She masturbated without me today and I feel sad
We returned from vacation yesterday. It was a great week off, but getting back home was extremely exhausting. I only got 3 hours of sleep the night before we started very early in the morning. When we finally arrived home yesterday evening, I still had to prepare a lot for work today and - again - only got four hours of sleep. I was obviously locked for the last few days, and couldn't even think of any any form of play session or release.
So when I came back from work this evening, I found her vibrator in our bed. I just quickly asked her if she had masturbated and she smiled and said yes. I didn't comment on it, since I don't want to make her feel bad. However, I feel a little hurt. She could have told me to pleasure her yesterday and I would have done it eagerly. Or she could at least have sent me a picture or dropped me a quick message to tease me.
I don't even really know how I feel right now tbh. I'm aroused by the thought of her making herself cum. But I'm also envyous because I couldn't be part of it. Then, I want to feel happy for her that she can enjoy herself so openly, but at the same time I feel exlucded that she wouldn't even have told me about it.
I have strangely never felt this way and this is the first time in our five years of chastity play that her masturbating makes me feel kind of sad (?). I absolutely don't want to confront her about it, since I absolutely don't want her to feel bad in any way for masturbating. Even if I would just talk about my feelings. I don't even really know what I expect from posting here. Maybe somebody has ever experienced the same and might tell me, what I'm feeling? :D
Sidenote: She hates it, when I have masturbated in the past and it's one of the reasons why we practice chastity (amongst many others). I consider it a win-win-situation, since it's playing into my fetish. I have completely stopped masturbating a few years ago. She, however, can do as she wants and I often encourage her to pleasure herself.