u/gentle_blue_girl

Feeld has been a bit draining lately so I've come to Reddit.

I am looking for a FLR-style friendship. Close friends, but I am in control of everything.

I'm terribly spoilt, I'm afraid. Even the Doms spoil me! They love my body, but subs love my vibe.

I live to be worshipped, verbally and with endless acts of service. In return I might let my friend get really close with me in all kinds of ways. I am pretty giving in that regard... I'm really, really generous when it comes to kinks. I love to find out what makes my sub tick and then squeeze that soft spot for all its worth. And then squeeze it some more. And more. And more...

I'm a total princess, gentle and cute on the outside. But secretly, I get off hurting my toys.

I can be really fucking evil. I love tease, denial, emotional sadism. Every nasty kink turned up to eleven and then twisted, just for you. But I also genuinely love cuddling and hearing about your day and watching movies. I'm the best friend you'll ever have! Yes, you will be doing all the thoughtful preparation, cooking, various types of cleaning... but it's worth it, to spend time with me.

London based, with a boyfriend who would not be involved in our play, but who does exist and is cherished.

Please send an initial message with a face pic, letting me know if you're in N, S, E or W London, and also what kinds of things you're interested in, both vanilla and kinky. Please be polite and interesting, it's so much admin to read through you all. I can only reply if you give me something to work with. Ugly little goblins are welcome, as well as cute gymbros (I'm kind of a muscle mommy with curves myself), but your max age is 45.

Looking forward to finding my new friend!

Hi! I once had a thing with a sub who was into being a friendzone cuck. So all the normal cuck stuff, but it was friendship we had. We'd still cuddle, hang out, do all the usual 'dating' type stuff... but we were friends, not partners. He was a simpy sub guy (my usual type.)

The vibe was almost like a movie... guy who was in love with his best friend who just knew he wasnt the right type of guy for her...

Ever since I've wanted to recreate this but it seems so hard to find someone in real life, even though I'm very active in my kink scene in my (major) city.

I suspect guys find it too weird to do even if theyre into the cuck thing.

I've been finding it so tricky that I'm debating giving up.

What do you guys think?

Once I was doing chastity on a guy and I wore his (inexpensive) watch for the duration of the chastity game.

It was hot and fun to have something of his to wear of his during this period. Like the inverse of having a collar.

It was chastity in the sense of he'd agreed not to cum, as opposed to an actual cage/key.

What other unusual, circumstances specific, or subtle ways have you had of secretly knowing or being reminded of a dynamic?

hi all. femdomme here. i wish i could be less emotional after playing, but i find i need a lot of aftercare. I like to feel connected to the sub. someone reliable, consistent, caring and emotionally attuned to me… even if just a play partner. Am i asking too much? 

I feel super anxious and guilty after playing. I said and did horrible things that yes we had agreed in advance but what if he secretly hated them? 

i have had one particularly bad experience where after some darker play, my sub just disappeared on me for six months, despite my offering to pause dynamic, talk about it, find a gentle way to end things. just silence. i felt totally horrible, guilty, ashamed, the lot. 

i’m looking for a new sub. but now every time i do darker / meaner play, i feel super anxious afterwards. 

perhaps part of the problem is that i see myself as this caring person, but this kind of play cuts so much against that. i want to be adored and cared for - and i feel like i keep trying out this kind of play with new partners who say they’re into it, but then end up feeling horrible afterwards. And also sad - bc im trying hard to connect on their terms too, to discover them and what they like, not just what i like. only, it keeps going wrong - i feel abandoned, anxious, and like they don’t care about me (or are repelled by how horrible i am). and i put effort and hope into these interactions only to feel… awful. 

what can i do, or ask my new potential play partners to do, to help me with this?

a part of me wants to take a break from all this for healing, but there’s another hopeful part of me that keeps coming back.