u/Squeedoodle

For too long we have bourne the Bigs' slights and insults! We are NOT littles telling fibs! We are grownups in our own right! We must collectively stand up (possibly on chairs) and demand respect, and the things we are entitled to!

Abolish bed times! Let us get our required 12 hours of video games per day! Pizza IS a complete breakfast! Lots of adults have enormous collections of stuffies and sleep with their favorites every night! There's nothing babyish about sometimes maybe needing to wear padding to bed just in case! It's called being a late bloomer! We CAN watch PG-13 movies on our own!!

Cast off the yoke of oppression! Fight! The Bigs can't tell us what to do anymore! Probably! Definitely! Maybe! Ii think. Right..?

I don't just mean being denied sex, though that is often part of it. I mean it's fun and exciting to be treated like I'm too little to even know what sex or sexual urges are.

If I express sexual desire, then clearly I've been listening in on grownup conversations not meant for me, and I'm trying to sound like a big girl. It's wonderfully frustrating to be teased, or even punished, for saying or attempting such things.

And it's even better if my top is frequently touching and talking to me in sexual ways, but hiding behind a veneer of "I'm just taking care of you," or "being affectionate." That plausible deniability that makes ME the one acting inappropriately when I get flustered and needy as a result. Something about that kind of sexual gaslighting drives me wild. 🤤😖

It's kind of exacerbated by the fact that I find sex embarassing to begin with, so all this puts the humiliation into overdrive.

Does anyone else enjoy this kind of thing?

I don't just mean being denied sex, though that is often part of it. I mean it's fun and exciting to be treated like I'm too little to even know what sex or sexual urges are.

If I express sexual desire, then clearly I've been listening in on grownup conversations not meant for me, and I'm trying to sound like a big girl. It's wonderfully frustrating to be teased, or even punished, for saying or attempting such things.

And it's even better if my top is frequently touching and talking to me in sexual ways, but hiding behind a veneer of "I'm just taking care of you," or "being affectionate." That plausible deniability that makes ME the one acting inappropriately when I get flustered and needy as a result. Something about that kind of sexual gaslighting drives me wild. 🤤😖

It's kind of exacerbated by the fact that I find sex embarassing to begin with, so all this puts the humiliation into overdrive.

Does anyone else enjoy this kind of thing?

"This is for your own good."

"You don't know what you need."

"You don't get to decide."

"It doesn't matter what you want."

And other fun sentences 🤤

[at the In-N-Out drive-through a few weeks ago]

Me: Oh look, that poster says kids get a free hot chocolate on rainy days.

Roommate: Neat!

Me: Do you think they'll give me one cause I'm a child at heart?

RM: Maybe they will if you tell em you're a little.

Me: ...why do I tell you things?

I play with lots of my friends, it's nothing new. But last weekend I was visiting my friend in her new apartment, and she had another friend over too. At one point they were fooling around in her bed, and I was sitting in the chair at the foot of the bed, watching.

I claimed I was doing it in a voyeuristic capacity, but later admitted I liked the aspect of... watching without getting to participate. She and I are talking about doing something similar again, but maybe tying me up and gagging me next time.

There's a word for this, and I'm too embarrassed to say it. 😖😣

Who's there?

Interrupting ball gag.

Interrupting ball gagghffmmph!?

I'm not good at talking about myself, but I'll give it my best shot. I'm polite, but I curse like a sailor. I'm shy, but silly and snarky once I open up. I don't like being in large crowds, but I do sometimes go to kink parties (and then usually find a quiet corner to do some coloring). I enjoy cutesy affectionate praise, and mean sadistic degradation. I am a girl of contradictions.

I'm about 5'6", chubby but in the process of getting healthier with diet and exercise. I plan to get bottom surgery once I hit the goal BMI set by my doctor. Brown hair down to my hips, which is one of my favorite things about myself, even if it can be kinda high maintenance. I have a cute voice and I squeak when people grab my butt. I bruise like a banana.

I enjoy providing domestic service like cooking and cleaning. I also am really into impact, rules and punishments, bondage, "forced" age regression, and orgasm denial. I don't like vanilla sex, but I like being "coerced" into it (consensually). My favorite headspace in intimacy is somewhere between cornered prey, and a naive, overly trusting little girl who's in over her head.

I'm looking for an in-person connection. I'm active in my local scene. At this time I'm playing with friends, but currently have no partners.

Message me if you'd like to know more. If you like to be mean and harsh when you play, definitely message me. 😊

then why is swearing so much fun?

Fuck!

Checkmate, bigs. 😏

It's been a minute since I posted here. Last month Sir decided I needed an orgasm. Honestly he was right. As he's fond of making me recite, "I'm too stupid to make decisions. Sir knows best."

But today marked one month since that orgasm, and I'm feeling good about it. This time for sure I'll beat my record (4 months) and push beyond that mark! Wish me luck!! 😸

I got myself a case of 10 to try them out (the "sample packs" are such a ripoff). Now I'm in love with them, and I've ordered another 80. I wear them every night, and I sleep so much better. Haven't even needed to use a diaper cover. 🥰

I've seen lots of other designs, but these are by far the cutest to me. What are y'all's favorites?

Today, I went to pick my friend up to go out to dinner with my roommates. Before we left, we hung out in their room for a bit, just the two of us. They showed me an episode of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. Then I said, "well, it's a bit early, but I guess we could start getting ready to go... or we could make out for five minutes."

We chose the latter.

Got pretty hot and heavy, with them eventually straddling my lap and pinning me to the wall on their bed. Sadly we had to go meet my roommates, but there was all-you-can-eat sushi involved, so overall it was a good time.

But when we got back to their place, we got right back to it. They teased me a little for how embarrassed I was getting about the noises I made, and then started tickling me. I wiggled around and as they tickled my thighs, my skirt rode up, revealing my padded training panties decorated with unicorns and rainbows.

They said, "y'know for someone who describes herself as a 'grumpy old lady,' you sure are wearing some very cute panties."

I blushed ten shades of red, buried my face in their boobs, and mumbled something like, "I may or may not be a little." I had planned to tell them before we got to this point, in case it was gonna make things weird, but we got here faster than I had expected.

They assured me they weren't judging, and we kept cuddling and kissing until eventually I had to go home. I'm looking forward to seeing them again. They smelled nice. 🤤😖