Am I a cuckquean or do I want a hot husband?
I thought I was a cuckquean because I really had no other word for it. I enjoy watching my husband fuck other women, but I don’t want the humiliation or degradation. We’ve always met and played with women together. I’ve posted that this summer I’m away for a few months, so I suggested that he “date” other women with the goal of having sex with them on his own. So he has been doing that, found a few women on Tinder, Feeld and Double list. (all with the goal of satisfying my kinks and completely with my blessing - I just want to put that out there upfront). Nothing has happened physically with anyone yet. When he schedules and goes in a date, my mind goes into overdrive and I get really anxious, which I know is part of the whole dynamic. We’ve been married a LONG time, live on a boat together and I know he is not going anywhere, ever. Yet I struggle with the texting, dating and meeting without me there or being involved (which we’ve also talked about). So I’m wondering if I’m more into the idea of him being a hot husband, where I can watch him with others, or more of a cuck quean. I think mainly I have FOMO and have too much time in my head! It’s really been confusing to him, because on one hand, I want him to flirt and have fun with women and on the other I tell him it makes me anxious (poor guy!) I’m curious what other CQ’s go through.