u/imnotsureyoutellme

33m, been in a long term open relationship for the last 10 years. She discovered she was bi early on and I never wanted to hold her back from exploring a side of her she never got the chance to. She would joke about how she felt bad that she had the opportunity to meet girls and I didn't, but she was also insecure about the idea of me with other women and would joke about how "why don't I just try it with men?" I've always been straight so it didn't interest me too much, but I would joke about it with her. Leaving it up to a maybe. She would tell me she was into it and found it hot, we would watch different types of porn together. Gay, straight, trans, lesbian, etc.

Overtime of this being joked about multiple times it would come up around mutual friends who were gay, and they would show interest in me. With all the consistent positive support around it, I figured why not. I had an experience with one of her friends, and while it wasn't amazing or life changing for me it wasn't something I regretted.

But now years later every now and then I get a deep rooted urge to act on this again, and I have found I enjoy dirty talk where the other men insist that I am "a closeted gay man, how could I possibly be straight with how much fun I have with them", etc. Almost a humiliation/talking down sort of verbal play. There are even videos of women doing these sort of monologues, and I've grown to love them. When I watch porn, those audio type videos and gay porn are nearly all I watch. But I still love having sex with my partner, and we've opened it up to allowing other women as well. But I still look for men primarily for quick hookups or fwbs. In my normal day to day life I don't really notice men, or find myself attracted to them or wanting to talk to them like I do with women.

I'm starting to wonder if this is just what I prefer now, or if it was just a slippery slope that lead to this kink.

33m, been in a long term open relationship for the last 10 years. She discovered she was bi early on and I never wanted to hold her back from exploring a side of her she never got the chance to. She would joke about how she felt bad that she had the opportunity to meet girls and I didn't, but she was also insecure about the idea of me with other women and would joke about how "why don't I just try it with men?" I've always been straight so it didn't interest me too much, but I would joke about it with her. Leaving it up to a maybe. She would tell me she was into it and found it hot, we would watch different types of porn together. Gay, straight, trans, lesbian, etc.

Overtime of this being joked about multiple times it would come up around mutual friends who were gay, and they would show interest in me. With all the consistent positive support around it, I figured why not. I had an experience with one of her friends, and while it wasn't amazing or life changing for me it wasn't something I regretted.

But now years later every now and then I get a deep rooted urge to act on this again, and I have found I enjoy dirty talk where the other men insist that I am "a closeted gay man, how could I possibly be straight with how much fun I have with them", etc. Almost a humiliation/talking down sort of verbal play. There are even videos of women doing these sort of monologues, and I've grown to love them. When I watch porn, those audio type videos and gay porn are nearly all I watch. But I still love having sex with my partner, and we've opened it up to allowing other women as well. But I still look for men primarily for quick hookups or fwbs. In my normal day to day life I don't really notice men, or find myself attracted to them or wanting to talk to them like I do with women.

I'm starting to wonder if this is just what I prefer now, or if it was just a slippery slope that lead to this kink.

33m, been in a long term open relationship for the last 10 years. She discovered she was bi early on and I never wanted to hold her back from exploring a side of her she never got the chance to. She would joke about how she felt bad that she had the opportunity to meet girls and I didn't, but she was also insecure about the idea of me with other women and would joke about how "why don't I just try it with men?" I've always been straight so it didn't interest me too much, but I would joke about it with her. Leaving it up to a maybe. She would tell me she was into it and found it hot, we would watch different types of porn together. Gay, straight, trans, lesbian, etc.

Overtime of this being joked about multiple times it would come up around mutual friends who were gay, and they would show interest in me. With all the consistent positive support around it, I figured why not. I had an experience with one of her friends, and while it wasn't amazing or life changing for me it wasn't something I regretted.

But now years later every now and then I get a deep rooted urge to act on this again, and I have found I enjoy dirty talk where the other men insist that I am "a closeted gay man, how could I possibly be straight with how much fun I have with them", etc. Almost a humiliation/talking down sort of verbal play. There are even videos of women doing these sort of monologues, and I've grown to love them. When I watch porn, those audio type videos and gay porn are nearly all I watch. But I still love having sex with my partner, and we've opened it up to allowing other women as well. But I still look for men primarily for quick hookups or fwbs. In my normal day to day life I don't really notice men, or find myself attracted to them or wanting to talk to them like I do with women.

I'm starting to wonder if this is just what I prefer now, or if it was just a slippery slope that lead to this kink.

Title, essentially. And I think it's part of why it took me so long to realize my exact type and desires. I prefer to be dominant, and sex with women was always so natural for me. Always loved their big curves and soft bodies etc. But still messed around and ended up "experimenting" with a couple gay guys as well. Thought I was bi for a long time, but now I can only fully get off with a tall and wide bald man with hairy body submitting to me. The older the better.