Update after a few months of exploring being a cuckquean.
I posted here a few months ago because at the time I had just discovered I was a cuckquean. My partner (also my Dom) and I have definitely had our ups and downs while I've been learning about my likes and dislikes, but the highs have been so good for us both and for our relationship.
I have learnt that there are things I do not want, but there are also things that I definitely do want if possible....I want to be involved in someway - touching my partner while he's playing with someone else, guiding his cock, receiving his cum after he's fucked another pussy, or cleaning another pussy off his cock.
I still really enjoy watching videos of my Dom fucking and playing with other women, or seeing the videos they've sent him....and I find it very exciting to send the videos back to him as a reminder if I know hes going to see a woman from one of the videos. I find it exciting to turn him on and remind him what it was like for him when he fucked her. He has a friend who he sees most weeks. I find it exciting when he tells me that he's been looking at her tits or that she's wearing something thin or revealing. Last week he told me he'd touched her and what she felt like, which I loved!
We had a friend stay over recently and my Dom told me to go to bed and wait for him because he wanted to go and see her. I got into bed and waited, just as he'd asked. I did not know what they were doing, but I found it really exciting waiting for him to come back to me....and when he did, he told me what had happened, and then he fucked my wet pussy whilst telling me I was his good girl and he'd had to put me second and leave me waiting while he was with her....this surprisingly really turned me on....and last night while we were playing he told me that he'd fucked an ex of his in the exact same place, and that he'd rather be fucking her while I watched....and it turned me on so much which has really surprised me as I'm not usually into that type of play.
Maybe it's because after a few months of enjoying CQ I have grown enough to know that in reality I do of course come first to him.
Has anyone else found they've really enjoyed something that they would not have expected to enjoy?
It's still really early days and I know we will face lots of hurdles, but I'm enjoying things right now! I hope this post is interesting to read, particularly for other cuckqueans who are only a few months in like me!