u/anonfrecklesandcurls

I’m chronically ill and usually I can be grown up and tough but tonight everything hurts and I just wanna cry.

I keep feeling halfway little and halfway big like I’m stuck in the midday and it makes me feel so icky and embarrassed.

I know it will stop hurting eventually but right now it feels like a bajillion years.

Exactly what the title is lol

I felt so anxious this morning I decided to try and cum my brains out.

Started with a suction toy on my clit while I played with my titties, until I got all creamy for my dildo. I was able to take all 6” after slowly fucking it into me inch by inch.

I didn’t realize how good it felt and how hard I was fucking myself until I squirted all over the toy and soaked through the three towels under my ass.

The hitachi finished me off with the dildo still balls deep, gushing again on the towels and now I can’t feel my legs and I’m pretty sure I’ll fall when I try to get up.

CW: religion, politics, cult stuff, degradation

Ok so I was raised in a Christian nationalist homeschool cult and obviously was taught to only be straight.

Well that didn’t exactly work out lol (I’m just saying Zipporah from Prince of Egypt was 🫦)

Obviously I’ve had to work through/am working on stuff/myself but I have a kink fantasy that idk how I feel about.

To paint the picture, I’m the subbiest sub to ever sub and am femme.

I fantasize about being railed (in a church maybe 👀) and forced to repeat things like “I’m a pretty little sinner,” “I take girl dick so good,” you get it.

Basically religious-adjacent degradation.

Will I be brave enough to ever do it? No clue lol but it’s one of my favorite things to daydream about.

CW: medical play, medical trauma

I’ve been in BDSM spaces (physical and digital) for about eight-ish years. Something I appreciate about the community is the way people can use it to heal.

My body is basically constantly trying to self implode and so I spent all of my 20’s working insane hours to stay employed to keep my health insurance, at doctors appointments, having procedures/surgeries and recovering from the latter.

As a result I have a lot of medical trauma and anxiety (I know, shocking).

I’d like to begin exploring medical play (as a sub/receiving) as a way to try and associate the environment/experiences with positive outcomes.

Locally, no one is really into that, so I’m reading and researching solo.

If anyone has experience with medical play, advice or general thoughts I would love to hear them/discuss.

If you don’t want me to reply/blow up your notifications via comments, just lmk 🖤

I feel such an intense need for sub space I can’t describe it. It’s all I can think about.

I need to feel that safety and euphoria so much it makes me wanna cry.

Previously I’d just distract myself and get stoned for the same “flying” feeling, but I’m being responsible and not taking any due to interactions with my meds.

If other subs have advice or experience with this, I’m all ears.

You rail me in my micro bikini at the pool.

I’m so horny I need to be sedated ahhhhh

I just woke up from a dream and I’ve dripped through my underwear.

In the dream I had a Domme/Mommy and she didn’t let me make any decisions. What to eat, wear, bedtime and of course when I could cum.

When I tried to do anything adult she would talk in a sugary sweet voice like how people talk to puppies, and tell me I’m too silly to do that.

Humping a stuffy was the only way she let me play with myself, even then I wasn’t allowed to cum.

I’m barely awake and all I can think about is that dream and my soaked pussy.

I’m so excited! This week I’m going to my first ever local munch 🥰

I’ve gotten to take classes at a dungeon when I traveled out of state before, but this will be the first time I make new friends who are local.

Obviously I’m nervous but also excited, here’s hoping I don’t embarrass myself 😅

I keep having a daydream of being treated like I’m too dumb to do anything for myself. I know I’m smart, but really I just want to not think about anything.

Being woken up in the morning and snuggling into her shoulder while she makes coffee, then playing with my stuffy while she feeds me.

Mommy picking out my clothes, bathing me and punishing me when I pout.

I’m sure in real life I’d be embarrassed to try a lot of these but in my head it makes me so happy 🥰

I can’t believe I did this.

For my birthday I got myself a massage, and the massage therapist was a super pretty woman. We made initial chit chat before she left for me to get undressed, the usual.

For context, I’m tall and curvy so usually it takes a couple sessions for the massage therapist to find the perfect pressure/spots.

Fast forward to the middle of the massage. I’m laying face down and literally almost drooling from how good it feels. She does some kind of pressure point thing with one hand at the base of my neck and is massaging one of my hips with the other.

I swear to god my eyes rolled back in my head and I moaned 😭 i don’t know what magic she was doing but by the end i was literally dripping onto my thighs.

I don’t think i offended her because she told me like four times to come see her again. But omg I’ve never had that happen before.

I have so many daydreams about have other Little/princess/brat friends and having the best sleepover ever.

Disclaimer: I don’t like the fourth as a political holiday, I just really love fireworks and sparkles and yummy food.

We would spend all day outside together in the pool with our Doms/Dommes, swimming and playing mermaids and being silly. With snacks of course (duh).

Then at night time we’d watch the big fireworks show and light sparklers and have so much fun and stay up so late!

I’m sure eventually we’d have to go to bed but then in the morning we’d all be together and it would be so awesome.

End of daydream ✨

(Editing/reposting since last time I accidentally violated a rule)

TLDR, I’m chronically ill and it impacts my every day life in a variety of ways.

I try very hard to do all the basic things adults should do (shower, eat 3x, etc.) but sometimes I can’t physically make my body do what I want.

To other chronically ill subs: how do you accommodate your limits and still meet the “bare minimum”?

Note: apologies to the subs who replied to my last post, I only got to see one or two replies before it got removed.

To make a long story short, I have a lot of medical issues.

Every day I’m nauseous, dizzy, in pain in a variety of places, and have a whole paragraph of symptoms I won’t put here.

I’ve always been too insecure to date because of my illnesses. I work full time and am completely independent, but when it gets extra bad I can’t do anything.

Showers, eating, moving at all is impossible.

I try really hard to give myself rules and rewards for taking care of myself when I can, but it’s discouraging when it inevitably falls apart.

I guess what I’m asking is, if there are any other chronically ill subs, what helps you?

I genuinely have been needing to cum 3+ times every single day.

It’s so bad it feels like I can’t think or breathe all the way until I can play.

It sounds so spoiled but I wish I had a Domme to help because it makes me so tired.

I just made myself squirt for the second time today and now I’m putting myself down for a nap.

Does anyone else have this problem?

I’ve had the worst week in awhile and it’s making me crave sub space so bad.

It’s been almost a year since I’ve been able to feel it. I used to be able to get myself into sub space but life be life-ing and I’m so stressed constantly that I can’t force my brain to cooperate.

It’s making me want to almost cry I miss it so bad, and then having very stupid thoughts of things I could do (that I will not be doing) to get attention/into sub space.

TLDR: boo hoo I’m a crybaby

The initial deets: I’m a sub/brat/princess and have been through through fun things that put me on psych meds and in therapy for the last four years. A highlight includes having to leave my Daddy of 4+ years.

Long story short, I crave praise and being taken care of but I quite literally never feel safe enough to let it happen with anyone.

As a result, I’ve become my own Daddy/Mommy.

To everyone’s surprise I’m sure, it’s not going well.

I’ve been trying hard to take care of myself but I’m just not doing a good job and it’s so frustrating. I even made a freaking chore chart!! (It is v cute, it has Dino’s on it) but I get so distracted and then when I see it not completed, I just feel guilty.

If any other subs have advice I’d love to hear it.

It sounds silly but I love the idea of putting on a “fashion show” for a partner (at the store in the changing room or at home).

Showing her my new pretty lingerie, the dress I love and just showing off for her 🥰

I’ve never had a Mommy before but I love imagining nap time.

Cozy in bed, a big nest of pillows and blankets, falling asleep snuggled up to her. And of course stuffies too, they love cuddles!

I know I’m smart-ish but I just wanna be brainless.

Don’t wanna think about dinner, or chores or a bajillion other things.

So I daydream about Mommy, she makes my hair pretty, picks my clothes, when I get my pussy waxed, when I can cum.

She reminds me I have to be smart sometimes but other times I can just be her cute clingy princess.