u/Sweetdonistic

My sweet pea is into feminization and this morning at my desk I’ve just been daydreaming and having so many intrusive thoughts 😵‍💫

I feel like a pretty rosy pink or peach would look so cute against his pale skin… wanna put fluffy kitty ears on him… maybe a frilly apron with nothing else underneath…

I am thinking of all the things I’d say to him… “Honestly… you’re a very sorry, pathetic excuse of a boy… you’re always wearing these baggy clothes trying to hide how petite you are, right? But look.. if I tie this ribbon in the back here, look how cute you look… your little waist was made to be shown off, not hidden. Look at you… look me in the face… you’re so blushy, you’re so pretty. My pretty kitty...”

HELP SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM MY THOUGHTS. I AM
UNWELL.

So I have been into the idea of being a femdom for awhile. I love writing about it & in my head I had this idea of being super bossy & bratty but I’ve gotten my first ever sub & he’s so cute that I am having trouble being strict / bossy.

Like I thought I would be one way, but I have totally melted into a puddle of affection… I am also very shy around him.

I’ve been thinking of all the things I wanna do to him.. like dress him up in cute costumes, and if I already can’t be a bully, how am I gonna bully him when he’s wearing cat ears and acting all cuddly and needy ??? 😭

I am highkey kinda panicking bc I really want to be more strict but it kinda hurts my heart when I think of hurting him… even though I know it’s play & even though I know he wants it ..!!

I really adore him so I wanna be good at being a dom but now that I have arrived I don’t know if I have it in me… ; ^ ;

Especially when it comes to gentle femdom !

I’m so sure it’s bc of new relationship energy, bc I only met my sub for the first time on Sunday, but today was such a productive day for me !

I have been kinda in a funk lately, but I did so much laundry today ! I did dishes & just my outlook has been much brighter today & I think it’s just because we had such a great connection.

It’s been so nice to wake up to good morning texts for the last couple of days & have him be attentive and check in on me through out the day, and talk until it’s time for bed. We are so excited to see each other again on Saturday 💕

Because we are taking things slow, I don’t have anything exciting to share 🙈 just fluff ! 🤍

My brain is all confused & mush. I know eventually I need to get my head in the game & take control ! but maybe what I’m into are service subs who make me feel fluffy & adored & in return I can give him lots of praise and rewards for being the goodest boy.

It’s just kinda funny to me how before I actually found a sub I thought I was gonna be bratty & bossy but after being presented a sub I have just melted into an adoring love puddle 🫠💕

So this is a situation where something sad turned into something sweet.

I am very new to femdom. I started chatting with a guy last week who began calling me mommy & I was so happy, but as the days went by he began to speak to me less and less & his responses became dry and uninterested. :( I felt a little lonely, but I didn’t wanna bother him or speak up. Two days before we were to meet up, he cancelled on me. I was sad, but I told him no problem. I am not sure why he all of a sudden pulled away, but I’m honestly glad he did.

Feeling a bit saddened, I wrote out exactly what I was looking for in a personal in a local group, and shortly after I got a message from a guy saying what I wrote out sounded like exactly what he was looking for. I was happy that I had Sunday plans again ! (:

I now understand how much more weight actions have vs words.

He was excited to set up a meeting the next day so we could feel each other out. He sent me messages asking about me & what I liked so he seemed very attentive and sweet over text.

I arrived at the café a bit earlier than him but when I saw him get out the car my brain just goes “awwwwhh! 🥺” He was SO CUTE, and I am just like “yesssss” internally 🙈 later he told me his heart was beating fast when I started walking towards him. I have no idea why he kept telling me he’s not very cute over text bc I am telling you guys.. he was a real cutie pie !!💕

Anyway, this sweet boy had such good manners. Jumping to hold doors open for me and others, paying for my drink without hesitation. These are just small things… but after feeling like I was bothering the potential sub I had spoken to before hand, it just felt very nice to feel like someone was interested in me.

We spoke for a couple of hours & we got along so well ! He was so funny (: We were both a little nervous and we didn’t want to leave each other, but after sometime we left and chatted a bit more outside his car.

He is short ! He is the same height as me 🙈💕 we spoke about it a bit… I love how his face lit up when I gushed about his height.

I told him I wanted to kiss him and I gave him a little peck 🙈💕 and kinda acted silly and giggly over it. I had butterflies the whole ride home.

When I got back I checked my phone and was happy to see he texted me to make sure I got home safe. 😊💕 We quickly set up a second date ! This upcoming weekend we are gonna see a scary movie together and grab food after !

We are both new to gentle femdom, so I am thrilled we can navigate everything together. We both agreed to just keep dating normally for awhile so we can get comfortable with each other before we introduce kink into our relationship. I’m hoping as we get more familiar with each other the shyness will settle and bloom into the dynamic we both have been dreaming of.

I hope I can post more about us in the future as we get closer ! but I just wanted to share this little victory ! 💕

Tomorrow I am meeting with a cutie ! He’s inexperienced, and so am I, so we’d be trying new things together. We’ve both only ever chatted about a femdom dynamics online. We are just grabbing some boba tea together. I’m already kinda smitten lol we are near the same height & I pointed out it would be cute that we are the same, and he said if I wear heels I’d be taller and that maybe I should 🙈 I am a bit shy about looking taller in public, but I definitely will consider it at a later time if he’s into that.

Lots of questions but !

1.) Typically, how do your first dates with a maybe sub go? More often than not do you make a connection & go forward or not?

2.) What do you like to do / go for a first meet up? Tomorrow we are just grabbing drinks but if it doesn’t work out, it would be nice just to hear some other ideas of things I could do.

3.) Just general things that I would need to know I guess ! I’ve never done this before really, so any and all advice is appreciated.

Hello, and good morning ! ☺️💕

First thing I would like to say is I am new to this, but extremely curious and would like to make a genuine, long term connection if at all possible.

So I consider myself a submissive, but I am a bit of a brat. I would like to find a submissive male to take on a playmate role with. I would be the more dominant one, but think gentle teasing… dressing you up in cute outfits while you blush, some edging, during play dates being a bit bossy and telling you what we are gonna play & how we are gonna play it, etc.

So think a bit of a bully, but I will also adore you and be a bit clingy. I just show my affection in bossy ways.

This isn’t set in stone, but it excites me to think that maybe one day the two of us could share a dom together, but because I will be oh so attached to you, i will always put you first, but the idea of the two of us kneeling together in front of a dom that we both agree is deserving of our submission is very exciting. Think of how cute we will be kneeling in front of him, holding hands 💕 of course you’d be kinda shy, but I’d coax you into he a good boy for them. 🙈 but !! this is only a fantasy… my main priority is building a connection with you, and maybe something like this could come later if we are both comfy !

I am very cuddly & affectionate? did I mention clingy..?? I want you to be my favorite play thing. What I want is kinda abstract, but I hope it will come together when I find the right person.

I am very giving!! If you can make my fluffy dreams come true, I will do my best to give you what you’re looking for too.

Outside of kink, I am a bit of a weeb! I like watching anime, and have been learning Japanese seriously for the last year. I have a puppy that I take care of, so at times i can be a bit busy with him. I am interested in fashion, make up, and I love horror movies. I love going on cute dates too !! think like the aquarium, to play on the beach, movie dates inside \^ \^ 💕 I just wanna be your very best friend first and foremost, and though kink is very important to me, it comes second.

So as for my looks, I am 5’5 a bit chubby (not in any way huge, but it’s something I am a bit self conscious about and am working on so I can have more confidence inside the bedroom & out), I have dark brown skin, big eyes & a baby face. I think attraction is import, I want you to think I am hot / vice versa ! I would like to just swap pictures early on to see if we are what each other are looking for, and no harm if not ! I just don’t want us to waste time.

I am looking for something in person only ! I am affectionate and a cuddle hungry monster. I need to be able to hold you & see your blushing face while I tell you how good of a boy you are.

Thank you so very much for reading, and I hope maybe i am your match & that we can chat, be friends & see where it goes ! ♡

I’ve found that even though I haven’t had my proper first irl dynamic, that it brings me a lot of happiness to just daydream & journal about all the stuff I hope I can one day experience.

I want to wake you up with kisses. ♡ While you’re still sleepy I wanna hold you close and tell you how happy I am to spend another day with you. If you wake up a little needy, we can take care of that too, but you have to use your words and tell me what you want properly. Having cute, sleepy, cuddly morning sex is only something reserved for the goodest of boys, so I know today you’ll be well behaved again because you know the better your behavior, the wetter I will be for you later. ♡

If we go out to get breakfast, I will order for you because I know all of your favorites anyway. When we are together, you never ever have to think unless I tell you to… all you have to do is sit there and look cute, but that comes naturally to you, so no thinking involved. ♡

Maybe later in the day I can shampoo your hair… kiss all over your neck… and because my hand is all slippery & soapy, I bet a handjob would feel really nice… but I won’t let you cum… only edge you. Maybe you can earn being able to release later on~

Now for the rest of the day, I know you will be on your very best behavior. You cook me a meal, help me clean some things up, and for a reward we can cuddle on the couch while you play a game… but it might be kinda hard to focus once I sink down onto your cock while I cuddle against you. No moving… I just wanna feel you inside me and watch you get frustrated… because I told you if you lose this match, you’ll also lose your privilege to cum anymore today~ I’ll whisper in your ear “Do your very best, sweetheart ♡ ” While I wiggle and grind my hips a bit against you, with you still buried inside me, like the brat that I am. ♡

It’s no surprise that you lost… “better luck next time…” I say with a nonchalant shrug before your cock slides out of its favorite cozy spot and I pull my panties back up.

Of course in bed that night I will hold you tight. Give you lots of kisses, but your cock will be straining against your pajama bottoms because you’re still pent up from earlier… your mind will be such a scrambled mess because I am such a tease. It’s always a game of “will she, won’t she” with me, but eventually you are able to get to sleep with me snuggled against your back because I love it when you’re little spoon.

You dream that maybe tomorrow will be a luckier day for you, but you never know~ because you’re always at my mercy, and you wouldn’t have it any other way. ♡

So I have always had abysmal self esteem… I would settle a lot when I was younger for partners I didn’t really feel attraction towards just so I wouldn’t feel alone.

Reco though, I hooked up with someone who I was actually attracted to, and I realized that looking back, I have never really truly enjoyed being with anyone.

A lot of it is because of my self esteem. I myself am over weight, I hide a lot under blankets and pillows, don’t wanna take all of my clothes off, and that gets me in my own head, and because I am always worried about what other people think of how I look, I can’t orgasm. I mean and at the same time… it’s not like any of my partners have ever given me space to try. It’s always been like “welp, we tried for a few minutes and you can’t do it, good night.” 😭 I also am very shy about receiving oral because I don’t like people super close to me like that…

I also really like the idea of giving others pleasure, so one thing I want to do is get stronger so I can be on top more and in control… plus I would like to just change my body so I am more confident in bed in general.

I have recently connected with someone else who I think is very attractive and we are planning on meeting up soon… I am still very shy about myself, even though recently I have come to all of the conclusions…

Do you think maybe I should work on myself more before I have anymore sexual encounters? I guess because I enjoyed the last person I was with so much, I am wanting to have more of what I feel like I have been missing… but even still, I know I am still not 100% confident, and I am even more worried about looking unattractive to a partner who is attractive to me. I guess maybe to me, it would hold more weight if they said something hurtful about my body… but no one ever has said anything hurtful about me before… so I think I may be overthinking…

I’ve been interested in gentle femdom for a long while, but I haven’t really acted on it until the last couple of weeks, and a few days ago I matched with a much younger guy. I was a bit wary of him at first because he is extremely cute & so much younger… not sure what he’d want with a woman my age, but his compliments were so sweet so eventually I calmed down a bit… my favorite is when he told me “u look like you smell like strawberries.” 🩷

We start getting into what we are both into, and he tells me he really wants to call me mommy. I was kinda shy and didn’t really respond to it on the first day, but today I told him I think I want to be his mommy, and I feel like I am melting…

He’s so adorable ♡ He has an angelic baby face. He told me a dynamic like this is something he’s always wanted, so I’m gonna read lots & learn how to keep my sweet boy happy.

There’s so much more I could say about him… but all of it is not appropriate… > /// < 💕 he has a bit of a potty mouth for someone so cute… but he’s made me so excited for our first meet up.

I know I am just infatuated at this stage… I have no idea how this will go, but I hope this sweet boy can become all mine. I wanna get inside his head, spoil him rotten and absolutely ruin him.. I want him addicted to me & unable to go without mommy’s attention for more than a few hours.

He has a hard time sleeping at night, but tonight he stopped replying a bit earlier, so I am hoping he was able to get some sleep, as he wasn’t able to much the night before. I am hoping maybe feeling safe & adored was enough to help him drift off. 🩷

I can’t wait until I can hear him call me mommy in person coming up soon.. for our first meeting, I’m gonna find something that makes me smell like strawberries, just for him. 💕

I felt like this community would enjoy hearing about my escapades with this college guy ! Honestly I feel like this isn’t too bad ! 🙈 I feel like a cougar in training… but I’d be lying if said I didn’t adore younger guys and want to have more experiences like this.

It all started about month ago. I was browsing on a local meet ups group subreddit, and I see a post like : “19M wanting to lose my virginity”. I wouldn’t usually answer a post like that, but upon talking with him, I realized he speaks a language I am studying fluently, and is from that country !

I had always been curious about men from there, and I was also excited to show a native what I have learned so far… our talk the night before online went well, so I decided to go through with it, but I told him there is no guarantee I’ll go all the way with him…

The next day, I show up a little bit away from his dorm building, he came to the parking garage to escort me to the building. He was taller than me, with long dark hair, super slender, glasses… a real cutie.

I was so nervous but he was oddly calm, which is strange because he is 10 years younger than I am… when we got to his room we got into his bed and chatted for a bit, I was so nervous but eventually he was able to coax me into kissing him…

I cuddled up against his side, and he asked me if he could touch me, and when I agreed his hands were immediately up under my dress cupping my ass. It felt so good… he was being so complimentary about my body, I am a chubbier girl and he kept telling me how much hotter I was than the thinner girls on his campus. Made me feel very good because I am a bit self conscious about turning 30 this year !

Anyway, at this point I am basically dry humping him… and idk what possessed me, but I asked him if we was truly fluent in the language I have been studying, and he answered in that language & for some reason that made me so giddy 🤣🩷 I asked him if I could see his cock & omfg… I was not prepared!! He was so big !! And he later told me his favorite part of our encounter was how giddy and in shock I was over the size of his cock… he thought he was small for some reason, so I was happy to break the news to him that he was way above average in size and girth.

I could see confidence bloom in him… and from that moment, I knew I needed him buried inside of me… but before that, I gave him head… he held onto my hands while I did it… it was so cute, and I tried to take him down my throat but he was bigger than I was used to… anyway we both have to figure out how to use the condoms i brought, and next thing we know, I am straddling him.. the height of the bed in his dorm made it so easy for me to be on top, which is something I’m not used to, but my god did he feel so good inside of me…

I held his hands while I rode him… he looked like he was having such a good time. When I got off of him, we realized he had cum inside of me into the condom but neither of us knew it bc he never lost his hard on… but then next thing I know, I am on my back… he slides into me again and I swear my eyes must have rolled into the back of my head… but my favorite position was doggy.. he was able to get so incredibly deep in me… I could feel him hitting my cervix… I had to tell him to go easier on me, which I regretted in retrospect… I wish I could have just been a good, little fuck toy, and endured it…

Anyway… we cuddled some after that, he looked so happy and I told him I was glad he enjoyed his first time, he did amazing for a virgin… he made me feel so good.

I showed him my skill level in his language and he was very encouraging and soon after we parted way. He walked me back to the parking garage and linked his pinky with mine as we walked together.

That was about a month ago… he is really busy with his major, so today was the first time we were able to talk again… I missed him so much, so when he told me he wanted me to “come fucksies” ( I thought that was cute lol ) it didn’t take much coaxing… he told me we couldn’t be in his dorm room, and we’d have to use an abandoned lounge area…I was hesitant… but I wanted to see him so bad… so I relented, but I told him there was no guarantee I’d fuck him, and he went “oh right, just like what you said last time. 😋”

When I made it to his building dorm, he came out and waved me inside…he looked excited to see me again… he smiled at me and looked so cute .. his smile melts my heart, and for a moment I felt like more than just his human flesh light.

When we got to the abandoned room, I helped him move a couple of tables in front of the door to make sure no one could get in easily.. he stacked two tables up against the door, and I thought it was so silly… I have it so bad for this kid to be messing around in places like this…

The first thing I did was just hold him. I told him how much I missed him, and we started making out with each other… he told me he forgot how soft my lips were were, and next thing I know we are on the couch with his hands between my legs… he goes “you’re so warm…” and I straddle him while we make out more.. he tries to take my tits out and I told him no because I am shy, but he told me he liked them and really wanted to see them, and that we’d get me used to having them played with by exposure therapy… he toyed with my nipple and the other was soon in his mouth… I was so turned on… I asked him if he wanted to fuck… he agreed but first he wanted me to give him head..

This time I was able to fit him down my throat… and each time I did, he made the cutest noises… he told me I had gotten better at it… when I looked him in the eyes with his cock in his mouth, he melted… he held my face in his hands while I took him down my throat and he told me to stop because he didn’t want to cum before he fucked me.

As soon as the condom was on, I was in his lap, sinking down onto his cock and it felt so good… I rode him so hard at one point… he put me in doggy, but before he did, he spread me open.. he loves looking and he told me I was soaked and dripping… he came in me, into the condom, during doggy… he pressed so insanely deep in me… right up into my cervix …

We were able to have some cuddle time and chat a bit while he recovered. He told me he was glad I was his first, and he also listened to some of my worries and told me he was glad he wasn’t old enough to deal with some of the stuff I am going through, but it made me happy that he listened… I feel like being his fuck toy is worth it, even if it’s just these quick little moments in between where he shows me humanity beyond being a warm, wet hole he can get off in…

Once he recovered, he told me next position could be my choice, and of course I picked doggy. 🩷 but this time I told him he could go as hard as he wanted and he did not disappoint… I was making up for having him be gentle with me during our first encounter… I was melting into the couch, but soon he came again, and I put my panties back on…

I let him keep all the condoms I brought & I asked him when I could see him again, and he admitted to honestly not knowing when because his school work keeps him insanely busy… even tonight, I was only able to have him for a couple of hours before he had to get back to his studies.

When he walked me into the hallway, I wrapped my pinky around his, just like he showed me during our first meet up… when we got into the elevator I admitted to him that I didn’t want to fuck anyone else, and he told me I can.. he told me he knows he can’t be with me the way I need him to be because he is so busy with his classes… but when I told him I didn’t care, he seemed a bit happy…

When I left I looked at him like a sad puppy 😭 but he said good bye to me…

I don’t know when he’ll come around again. I only hear from him when he’s horny and wants to let off steam from school stress… but I adore him…

I know whenever he calls for me, I’ll be right back in his lap taking his cock. I know this will only hurt me. He admitted to me that next year he will be studying abroad and then he’s going back to his home country. But I have this delusional hope that he will keep in contact with me… this delusional hope that this will end up somewhere other than me underneath of him every few weeks.

But for now I don’t mind… and I really love being a college boy’s fuck toy. ♡

It all started about month ago. I was browsing on a local meet ups group subreddit, and I see a post like : “19M wanting to lose my virginity”. I wouldn’t usually answer a post like that, but upon talking with him, I realized he speaks a language I am studying fluently, and is from that country !

I had always been curious about men from there, and I was also excited to show a native what I have learned so far… our talk the night before online went well, so I decided to go through with it, but I told him there is no guarantee I’ll go all the way with him…

The next day, I show up a little bit away from his dorm building, he came to the parking garage to escort me to the building. He was taller than me, with long dark hair, super slender, glasses… a real cutie.

I was so nervous but he was oddly calm, which is strange because he is 10 years younger than I am… when we got to his room we got into his bed and chatted for a bit, I was so nervous but eventually he was able to coax me into kissing him…

I cuddled up against his side, and he asked me if he could touch me, and when I agreed his hands were immediately up under my dress cupping my ass. It felt so good… he was being so complimentary about my body, I am a chubbier and he kept telling me how much hotter I was than the thinner girls on his campus. Made me feel very good because I am a bit self conscious about turning 30 this year !

Anyway, at this point I am basically dry humping him… and idk what possessed me, but I asked him if we was truly fluent in the language I have been studying, and he answered in that language & for some reason that made me so giddy 🤣🩷 I asked him if I could see his cock & omfg… I was not prepared!! He was so big !! And he later told me his favorite part of our encounter was how giddy and in shock I was over the size of his cock… he thought he was small for some reason, so I was happy to break the news to him that he was way above average in size and girth.

I could see confidence bloom in him… and from that moment, I knew I needed him buried inside of me… but before that, I gave him head… he held onto my hands while I did it… it was so cute, and I tried to take him down my throat but he was bigger than I was used to… anyway we both have to figure out how to use the condoms i brought, and next thing we know, I am straddling him.. the height of the bed in his dorm made it so easy for me to be on top, which is something I’m not used to, but my god did he feel so good inside of me…

I held his hands while I rode him… he looked like he was having such a good time. When I got off of him, we realized he had cum inside of me into the condom but neither of us knew it bc he never lost his hard on… but then next thing I know, I am on my back… he slides into me again and I swear my eyes must have rolled into the back of my head… but my favorite position was doggy.. he was able to get so incredibly deep in me… I could feel him hitting my cervix… I had to tell him to go easier on me, which I regretted in retrospect… I wish I could have just been a good, little fuck toy, and endured it…

Anyway… we cuddled some after that, he looked so happy and I told him I was glad he enjoyed his first time, he did amazing for a virgin… he made me feel so good.

I showed him my skill level in his language and he was very encouraging and soon after we parted way. He walked me back to the parking garage and linked his pinky with mine as we walked together.

That was about a month ago… he is really busy with his major, so today was the first time we were able to talk again… I missed him so much, so when he told me he wanted me to “come fucksies” ( I thought that was cute lol ) it didn’t take much coaxing… he told me we couldn’t be in his dorm room, and we’d have to use an abandoned lounge area…I was hesitant… but I wanted to see him so bad… so I relented, but I told him there was no guarantee I’d fuck him, and he went “oh right, just like what you said last time. 😋”

When I made it to his building dorm, he came out and waved me inside…he looked excited to see me again… he smiled at me and looked so cute .. his smile melts my heart, and for a moment I felt like more than just his human flesh light.

When we got to the abandoned room, I helped him move a couple of tables in front of the door to make sure no one could get in easily.. he stacked two tables up against the door, and I thought it was so silly… I have it so bad for this kid to be messing around in places like this…

The first thing I did was just hold him. I told him how much I missed him, and we started making out with each other… he told me he forgot how soft my lips were were, and next thing I know we are on the couch with his hands between my legs… he goes “you’re so warm…” and I straddle him while we make out more.. he tries to take my tits out and I told him no because I am shy, but he told me he liked them and really wanted to see them, and that we’d get me used to having them played with by exposure therapy… he toyed with my nipple and the other was soon in his mouth… I was so turned on… I asked him if he wanted to fuck… he agreed but first he wanted me to give him head..

This time I was able to fit him down my throat… and each time I did, he made the cutest noises… he told me I had gotten better at it… when I looked him in the eyes with my cock in his mouth, he melted… he held my face in his hands while I took him down my throat and he told me to stop because he didn’t want to cum before he fucked me.

As soon as the condom was on, I was in his lap, sinking down onto his cock and it felt so good… I rode him so hard at one point… he put me in doggy, but before he did, he spread me open.. he loves looking and he told me I was soaked and dripping… he came in me, into the condom, during doggy… he pressed so insanely deep in me… right up into my cervix …

We were able to have some cuddle time and chat a bit while he recovered. He told me he was glad I was his first, and he also listened to some of my worries and told me he was glad he wasn’t old enough to deal with some of the stuff I am going through, but it made me happy that he listened… I feel like being his fuck toy is worth it, even if it’s just these quick little moments in between where he shows me humanity behind being a warm, wet hole he can get off in…

Once he recovered, he told me next position could be my choice, and of course I picked doggy. 🩷 but this time I told him he could go as hard as he wanted and he did not disappoint… I was making up for having him be gentle with me during our first encounter… I was melting into the couch, but soon he came again, and I put my panties back on…

I let him keep all the condoms I brought & I asked him when I could see him again, and he admitted to honestly not knowing when because his school work keeps him insanely busy… even tonight, I was only able to have him for a couple of hours before he had to get back to his studies.

When he walked me into the hallway, I wrapped my pinky around his, just like he showed me during our first meet up… when we got into the elevator I admitted to him that I didn’t want to fuck anyone else, and he told me I can.. he told me he knows he can’t be with me the way I need him to be because he is so busy with his classes… but when I told him I didn’t care, he seemed a bit happy…

When I left I looked at him like a sad puppy 😭 but he said good bye to me…

I don’t know when he’ll come around again. I only hear from him when he’s horny and wants to let off steam from school stress… but I adore him…

I know whenever he calls for me, I’ll be right back in his lap taking his cock. I know this will only hurt me. He admitted to me that next year he will be studying abroad and then he’s going back to his home country. But I have this delusional hope that he will keep in contact with me… this delusional hope that this will end up somewhere other than me underneath of him every few weeks.

But for now I don’t mind… and I really love being a college boy’s fuck toy. ♡

It all started about month ago. I was browsing on a local meet ups group subreddit, and I see a post like : “19M wanting to lose my virginity”. I wouldn’t usually answer a post like that, but upon talking with him, I realized he speaks a language I am studying fluently, and is from that country !

I had always been curious about men from there, and I was also excited to show a native what I have learned so far… our talk the night before online went well, so I decided to go through with it, but I told him there is no guarantee I’ll go all the way with him…

The next day, I show up a little bit away from his dorm building, he came to the parking garage to escort me to the building. He was taller than me, with long dark hair, super slender, glasses… a real cutie.

I was so nervous but he was oddly calm, which is strange because he is 10 years younger than I am… when we got to his room we got into his bed and chatted for a bit, I was so nervous but eventually he was able to coax me into kissing him…

I cuddled up against his side, and he asked me if he could touch me, and when I agreed his hands were immediately up under my dress cupping my ass. It felt so good… he was being so complimentary about my body, I am a chubbier girl and he kept telling me how much hotter I was than the thinner girls on his campus. Made me feel very good because I am a bit self conscious about turning 30 this year !

Anyway, at this point I am basically dry humping him… and idk what possessed me, but I asked him if we was truly fluent in the language I have been studying, and he answered in that language & for some reason that made me so giddy 🤣🩷 I asked him if I could see his cock & omfg… I was not prepared!! He was so big !! And he later told me his favorite part of our encounter was how giddy and in shock I was over the size of his cock… he thought he was small for some reason, so I was happy to break the news to him that he was way above average in size and girth.

I could see confidence bloom in him… and from that moment, I knew I needed him buried inside of me… but before that, I gave him head… he held onto my hands while I did it… it was so cute, and I tried to take him down my throat but he was bigger than I was used to… anyway we both have to figure out how to use the condoms i brought, and next thing we know, I am straddling him.. the height of the bed in his dorm made it so easy for me to be on top, which is something I’m not used to, but my god did he feel so good inside of me…

I held his hands while I rode him… he looked like he was having such a good time. When I got off of him, we realized he had cum inside of me into the condom but neither of us knew it bc he never lost his hard on… but then next thing I know, I am on my back… he slides into me again and I swear my eyes must have rolled into the back of my head… but my favorite position was doggy.. he was able to get so incredibly deep in me… I could feel him hitting my cervix… I had to tell him to go easier on me, which I regretted in retrospect… I wish I could have just been a good, little fuck toy, and endured it…

Anyway… we cuddled some after that, he looked so happy and I told him I was glad he enjoyed his first time, he did amazing for a virgin… he made me feel so good.

I showed him my skill level in his language and he was very encouraging and soon after we parted way. He walked me back to the parking garage and linked his pinky with mine as we walked together.

That was about a month ago… he is really busy with his major, so today was the first time we were able to talk again… I missed him so much, so when he told me he wanted me to “come fucksies” ( I thought that was cute lol ) it didn’t take much coaxing… he told me we couldn’t be in his dorm room, and we’d have to use an abandoned lounge area…I was hesitant… but I wanted to see him so bad… so I relented, but I told him there was no guarantee I’d fuck him, and he went “oh right, just like what you said last time. 😋”

When I made it to his building dorm, he came out and waved me inside…he looked excited to see me again… he smiled at me and looked so cute .. his smile melts my heart, and for a moment I felt like more than just his human flesh light.

When we got to the abandoned room, I helped him move a couple of tables in front of the door to make sure no one could get in easily.. he stacked two tables up against the door, and I thought it was so silly… I have it so bad for this kid to be messing around in places like this…

The first thing I did was just hold him. I told him how much I missed him, and we started making out with each other… he told me he forgot how soft my lips were were, and next thing I know we are on the couch with his hands between my legs… he goes “you’re so warm…” and I straddle him while we make out more.. he tries to take my tits out and I told him no because I am shy, but he told me he liked them and really wanted to see them, and that we’d get me used to having them played with by exposure therapy… he toyed with my nipple and the other was soon in his mouth… I was so turned on… I asked him if he wanted to fuck… he agreed but first he wanted me to give him head..

This time I was able to fit him down my throat… and each time I did, he made the cutest noises… he told me I had gotten better at it… when I looked him in the eyes with his cock in his mouth, he melted… he held my face in his hands while I took him down my throat and he told me to stop because he didn’t want to cum before he fucked me.

As soon as the condom was on, I was in his lap, sinking down onto his cock and it felt so good… I rode him so hard at one point… he put me in doggy, but before he did, he spread me open.. he loves looking and he told me I was soaked and dripping… he came in me, into the condom, during doggy… he pressed so insanely deep in me… right up into my cervix …

We were able to have some cuddle time and chat a bit while he recovered. He told me he was glad I was his first, and he also listened to some of my worries and told me he was glad he wasn’t old enough to deal with some of the stuff I am going through, but it made me happy that he listened… I feel like being his fuck toy is worth it, even if it’s just these quick little moments in between where he shows me humanity beyond being a warm, wet hole he can get off in…

Once he recovered, he told me next position could be my choice, and of course I picked doggy. 🩷 but this time I told him he could go as hard as he wanted and he did not disappoint… I was making up for having him be gentle with me during our first encounter… I was melting into the couch, but soon he came again, and I put my panties back on…

I let him keep all the condoms I brought & I asked him when I could see him again, and he admitted to honestly not knowing when because his school work keeps him insanely busy… even tonight, I was only able to have him for a couple of hours before he had to get back to his studies.

When he walked me into the hallway, I wrapped my pinky around his, just like he showed me during our first meet up… when we got into the elevator I admitted to him that I didn’t want to fuck anyone else, and he told me I can.. he told me he knows he can’t be with me the way I need him to be because he is so busy with his classes… but when I told him I didn’t care, he seemed a bit happy…

When I left I looked at him like a sad puppy 😭 but he said good bye to me…

I don’t know when he’ll come around again. I only hear from him when he’s horny and wants to let off steam from school stress… but I adore him…

I know whenever he calls for me, I’ll be right back in his lap taking his cock. I know this will only hurt me. He admitted to me that next year he will be studying abroad and then he’s going back to his home country. But I have this delusional hope that he will keep in contact with me… this delusional hope that this will end up somewhere other than me underneath of him every few weeks.

But for now I don’t mind… and I really love being a college boy’s fuck toy. ♡

You were a bit hesitant when I invited you over for a movie night.

Things always started out innocent with me, but usually ended with you in some state of undress, cheeks flushed… sometimes your face from the naughty things I’d say to you, or sometimes your ass when I felt like I wanted to be a bully… and on some occasions both.

When I added : ‘I’ll even let you pick your favorite movie!’ you knew it was a trap, but you could never say no to me… so later that evening you found yourself cuddled up close to me on the couch, a cozy blanket wrapped around us, like a little love burrito.

You are such a good boy, you were genuinely trying to watch your favorite movie, but I, of course had other plans… I slipped my hand under the waist band of your pajama bottoms and gripped your semisoft cock just tight enough to make you jump.

“W-what are you doing…?” You started, I could tell you were already starting to get flustered as your cute, little, cock hardened in my warm hand.

“Be quiet… I can’t hear the movie.” I flashed you a warning glare, my gaze was usually soft and gentle, but when I got into this mood, you knew it was always in your best interest to be a good boy and obey.

I was being torturous. My grip was just loose enough to where you weren’t getting the friction and pressure you craved, and my movements were just a tad too slow, and you couldn’t even speak up to protest as I edged you…

This went on for far longer than was comfortable for you before I stood up, reached up under my night gown and pulled my panties down my chubby thighs. I decided to watch the movie from my favorite seat, your lap with your cock pressed deep inside my warm, wet pussy. I was your bossy, little cock warmer. ♡

“Where is the blanket? Hold me, I’m cold…” I pouted up at you, and you wrapped the blanket around us both, and held me tightly in your arms.

Thankfully for you… the movie was over about 20 minutes later, and since you were such a good and quiet boy, I let you press me down into the plush cushions of the couch and fuck me. It felt so good to fill me up with cum because the last 2 hours were like hell on earth for you…

After you finished, you melted into a puddle on top of me. You had tired yourself out and I kissed your forehead.

“Love you, sweetheart. Oh, and you have permission to speak now…”

“I love you too, Miss.”

You were a bit hesitant when I invited you over for a movie night.

Things always started out innocent with me, but usually ended with you in some state of undress, cheeks flushed… sometimes your face from the naughty things I’d say to you, or sometimes your ass when I felt like I wanted to be a bully… and on some occasions both.

When I added : ‘I’ll even let you pick your favorite movie!’ you knew it was a trap, but you could never say no to me… so later that evening you found yourself cuddled up close to me on the couch, a cozy blanket wrapped around us, like a little love burrito.

You are such a good boy, you were genuinely trying to watch your favorite movie, but I, of course had other plans… I slipped my hand under the waist band of your pajama bottoms and gripped your semisoft cock just tight enough to make you jump.

“W-what are you doing…?” You started, I could tell you were already starting to get flustered as your cute, little, cock hardened in my warm hand.

“Be quiet… I can’t hear the movie.” I flashed you a warning glare, my gaze was usually soft and gentle, but when I got into this mood, you knew it was always in your best interest to be a good boy and obey.

I was being torturous. My grip was just loose enough to where you weren’t getting the friction and pressure you craved, and my movements were just a tad too slow, and you couldn’t even speak up to protest as I edged you…

This went on for far longer than was comfortable for you before I stood up, reached up under my night gown and pulled my panties down my chubby thighs. I decided to watch the movie from my favorite seat, your lap with your cock pressed deep inside my warm, wet pussy. I was your bossy, little cock warmer. ♡

“Where is the blanket? Hold me, I’m cold…” I pouted up at you, and you wrapped the blanket around us both, and held me tightly in your arms.

Thankfully for you… the movie was over about 20 minutes later, and since you were such a good and quiet boy, I let you press me down into the plush cushions of the couch and fuck me. It felt so good to fill me up with cum because the last 2 hours were like hell on earth for you…

After you finished, you melted into a puddle on top of me. You had tired yourself out and I kissed your forehead.

“Love you, sweetheart. Oh, and you have permission to speak now…”

“I love you too, Miss.”