u/PhatPanda69699

So I took myself to a bookstore and I got lots of books about Japanese culture which I'm really interested in. I was hungry after doing all that walking around the store, I did have to sit down plenty of time to catch my breath well browsing the aisles and just from walking around the book store. When I walk to long I feel like im suffocating and it can be embarrassing.

Well I was hungry after spending over 2 hrs at the book store so I decided to treat myself for some pizza. I went in line and ordered a 16 inch pepperoni pizza with bread sticks and a fountain drink. Of course I had the usual stares but I didnt mind as much, I was hungry! When I go to my table I sat down (I had to move the table out the way at first ) and then I could feel the chair underneath my behind began to slide, I looked down in horror and saw that the chair i was sitting on was beginning to come apart !

I quickly switched seats and sat my purse on the weaker chair. I played on my phone which was only at 3 percent, and I knew I needed enough battery to see when the next bus came. I could have read to distract myself but I didnt want to read books about health while I had almost broke a chair with my weight.

I begin to feel ashamed of myself but then that shame quickly went away when they brought me my order! I immediately began to devor the pizza and sip on the soda, I was so hungry and the food was definitely worth the wait !

For my day off today I started the day with a big breakfast of Hawaiian chicken with extra rice and three snicker bars the king size kind. Then in the mid-morning I sipped some cold brewed decaf green tea. I really was craving Auntie Annie's pretzels but I didn't feel like ordering them to go to the mall. Going to the mall is a rare trip for me because one it involves a lot of walking and two there's so much more attractive prettier people out there than me.

So I always feel embarrassed going. Well today I went to the mall and I took myself to Bath and Body Works and I splurged on myself. When I first walked in into the Bath & Body Works I could tell a lot of the sales people thought I didn't have money to be shopping there LOL but I ignored that and kept asking different questions about their products they were selling and I spent a lot of money that they were shocked and they started being a lot nicer to me.

That one trip alone to Bath & Body Works made me very exhausted so I decided to stop at the food court which is my favorite place of the mall LOL. I got Panda Express the bigger plate I ordered four big egg rolls, a large soda and three chocolate chip cookies. Of course I have people staring at me when I carried all that food back with me to my table but I don't care. I was super happy. I wore pajama bottoms and tight hoodie with no bra thats getting to small for me and my favorite fuzzy black slippers.

After that big lunch I waddled to the bathroom because I need to emptied my bladder after that huge soda I drank. Then I slowly made my way to the bus. I got on, on time thankfully. And when I went home I decided that i wanted a new s--x toy, so walked myself to the shop from my home. I had to stop and catch my breath about 6-8 times on the way there but it was worth it because i got a new toy and a puppy bone gag!

I made it home safe and sound. Then I fixed myself 4 thick big grape pbjs sandwiches. And im sipped decaf green tea.

My head hurts and I feel lonely despite the good day I had today. I wish I had someone to hold me as I fell alseep but I realize that im way to big to fit into someones arms 😪.

Oh and I have 3 slices of peach cake today with soy milk. And I forgot to included the latge bubble tea I sipped on at the mall earlier.

26f and on my days off i hardly move off the couch unless its to answer the door to food deliveries or use the rest room. I decided to currently give up on trying to keep up with my peers with like going to clubs and dating because I don't fit in any way. I would rather just chill at home naked on the the sofa with the AC on watching lots of YouTube and Tick Tock and Anime while I eat my warm delicious fast food. Just now I ordered some teriyaki chicken with extra rice and extra pot stickers. And that was after my breakfast of half a gallon of ice cream with five cinnamon buns and a half a carton of soy milk. I'll update you guys later when I plan on having for dinner but this is how I spend my days off and this is how I'm able to consistently gain. None of my coworkers know how I spend my days off because I just lied to them they say that I've been around town doing lots of fun things when a reality I just stay at home and feed myself LOL. I'm actually enjoying this lifestyle to be honest, as long as my fridge is full and pantry who gives a eff ?

Im 26f and I have a submissive kink. I enjoy having casual sex as I dont think im relationship material or worth a real relationship. Even so men like to hide me as their sneaky link and at first I hated it but it has been starting to turn me on lately. I just want to know how I can be proud of being a mans cum rag without it destroying my relationship with myself and my self-esteem? Im not sure what subreddit to post this in..

I also forgot to mention that I'm practicing safe sex too. Like condoms are a must for me.