking my ex's dick. So yeah I started stretching my hole to be able to take him fully to please him.

At that time I enjoyed average guys a lot and hitting the right spot. My ex was way bigger than any guys before, arround 8 inches so I trained my ass. Soon I was able to take him balls deep and started having sex pretty much daily, whenever he wanted. Sometimes not leaving much time to recover. After a year we broke up. Although our sex was amazing we didn't stay together.

Now hooking with guys I notice they ask me to clench more and have difficulties reaching an oragasm. Recently hooked up with an old FWB and he told me I felt way looser than we hooked up before. He actually thought it was hot so I ran with it. Now I have many questions but the main question or advice I'm looking for is if the training is reversible or is the damage done so to speak?

Am I slut for wanting my top to use a big dildo on me when he finishes before I do?

I think he might feel intimidated because it's a fat 8 inch creature cock dildo. When I ask him to finish me off, he reaches for my smaller toys I use to open myself up. Which don't do it for me after I'm opened up by his cock.

He is not that far off from my big dildo but it is definitely bigger than him. What would you do?

Would you be turned on or off when sliding in your whole meat in your bottom on the first try?

Do you like a relaxed hole or crave a tighter grip?