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I confronted her last Sunday about her affair with her former fuckbuddy, and not only did she confirm it, but she basically said that she wants the best sex possible, and no other guy can fuck her like he does. She also said that if I didn’t like it, I’m free to leave. I asked her why she didn’t just get into a relationship with him, and she said that they can’t stand each other to be in a relationship, but the sex with him is unreal.

I thought about how my gf effectively wears the pants, controls the finances, orders me to do favors for her and her family, decides what we watch, etc. and how good it feels to give up the autonomy and embrace the disrespect while simping for her. Against my better judgement and what others suggested, I decided to give in further and stick with this and see just where it goes.

I agreed that I was okay with her seeing him still, and all she retorted with was “good.” As if she was annoyed that I brought this up in the first place.

I know this isn’t healthy, but there’s just something liberating just doing whatever she says while letting her do whatever she wants. Not only that, she’s going to be getting fucked still by a guy who’s just more physically imposing than me. He tried getting with her before (he knew she and I were together) and she made all kinds of excuses for him when I got mad. She even laughed when he wanted her as a side bitch if he ever got with someone else.

Now it’s like I’m admitting that he won and I’m really just here to be my gf’s simp bitch.

My gf has had a quiet pass to fuck around after I found out she was emotionally cheating on me with her old fuckbuddy that I hate, but insisted that he was out of the picture for a while. For several months now, she’s been prone to cancel dates on me to go hang out with her guy friends and I would just feign ignorance and tell her to have fun.

Last week, I found out that she not only still emotionally cheating with her old fuckbuddy, but that he was one of the guy friends she’d visit (even lied about having to go to work but was off seeing him overnight) and I felt my stomach drop. I took some time to figure out what to do, because on one hand the betrayal stung, but on the other hand I couldn’t deny how good the pain felt along with the arousal it came with. Begrudgingly, I also couldn’t help deny that my hatred for him was slowly being replaced with respect and admiration, and had even came to a photo of them together before I was with my gf on my own accord (neither of them know this). I couldn’t help but acknowledge the fact that he’s the only person my gf actually respects.

I had my suspicions and gut feelings that he was still around, and it turns out I was right all along. I confronted her yesterday, and not only did she confirm it, but she basically said that she wants the best sex possible, and no other guy can fuck her like he does. She also said that if I didn’t like it, I’m free to leave. I asked her why she didn’t just get into a relationship with him, and she said that they can’t stand each other to be in a relationship, but the sex with him is unreal. Not only that, she missed him making her laugh and confiding in him about her relationships/real-life issues, without having the strings attached like a normal relationship.

I thought about how my gf effectively wears the pants, controls the finances, orders me to do favors for her and her family, decides what we watch, etc. and how good it feels to give up the autonomy and embrace the disrespect while simping for her. Against my better judgement, I decided to give in further and stick with this and see just where it goes.

I agreed that I was okay with her seeing him still, and all she retorted with was “good.” As if she was annoyed that I brought this up in the first place.

I know this isn’t healthy, but there’s just something liberating just doing whatever she says while letting her do whatever she wants. Not only that, she’s going to be getting fucked still by a guy who’s just more physically imposing than me. It’s also a major blow knowing that she actually laughs at his jokes, listens to his suggestions, and paints him in nothing but a positive light. He tried getting with her before (he knew she and I were together) and she made all kinds of excuses for him when I got mad. She even laughed when he wanted her as a side bitch if he ever got with someone else.

Now it’s like I’m admitting that he won and I’m really just here to be my gf’s simp bitch.

I confronted her yesterday about her affair with her former fuckbuddy, and not only did she confirm it, but she basically said that she wants the best sex possible, and no other guy can fuck her like he does. She also said that if I didn’t like it, I’m free to leave. I asked her why she didn’t just get into a relationship with him, and she said that they can’t stand each other to be in a relationship, but the sex with him is unreal.

I thought about how my gf effectively wears the pants, controls the finances, orders me to do favors for her and her family, decides what we watch, etc. and how good it feels to give up the autonomy and embrace the disrespect while simping for her. Against my better judgement and what others suggested, I decided to give in further and stick with this and see just where it goes.

I agreed that I was okay with her seeing him still, and all she retorted with was “good.” As if she was annoyed that I brought this up in the first place.

I know this isn’t healthy, but there’s just something liberating just doing whatever she says while letting her do whatever she wants. Not only that, she’s going to be getting fucked still by a guy who’s just more physically imposing than me. He tried getting with her before (he knew she and I were together) and she made all kinds of excuses for him when I got mad. She even laughed when he wanted her as a side bitch if he ever got with someone else.

Now it’s like I’m admitting that he won and I’m really just here to be my gf’s simp bitch.

My gf has had a pass for a while now, and she got it after I found out she was emotionally cheating on me with her old fuckbuddy that I hate, but insisted that he was out of the picture for a while. For several months now, she’s been prone to cancel dates on me to go hang out with her guy friends and I would just feign ignorance and tell her to have fun.

Last week, however, I found out that she not only still talking to her old fuckbuddy, but that he was one of the guy friends she’d visit (even lied about having to go to work but was off seeing him overnight) and I felt my stomach drop. I took some time to figure out what to do, because on one hand the betrayal stung, but on the other hand I couldn’t deny how good the pain felt along with the arousal it came with. Begrudgingly, I also couldn’t help deny that my hatred for him was slowly being replaced with respect and admiration, and had even came to a photo of them together before I was with my gf on my own accord (neither of them know this).

I had my suspicions and gut feelings that he was still around, and it turns out I was right all along. I confronted her yesterday, and not only did she confirm it, but she basically said that she wants the best sex possible, and no other guy can fuck her like he does. She also said that if I didn’t like it, I’m free to leave. I asked her why she didn’t just get into a relationship with him, and she said that they can’t stand each other to be in a relationship, but the sex with him is unreal.

I thought about how my gf effectively wears the pants, controls the finances, orders me to do favors for her and her family, decides what we watch, etc. and how good it feels to give up the autonomy and embrace the disrespect while simping for her. Against my better judgement, I decided to give in further and stick with this and see just where it goes.

I agreed that I was okay with her seeing him still, and all she retorted with was “good.” As if she was annoyed that I brought this up in the first place.

I know this isn’t healthy, but there’s just something liberating just doing whatever she says while letting her do whatever she wants. Not only that, she’s going to be getting fucked still by a guy who’s just more physically imposing than me. He tried getting with her before (he knew she and I were together) and she made all kinds of excuses for him when I got mad. She even laughed when he wanted her as a side bitch if he ever got with someone else.

Now it’s like I’m admitting that he won and I’m really just here to be my gf’s simp bitch.

After a long talk with my gf over the weekend, she’s going to resume seeing her old fuckbuddy that I’ve hated for the longest time, although I’ve begrudgingly come to terms that I respect and admire him as he scratched my deep cuck itch a long time ago. She knows I hate him, but explained she wants the best sex possible and he gives that to her. While conflicted, I can’t help but feel aroused with leaning into the humiliation, as he tried making a move on her early into our relationship and slid into her DMs a long while later. In a way, it’s like he’s saying “I won.”

How did it play out for you when she cucked you with someone you hate? What was her reasoning and what made it easier for you to accept?

Disclaimer: if you want to say something like “I’d never go with someone my husband didn’t approve of” or “my gf wouldn’t fuck someone I didn’t like” please move on. I want insight from others who’ve gone through something similar as me.

Recap from previous posts if you’ve been following: I found out my gf was emotionally cheating on me with her old fuckbuddy, went from being devastated to getting off on it, and then went from my hatred for the guy being morphed into respect.

Last night my gf was taking a shower and l was about to leave her place, but noticed she left her phone in her room. Against my better judgment I just had to know if she was still seeing her old fuckbuddy. Emotional cheating was one thing, but physically sleeping with this guy would be something else entirely.

I found their chat and he was under a different contact name, and I felt my stomach just drop. They met up last week on a night where she said she was going to work her night shift. She had dressed in her uniform and FaceTimed me as she was driving, hanging up saying that she was at work, but she was really driving to him…

I didn’t have a lot of time to read the texts, but from the looks of it they’ve been at least talking for a while, and left before my gf got out of the shower. I haven’t talked to my gf aside from a text telling her I got home.

This morning I still felt sick to my stomach, but what’s even worse was I felt this growing arousal. I was already conflicted when I jerked off to a picture of them together, but this would be on a different level. I couldn’t stop thinking about what people have been telling me on here: how I actually liked how my gf would open her legs for anybody before we met and how my hatred for him was turning into respect and admiration, so I just gave in…

I came faster than I can remember, and the PNC was no doubt painful. My gf already had a quiet hall pass, but she insisted that her old fuckbuddy was out of the picture. Knowing that it’s him, and knowing that she has now lied twice to me about it even after she knew how much I hated him (at least at first), just hurts so good in a different way that I can’t even really describe.

I’ve thought about confronting her, but another part of me just wants to keep my mouth shut and just let it happen and see where it goes.

I posted this in another forum so I thought I’d post this here.

Almost 3 months ago I came to a picture of my gf and her affair partner who she used to fuck a lot before we met. At one point he tried making a move on her and she made excuses for him when I was mad, saying that he was just joking and was only her guy best friend. Long story short she told me she had cut him off, but turns out she lied to me and was still talking to him behind my back. While I have no concrete proof, it would be to the surprise of nobody if she actually physically cheated.

I was conflicted with my emotions because on one hand, I came harder than ever. On the other hand, I was filled with shame.

I couldn’t stop jacking off to thoughts of them and I still can’t. When I first jacked off to their picture, while harder than I’ve been in a while, I did it reluctantly. Now I’m beating it furiously like a monkey. After talking with others, I found out I was simply embracing my cuckold mindset and being honest with myself.

Now every time I finish, my hatred for him disappears a little and it gets replaced respect and admiration. Even when I’m going about my day normally, the thought of him making a move on my gf doesn’t fill me with anger anymore, but I feel myself getting hard.

I’ve tried fighting these thoughts for a long time but now I’m simply going to embrace him. He’s better than me and that’s why my gf cheated on me with him.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not here to judge. You’re all completely justified in your cheating, I’m just curious to see what reasons you used for yourselves.

Was your partner bad in bed?

Did your partner piss you off so you decided to get back at them?

Did you just feel like it?

Let’s hear your reasons!

Here’s what I mean by my title:

Something you wanted right away being something that you and your partner agreed upon to spice up your bedroom life and understood this was something you could stop at any time.

Or

Something you had to accept that no matter what, whether it was a mutual agreement or cheated on or some other factor, you were always going to end up as a cuck so you simply embraced the thoughts after trying to reject them initially.

Almost 3 months ago I came to a picture of my gf and her affair partner who she used to fuck a lot before we met. Long story short she lied to me and was still talking to him behind my back. I was conflicted with my emotions because on one hand, I came harder than ever. On the other hand, I was filled with shame.

I couldn’t stop jacking off to thoughts of them and I still can’t. After talking with others, I found out I was simply embracing my cuckold mindset and being honest with myself.

Now every time I finish, my hatred for him disappears a little and it gets replaced respect and admiration. Even when I’m going about my day normally, the thought of him making a move on my gf doesn’t fill me with anger anymore, but I feel myself getting hard.

I’ve tried fighting these thoughts for a long time but now I’m simply going to embrace him. He’s better than me and that’s why my gf cheated on me with him.

And I’m ashamed that I’m turned on by it and hope that they are.

I’m extremely conflicted about this, because she for sure already emotionally cheated on me with him. She knew I hated him, but she was still secretly talking to him behind my back, and it was extremely suspicious that she deleted her entire messages with him after I found out.

Even though I hate him, a part of me was secretly admires him (to the point of bi-curious thoughts) and is turned on by the fact that he got my gf to lie to me and how my gf treats him as if he can do absolutely no wrong. He wanted my gf as a side bitch at one point and my gf was actually open to the idea before we met.

To make it worse, I just gave in and recently got off on an old photo of them together and that was its own mindfuck because that confirmed that I really am a cuck (she’s had a quiet pass for a while now). Others I’ve chatted with told me that there’s nothing wrong with me and I’m simply beginning to embrace the deeper aspects of the cuck wiring.

I looked back on old texts between us and I realized that he lives relatively close to where she works. She works as a nurse, and that stigma that they’re known to cheat is getting to me.

It would be to the surprise of nobody that they were still fucking considering how much she built him up and defended him when he wanted us to have an open relationship, and the worst part about it is that I’m secretly hoping that they are, even though I hate him.

I’ve gone from hating him, to secretly admiring him, to jacking off at a pic of my gf with him, and now I’m getting off at the idea that he’s still fucking my gf. She told me that he’s out of the picture completely now, but that’s what she said before I found out they were still talking.

I thought about snooping my gf’s phone, and if they are still fucking I’d be devastated, but at the same time the thought makes me harder than ever.

And I’m ashamed that I’m turned on by it and hope that they are.

I’m extremely conflicted about this, because she for sure already emotionally cheated on me with him. She knew I hated him, but she was still secretly talking to him behind my back, and it was extremely suspicious that she deleted her entire messages with him after I found out.

Even though I hate him, a part of me was secretly admires him (to the point of bi-curious thoughts) and is turned on by the fact that he got my gf to lie to me and how my gf treats him as if he can do absolutely no wrong. He wanted my gf as a side bitch at one point and my gf was actually open to the idea before we met.

To make it worse, I just gave in and recently got off on an old photo of them together and that was its own mindfuck because that confirmed that I really am a cuck (she’s had a quiet pass for a while now). Others I’ve chatted with told me that there’s nothing wrong with me and I’m simply beginning to embrace the deeper aspects of the cuck wiring.

I looked back on old texts between us and I realized that he lives relatively close to where she works. She works as a night nurse, and statistically they’re known to cheat.

It would be to the surprise of nobody that they were still fucking considering how much she built him up and defended him when he wanted us to have an open relationship, and the worst part about it is that I’m secretly hoping that they are, even though I hate him.

I’ve gone from hating him, to secretly admiring him, to jacking off at a pic of my gf with him, and now I’m getting off at the idea that he’s still fucking my gf. She told me that he’s out of the picture completely now, but that’s what she said before I found out they were still talking.

I thought about snooping my gf’s phone, and if they are still fucking I’d be devastated, but at the same time the thought makes me harder than ever.

I’m extremely conflicted about this, because she for sure already emotionally cheated on me with him, and it was extremely suspicious that she deleted her entire messages with him after I found out.

However, I recently got off on an old photo of them together and that was its own mindfuck because that confirmed that I really am a cuck (she’s had a quiet pass for a while now). I looked back on old texts between us and I realized that he lives relatively close to where she works. She works as a night nurse, and statistically they’re known to cheat.

It would be to the surprise of nobody that they were still fucking considering how much she built him up and defended him, and the worst part about it is that I’m secretly hoping that they are, even though I hate him.

I’ve gone from hating him, to secretly admiring him, to jacking off at a pic of my gf with him, and now I’m getting off at the idea that he’s still fucking my gf.

I thought about snooping my gf’s phone, and if they are still fucking I’d be devastated, but at the same time the thought makes me harder than ever.

My gf has had a quiet hall pass for several months now and a while ago I got off on a pic of my gf with the guy she emotionally cheated on me with and also who I hate. I received comforting advice in that there was nothing wrong with me and I was only finding out how deep the cuck wiring is and that I was finally being honest with myself.

Now I find myself looking at her old texts about her many exploits, and began thinking “I wish I was the one who got passed around like a basketball”

How common is it to go through these bi-curious thoughts for cucks? How did you deal with them?

I’ve already been a cuck several months now with my gf quietly sleeping around while I feign ignorance, but I recently did something that cemented I’m one for good.

I was emotionally cheated on (also very likely physically cheated on) by my gf with an fwb that she’d fuck constantly before we met, and even though I said I hated him, she was still secretly talking to him behind my back. She claims nothing happened but she made excuses for him when he made it clear he wanted to fuck her still even after when she and I first got together. She says she cut him off completely now but I’ll always have a nagging feeling if he’s still around.

Anyway, despite my hatred, I couldn’t help but feel growing arousal. Eventually, I caved in:

I jacked off to a picture of them together that she sent me (when we first got together) and imagined his bigger frame plowing her much smaller frame. When I finished, I realized that this is something I did on my own free will. I wasn’t coerced into it, and gave in to those thoughts on my own accord.

I thought about all the times she’d hype him up and put him on a pedestal. I thought about her defending him all the times I tried calling out his asshole behavior. I thought about how he was the only person she’d actually respect and laugh at his jokes. I thought about all of this and it only made me harder and finish faster as I looked at their photo.

I got off to a picture of my gf with someone I hate, and that completely confirms I’m a cuck through and through.

For me, it was when I jerked to pics of my gf and her previous fwb that I hate after I found out she was having an emotional affair with him. It was something I did on my own accord and indisputable that I’m a cuck deep down.

What was the moment or event that cemented it for you guys?

Had a recent talk with my gf about her past, and she made it clear that she doesn’t regret getting passed around more than a basketball.

She got fucked to about 30 different guys before we met, and these ranged from guys who:

Regularly fucked her and didn’t respect her at all

Treated her as a side bitch

Getting fucked in bathrooms at her work

Getting fucked in parking lots

Immediately agreeing to sex if a guy so much as messaged her for it from the get-go

And a lot more.

I asked her if she was embarrassed by it, but she said “No. After my previous relationship, I wanted to explore and see what I was missing out.”

I recently hate-jerked to a pic of my gf and the guy she emotionally cheated on me with (and she knew I hated him) and I haven’t stopped thinking about it. She’s been allowed to quietly sleep around for several months now without sharing any details with me, but doing this on my own accord really cut deep more than anything else.

Someone told me that they were in my exact position and understood the emotions of shame, confusion, sickness, and arousal. They further explained that there is nothing wrong with me, it’s just that I’m finding out just how deep the cuck-wiring gets, and that I was finally being honest with myself and what I really am. I recently came to terms that I secretly admired the guy despite my hatred for him and the effect he had on my gf and simply gave in.

I’m still filled with shame with what I did, because despite everything else, this really feels like the point of no return and there’s no denying that I really am a cuck.