u/bballouttanowhere

I’ve already been a cuck several months now with my gf quietly sleeping around while I feign ignorance, but I recently did something that cemented I’m one for good.

I was emotionally cheated on (also very likely physically cheated on) by my gf with an fwb that she’d fuck constantly before we met, and even though I said I hated him, she was still secretly talking to him behind my back. She claims nothing happened but she made excuses for him when he made it clear he wanted to fuck her still even after when she and I first got together. She says she cut him off completely now but I’ll always have a nagging feeling if he’s still around.

Anyway, despite my hatred, I couldn’t help but feel growing arousal. Eventually, I caved in:

I jacked off to a picture of them together that she sent me (when we first got together) and imagined his bigger frame plowing her much smaller frame. When I finished, I realized that this is something I did on my own free will. I wasn’t coerced into it, and gave in to those thoughts on my own accord.

I thought about all the times she’d hype him up and put him on a pedestal. I thought about her defending him all the times I tried calling out his asshole behavior. I thought about how he was the only person she’d actually respect and laugh at his jokes. I thought about all of this and it only made me harder and finish faster as I looked at their photo.

I got off to a picture of my gf with someone I hate, and that completely confirms I’m a cuck through and through.

For me, it was when I jerked to pics of my gf and her previous fwb that I hate after I found out she was having an emotional affair with him. It was something I did on my own accord and indisputable that I’m a cuck deep down.

What was the moment or event that cemented it for you guys?

Had a recent talk with my gf about her past, and she made it clear that she doesn’t regret getting passed around more than a basketball.

She got fucked to about 30 different guys before we met, and these ranged from guys who:

Regularly fucked her and didn’t respect her at all

Treated her as a side bitch

Getting fucked in bathrooms at her work

Getting fucked in parking lots

Immediately agreeing to sex if a guy so much as messaged her for it from the get-go

And a lot more.

I asked her if she was embarrassed by it, but she said “No. After my previous relationship, I wanted to explore and see what I was missing out.”

I recently hate-jerked to a pic of my gf and the guy she emotionally cheated on me with (and she knew I hated him) and I haven’t stopped thinking about it. She’s been allowed to quietly sleep around for several months now without sharing any details with me, but doing this on my own accord really cut deep more than anything else.

Someone told me that they were in my exact position and understood the emotions of shame, confusion, sickness, and arousal. They further explained that there is nothing wrong with me, it’s just that I’m finding out just how deep the cuck-wiring gets, and that I was finally being honest with myself and what I really am. I recently came to terms that I secretly admired the guy despite my hatred for him and the effect he had on my gf and simply gave in.

I’m still filled with shame with what I did, because despite everything else, this really feels like the point of no return and there’s no denying that I really am a cuck.

I’ve already been a cuck several months now with my gf quietly sleeping around while I feign ignorance, but I recently did something that cemented I’m one for good.

I was emotionally cheated on (also very likely physically cheated on) by my gf with an fwb that she’d fuck constantly before we met, and even though I said I hated him, she was still secretly talking to him behind my back. She claims nothing happened but she made excuses for him when he made it clear he wanted to fuck her still even after when she and I first got together. She says she cut him off completely now but I’ll always have a nagging feeling if he’s still around.

Anyway, despite my hatred, I couldn’t help but feel growing arousal. Eventually, I caved in:

I jacked off to a picture of them together that she sent me (when we first got together) and imagined his bigger frame plowing her much smaller frame. When I finished, I realized that this is something I did on my own free will. I wasn’t coerced into it, and gave in to those thoughts on my own accord.

I got off to a picture of my gf with someone I hate, and that completely confirms I’m a cuck through and through.

My gf has had a pass for several months now to quietly see other guys in the pretense that they’re *guy friends/coworkers*and I feign ignorance (this is a mutually agreed upon setup).

Last weekend I had planned a date for us for the entire afternoon/night but the morning of one of her *friends* hit her up asking her if she was free. She told me that we could reschedule our thing because she had been wanting to hang out with him for a while. I couldn’t deny that I was really turned on by having my date blown off while she spent time with another man on such short notice.

The next morning she had brunch with her girlfriends from work and she’s told me in the past that they talk about all the guys they hook up with, and she tells me about the guys they’re seeing. However, when I asked about what she told them about us yesterday, she said she told her friends that “we’re good” but I’ve no doubt she’s told them about our arrangement (and how she blew off our date) because she’s told them about my lack of experience and ED when we started dating.

I know any self-respecting person would draw the line here, but if anything I’m getting more aroused by being treated with such blatant disrespect towards me and our relationship. She wasn’t even sorry about it, and didn’t say things like “I’m sorry but is it ok if we reschedule?” she said “We’ll have to do our thing another time. My friend wants to hangout and I haven’t seen him in a while”

I’m really wondering just how far this is going to go for the both of us.

I’ve already been one for several months now with my gf quietly sleeping around while I feign ignorance, but I recently did something that cemented I’m one for good.

I was emotionally cheated on by my gf with an fwb that she’d fuck constantly before we met, and even though I said I hated him, she was still secretly talking to him behind my back. She claims nothing happened but she made excuses for him when he made it clear he wanted to fuck her still even after when she and I first got together. She says she cut him off completely now but I’ll always have a nagging feeling if he’s still around.

Anyway, despite my hatred, I couldn’t help but feel growing arousal. Eventually, I caved in:

I jacked off to a picture of them together that she sent me (when we first got together) and imagined his bigger frame plowing her much smaller frame. When I finished, I realized that this is something I did on my own free will. I wasn’t coerced into it, and gave in to those thoughts on my own accord.

I got off to a picture of my gf with someone I hate, and that completely confirms I’m a cuck through and through.

Recently this last weekend my gf canceled a date we had planned for a while because one of her “guy friends” texted her asking to hang out and she chose to be with him over our date.

For context we mutually agreed she’s allowed to quietly sleep around and I simply feign ignorance to her exploits.

How often does the woman choose you over the cuck?

My gf has had a pass for several months now to quietly see other guys in the pretense that they’re *guy friends/coworkers*and I feign ignorance (this is a mutually agreed upon setup).

This last Saturday I had planned a date for us for the entire afternoon/night but the morning of one of her *friends* hit her up asking her if she was free. She told me that we could reschedule our thing because she had been wanting to hang out with him for a while. I couldn’t deny that I was really turned on by having my date blown off while she spent time with another man on such short notice.

The next morning she had brunch with her girlfriends from work and she’s told me in the past that they talk about all the guys they hook up with, and she tells me about the guys they’re seeing. However, when I asked about what she told them about us yesterday, she said she told her friends that “we’re good” but I’ve no doubt she’s told them about our arrangement (and how she blew off our date) because she’s told them about my lack of experience and ED when we started dating.

Any cucks gone through something similar where your date was pushed to the side?

My gf has had a pass for several months now to quietly see other guys in the pretense that they’re *guy friends/coworkers* and I feign ignorance (this is a mutually agreed upon setup).

This last Saturday I had planned a date for us for the entire afternoon/night but the morning of one of her *friends* hit her up asking her if she was free. She told me that we could reschedule our thing because she had been wanting to hang out with him for a while. I couldn’t deny that I was really turned on by having my date blown off while she spent time with another man on such short notice.

The next morning she had brunch with her girlfriends from work and she’s told me in the past that they talk about all the guys they hook up with, and she tells me about the guys they’re seeing. However, when I asked about what she told them about us yesterday, she said she told her friends that “we’re good” but I’ve no doubt she’s told them about our arrangement (and how she blew off our date) because she’s told them about my lack of experience and ED when we started dating.

Any cucks gone through something similar where your date was pushed to the side?

I’m not necessarily talking about dick size or performance in bed, but differences outside the bedroom.

My gf’s “guy friends” tend to be taller gym-rat types.

I’m pretty athletic and work out regularly, but in terms of height and lifting heavy, the men she prefers have me beat. I also tend to be more passive and go with the flow of things, while her “friends” are pretty assertive.

How about for the rest of you?

It’s heavily implied my gf cheated on me with her old fwb (although I have nothing concrete) and one thing lead to another and she has permission to quietly cuck me with other guys. Me knowing she’s getting it from somewhere else isn’t what’s most emasculating or humbling, it’s how she builds them up.

She’ll show me reels that her guy friends/coworkers send her and tell me how funny they are. Meanwhile, she very rarely laughs at anything I say or send to her and she tells me I’m not funny.

Not only that, some of her guy friends were talking down on me when we first started dating, and she treated it all in good fun. But when I tried to return the favor, she gave me a huge lecture that they didn’t mean anything by it and how I need to let it go and focus on the positive stuff and defends them.

Lastly, I’ll tell her how I hit a new bench record, and she’ll say something like “aww my coworker can easily bench you”

It’s like no matter what it is, her “guy coworkers/friends” are better than me.

It’s heavily implied my gf cheated on me with her old fwb (although I have nothing concrete) and one thing lead to another and she has permission to quietly cuck me with other guys. Me knowing she’s getting it from somewhere else isn’t what’s most emasculating or humbling, it’s how she builds them up.

She’ll show me reels that her guy friends/coworkers send her and tell me how funny they are. Meanwhile, she very rarely laughs at anything I say or send to her and she tells me I’m not funny.

Not only that, some of her guy friends were talking down on me when we first started dating, and she treated it all in good fun. But when I tried to return the favor, she gave me a huge lecture that they didn’t mean anything by it and how I need to let it go and focus on the positive stuff and defends them.

Lastly, I’ll tell her how I hit a new bench record, and she’ll say something like “aww my coworker can easily bench you”

It’s like no matter what it is, her “guy coworkers/friends” are better than me. Anybody else relate to this?

Fantasizing lately about a guy who’s taller, more physically fit, stronger, and a much bigger dick. He allows me to get a few free hits in but he isn’t even phased by it.

He then proceeds to destroy me and roughs me up and then grabs me by the hair and forces me to suck his dick. After that, he forces me into a bear hug and squeezes me in his arms until I pass out. Then he throws me on the bed or floor like a rag doll and then fucks my ass until he finishes deep inside me.

After that, we fall asleep together with me as the little spoon, having been made into his bitch.

My gf had this guy friend who wanted her as a side bitch and would fuck her regularly. He was an enormous toxic asshole and made it clear that he still wanted to fuck my gf (and she made excuses for him saying that he was joking) when we got together.

She was secretly talking to him still behind my back (but cut him off after I found out) and something inside just broke. One thing lead to another and my gf is allowed to quietly sleep around again (although idk if he’s around again).

I say out loud that I hate him, but deep down I’m starting to admire him and the way he fucked my gf and how he was the only person that my gf treated with real respect and consideration. He’s the definition of an asshole, but for some reason I’m beginning to get turned on by him and how my gf just makes all kinds of excuses for him.

My gf had this guy friend who wanted her as a side bitch and would fuck her regularly. He was an enormous toxic asshole and made it clear that he still wanted to fuck my gf (and she made excuses for him saying that he was joking) when we got together. For further context, my gf was a huge slut before she and I met.

She was secretly talking to him still behind my back (but cut him off after I found out) and something inside just broke. When I asked to see her messages with him, they were all deleted; and she’d have one on one meetings with him before she lied about cutting him off. One thing lead to another and my gf is allowed to quietly sleep around again (although idk if he’s around again).

I say out loud that I hate him, but deep down I’m starting to admire him and the way he fucked my gf and how he was the only person that my gf treated with real respect and consideration. He’s the definition of an asshole, but why am I now getting turned on by him, even though my gf most likely cheated on me with him?

My gf had this guy friend who wanted her as a side bitch and would fuck her regularly. He was an enormous toxic asshole and made it clear that he still wanted to fuck my gf (and she made excuses for him saying that he was joking) when we got together. For further context, my gf was a huge slut before she and I met.

She was secretly talking to him still behind my back (but cut him off after I found out) and something inside just broke. When I asked to see her messages with him, they were all deleted; and she’d have one on one meetings with him before she lied about cutting him off. One thing lead to another and my gf is allowed to quietly sleep around again (although idk if he’s around again).

I say out loud that I hate him, but deep down I’m starting to admire him and the way he fucked my gf and how he was the only person that my gf treated with real respect and consideration. He’s the definition of an asshole, but why am I now getting turned on by him, even though my gf most likely cheated on me with him?

My gf had this guy friend who wanted her as a side bitch and would fuck her regularly. He was an enormous toxic asshole and made it clear that he still wanted to fuck my gf (and she made excuses for him saying that he was joking) when we got together.

She was secretly talking to him still behind my back (but cut him off after I found out) and something inside just broke. One thing lead to another and my gf is allowed to quietly sleep around again (although idk if he’s around again).

I say out loud that I hate him, but deep down I’m starting to admire him and the way he fucked my gf and how he was the only person that my gf treated with real respect and consideration. He’s the definition of an asshole, but why am I now getting turned on by him?

After my gf was given a pass to quietly sleep around, we went without sex for close to 3 months, and fairly recently we had sex twice and the last time she has started to get more critical about my performance. We haven’t had sex since then

Before she would say things like I’d fuck her deep and be more into it. But now she went on her phone while I was behind her and said things like “is that really all you have?” It’s like her filter is completely gone.

How common is it for Bulls to hear stuff like this from the hotwife towards the cuck? Do you feel bad for the cuck or does it give you a sense of pride?

Part of the reason why my gf got with me was because she said I didn’t give off toxic masculinity vibes compared to the men she’d fuck regularly.

Now two of my woman friends who previously rejected me are telling me about the men they’re with now, and I just can’t compare with them physically (taller and stronger looking). One is a fireman while the other is in law enforcement and I cant help but think to myself “no wonder you were rejected” and I can’t help but feel further cucked even if it doesn’t quite fit the bill.

Any other betas gone through something similar?