u/alt-kink-account

I keep fantasizing about a faceless person on the internet seeing this and the posts I make, maybe its a guy in his basement across the world, maybe its my next door neighbor who recognizes my freckles and scars and is just waiting till I let my guard down

I think about them taking advantage of me, exploiting me for everything I could ever possibly give just for the fun of breaking a girl down

I want toxicity. I don't want to know who you are, what you look like, anything. I want to be guessing if youre lying to me or telling me the truth, and I want it to drive me crazy.

On the other hand, you will know everything about me, from the way I tie my shoes to the worst thing I've ever done to someone I love. I want you to fuck with my head just for the fun of it and laugh while you do so. My trauma used against me just because you felt like it.

Honestly, I see so many posts and hear so many people talking about their toxic relationships, how their boyfriend seperated them from everyone else and made them dependent, how they really just changed eho their S/O was to better suit themselves, how they raped and traumatized them. And I didn't feel pity, or bad for them in any way because of it. I felt jealous.

I dont want there to be any outs, no safewords, no stopping it, I want you to know too much about me. To the point I can't just walk away from it or ghost. I want to have a current of fear running through me constantly because I dont know what youll do to me next