Navigating these thoughts as a muslim
Just wanted some advice if any of you have been in a similar situation.
Before we got married, I told my wife that I'm open to multiple women which initially upset her but she said she liked me so much she'd be willing to compromise.
I always teased her a bit about me being with other women but she always got shy, but now we've been married for a while she's started to open up more.
She said she has the best sex life ever (which she never dreamed of before we got married as Muslim virgins) but she admitted she feels selfish for keeping me all to herself and not letting other women have this pleasure.
Then she admitted more, she started to reveal during sex that she wants me to pound other women whilst she watches and sees how hard I get.
She said she's afraid of what will happen if I find another woman in terms of she feels her family and other people will see her as a "weak woman".
I told her it's okay and tried to reassure her and for a while the thoughts seem to have gone.
We went through a difficult patch in our marriage (did to external pressure nothing to do with me or her) and I ended up putting on a lot of weight and letting myself go. For the last few months I have lost weight and made more effort with my appearance.
After this, she now irons my clothes or tells me to get a haircut and then when I come home from the hospital she wants to know about all the women at work looking at me and she gets turned on hearing about it.
I'm all for encouraging and exploring with my wife but I genuinely can't tell is she definitely a cuckquean and is it that she has a lot of guilt or is it more likely she just says it to make me happy? I'm not sure because it's been a lot more occasions than I thought.
Are there any other Muslims who went through this and anat did you do?