[TF4A] deepthroating my first dildo

Hi : ) trans girl in my 20s here!

my first dildo arrived today. it's sitting beside my computer now, glistening with the saliva I left on the head and shaft. it's pretty and kinda small (though it feels way bigger than I expected!), about 5 inches length past the balls. I'm a virgin so I've never had a real cock in my mouth, just imagined it, but it turns out I really like trying to fit it down my throat. I can get all 5 inches down, or almost (just not the balls), but I gag a little. I love the feeling of it filling the back of my throat

I'm just disappointed because... it doesn't smell like anything. I mean, it's silicone, of course it wouldn't. I just want a real cock (or a strap with someone wearing it) even more now. I want to have skin and hair and sweat in my nose when I get that last inch down.

I haven't put it in the other way yet, I don't masturbate often and I've only fingered myself there so it's a bit intimidating to put in my butt lol. I am really enjoying stroking it with my hand though. Is that weird? Am I a weird pervert lol?

Anyway, I had to share - it's just the weirdest combination of arousing and unsatisfying.

Send me a chat if you might like to talk about that or something else! My tastes include: spanking, kissing, deepthroating, dirty talk, anal, submission, nipple play, musk and sweat, romance, swallowing cum, monsters, butches, older women, daddies, other fems and trans women, praise

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u/touchglut — 4 hours ago
▲ 13 r/hzdgrip

how does the grip actually keep erections down?

hi, I've been researching chastity devices and I'm really interested in the grip. I've heard it's really comfortable and does a good job of keeping the head from really expanding.

on the blog/site it said something about the glans ring being a 'trigger' for a different mechanism, so that instead of all the pressure of restraining the erection being on the glans, it's on the shaft. but either I missed the explanation somehow or it wasn't explained.

so I'm wondering how the grip inhibits erections without just pinching the glans? is it a matter of how erectile tissue expands, so that if the shaft cage stops the shaft from expanding much, it also won't expand or apply pressure that much at the glans (because the erection has to 'expand outwards' I guess?)? thank you : ) I'm just really curious about the mechanics here lol

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u/touchglut — 11 days ago

mtf body mod project

I didn't know this sub existed before I posted but seems very relevant so I'll link it here : ) (VERY NSFW, sexual content included but not really sexual in intention)

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u/touchglut — 12 days ago
▲ 181 r/BdsmDIY

permanent/semi-permanent mtf chastity piercing setup/device explorations

Hi! This might not 100% fit the sub but I can't think of another nsfw sub that might better fit.

There's a small chastity component here I'll touch on, but I'm trans (mtf) and I really actively don't enjoy looking at my junk or having it acknowledged even when undressing myself or going to pee, and I'm hoping experimenting with beautifying the area a bit or creating a device or setup for myself to change how it behaves and sits against my body could break down some of those semi-irrational negative associations and make me less ashamed of what I have down there.

I really like the idea of having my erections restrained but I've never tried a chastity cage because I hate the look of the ball ring so much. So I don't 100% understand how they actually work - I guess it's really just dependent on a 'cage' of mechanical pressure? I don't really understand if it actually stops erections or just makes them hurt. Nor what happens if you keep getting turned on while in a small cage! Do you just continually bruise or does your brain realise you can't get hard?

I've seen a lot of devices that are *similar* to what I want but I'd really like to see if I can create an alternative solution to a typical chastity device that 1. doesn't add so much rigid material and 2. looks more like a pretty and permanent body mod than a plastic sissy toy.

I'd like to be able to go to the toilet and just exist without needing to take it off (not that I wouldn't clean it or be mindful of giving my body a rest, just that I'd like it to feel like a relatively comfortable extension of myself). It'd also be really nice if it didn't need straps - if I can't figure that out, much of the experimental part of this goes out the window, and it'll be a simpler project of adapting existing products so that I like their look better.

Aesthetically it doesn't have to 'trick' anyone that I have different anatomy than I do, I just want it to strongly visually signal that I don't wear, use or relate to my genitalia as a typical dick.

So, to explain the idea I've been sitting on but not yet tested - there are a few devices I want to expand on the idea of, most notably the fufu clip, which anchor by clipping or holding the scrotum, pulling it forward to resemble labia, and pushing the balls back into the body - they go in FRONT of the balls, instead of sitting behind the balls. There isn't a TON of info about these but they seem hit or miss and fit seems difficult. They hold the skin in place by tension/keeping it pulled through between arms of mostly-rigid plastic. I'm not sure how well they stay on or prevent erections, especially for longer wear, and unlike a lot of chastity cage users generally a lot of mtf who this is marketed to can't really get hard, or at least can much less easily than before (unfortunately for my purposes here, I can).

My dream solution is a device that keeps the scrotum forward, the balls tucked in and the dick head somewhat restrained by using piercings as anchor points/connections.

Of course, if I had a more general way to discourage erections that would minimise the need form a 'cage' of pressure. It might be easier to split this up into parts, maybe using a more typical ringless chastity device on the head?

So yeah, i'm thinking a semi rigid structure *like* that of the plastic labia/scrotum-forward clip in how it arranges the flesh, but either constituted partly or fully of piercings, OR anchored to the body with piercings so that it's semi-permanently installed. Similar effect but more blending into the body.

It's not important that it can lock (I'm happy to wear an *extra* chastity device over it for chastity play), and it'd actually be ideal if I can both pee in it 'closed' and also open/close/adjust it to access the penis, perhaps with links in the structure/enclosure that can be partially undone. It is really important that it doesn't stop my ability to pee, having to take it off constantly would defeat much of the purpose.

I'd love to take visual cues from female labia ring piercings, which are so pretty to me - either a few piercings, or a couple of rows of piercings, sitting symmetrically under and to the side of the 'clit', accentuating the 'clit' while drawing visual weight away from it, and holding the 'lips' or meat forward. I'm wondering if some transscrotal piercings could serve to 'pinch' the skin forward, away from the balls, and basically accomplish half of the idea here in one set of piercings. perhaps that could anchor to a flush little metal hood for the clit/dick, something like that.

I'm going to need to do some more research on genital piercings that could work as secure anchors and how much I can realistically expect to securely 'bind' my genitalia like this without needing a strap - that seems to be the real technical issue here.

My next step is to try a fufu clip (they come in metal so I might try that or try both for material contrast), try to understand how it works with my anatomy and more thoroughly research the types of genital piercings that might be workable here. Then maybe try to talk to a piercer about the viability of some of those anchor piercings... unless someone more knowledgeable about the anatomy puts the kibosh on the idea or tells me of a better alternative before I get to that point! Maybe tinker up a more lightweight, less complete and bulky counterpart to the clip that complements and provides the necessary structure the piercings can't.

I included a bunch of reference images including similar devices I've found, male and female piercings I'd like to borrow from the look of, and visual examples of some of these less common piercings and setups, even though I'm mainly looking for a proof of concept right now. I would love to come back and update if I find out this isn't going to work (or if it works surprisingly well!), I think my needs are fairly niche but I'd love to let other people know how to do it if I end up getting good results. The extra visual examples are there, of course, because the second leg of the project would be turning it into a visually appealing setup!

It will probably be a while before I get this off the ground but I've had the idea rattling around in my brain for quite a while, wanting something cheaper than full surgery that I can do to make my anatomy a little more useable sexually and mentally. I'm hoping it's doable and it's just a matter of noone having tried a setup like this yet 😭

(I also don't plan to DIY anything dangerous like piercings in which I am not trained! to be clear)

I hope this isn't too much of an early stages project/empty big idea to be allowed here but I genuinely haven't seen much discussion of the like so I'd be really curious if there's stuff I don't know about : ) perhaps its more useful to test how different devices work on me through direct experience and proceed from there than to ask, but I'd still appreciate input.

As far as I can tell it's a pretty basic and semi-proven concept but actually coordinating the necessary forces between the anatomy, trying to create the effect relatively minimally and elegantly/improve on the clip or similar products, and trying materials/altering and combining existing products/researching, getting and healing piercings in different combinations could all take a really long time. Hopefully I can come back with an update and dispel which of these options are not really practical/worth exploring for anyone who likes to tuck and likes chastity but doesn't like standard chastity cages. I honestly don't think it entirely fits among the other projects here but I'm hoping it's interesting enough to make up for that :sob:
thanks for reading!

u/touchglut — 12 days ago

24 NB/F4A Australia / Online - trans woman loves anal, how original!

TRANS woman here (that means I was born male but I'm not male in any part of my life anymore, save those needing surgery). I need your help simulating & further stimulating my desires and fantasies. And easing the worries in my heavy little head? No, really, it's just play.

I've gotten a lot hotter lately. It's both exciting and excruciating. I'm a staunch feminist and a very private thoughtful person, and I always imagined holding out for someone I had a deep bond with. I'm a bit sexually repressed. I'm reconsidering. I want someone to fuck my asshole so damn bad. I want someone to pull my hair and I want to scream with excitement as they make all the wet sounds I crave.

I want to be a slut and I would love discussing this with someone who is a bit sexually curious about someone like me, or already knows they like my type, and wants to tell me in graphic detail the things they'd like to do.

I love dirty talk and I want you to tell me specifics about your favorite sensations and your favorite lines to use when you're exploring a good girl's holes.

Interests: submission, anal, throatfucking, mild masochism, kissing, pet names, dirty talk, nipple play

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u/touchglut — 1 month ago